Today I went to see a lady for NLP therapy. I needed to address the trust problems I have with my band, and also the need to completely sabotage my weightloss. It was good. I was not sure if I was under or not, but actually I must have been because although I heard every word that she said, I thought I was under about 10 minutes and it was an hour and a half. The poor woman was horse. I also have a tape of it too, so that will help me in the next few days. I feel good and positive, in myself, if a little dubious about the treatment. I guess that everyone must feel that way. This was a total suggestive therapy and I didn't talk at all. During the session I wrote my ideal weight and size on a board and visualised myself that way. I wrote 12 stone. I thought that was odd because I normally think of 11 stone as being my goal, but maybe I am being unrealistic with that. So apparently my body will want to level itself at 12 stone for the rest of my life. Considering she says this is a 1 time session and I will not need another session - it will work - I should be thrilled and seeing results soon. However, I do get that horrible little thing at the back of my mind that thinks "why isn't everyone doing this then..?"
Hopefully its just the cynic in me. Who knows, we shall see.
It was £30 by the way and her name is Joy - ironic considering the slimmingworld pig's name was Joy too...
On that note, I rejoined Slimmingworld, as I said I would, with Georgina's class on a Monday morning. I weighed in at a hefty 17 stone and half a pound. I wont be able to go to the class this Monday because its a bank holiday and although its been re-scheduled for Tuesday, that's the day we go to the Czech republic. We come back the following Monday, so its going to be 3 weeks before I get a weigh in. I think this will be a good test of the NLP and also my willpower.
Something strange happened at slimmingworld this week too. You go to a stand to get weighed and the lady writes down your weight in your book and as she was doing this she asked "Have you had the lap band removed now then?"....
I haven't told anyone apart from he consultant that I have a lapband at slimmingworld. Consider the sniggers... "had a lapband but getting fatter!" "paid all that money but its not working is it! Still has to come here!" NO! There is no way I was going to tell any of the hoi-pol-oi at slimmingworld about my band, EVER.
So how did this woman know?
HOW DARE THEY TELL THAT?
Those who have been reading this blog for a long time will remember the trouble I had at Slimmingworld PIG Joy's class when someone came up to me and asked me if I had a band when even JOY should not have known (since I didn't tell her!!!). Talk about no confidentiality at all. I am so upset about it, but I am biding my time as I need to find out where this little woman heard that I had a band, and how many other people know. When she tells me that it was Georgina (as that's the ONLY person there who knows about it and should have held that information in the strictest of confidence as the consultant being paid by slimmingworld), then I will plan what to do.
I am NOT having that.
Wednesday, 20 May 2009
Friday, 15 May 2009
Hey hey on the way
Ok, had a few good days. I have sworn off the evil drink (boo hoo) as I know that's just liquid calories, all be it nice liquid calories!! Haven't had any sick making incidents, and have had evening meals and even a couple of lunches without a problem. They haven't bee the best of choices however, but still better than snacking and junk.
I have had sausage and chips, curry, fish fingers, chicken Kiev and a few other things that aren't fabulous diet wise, but no junk and no wine. Will weigh myself again on Monday and see where we are at.
I am also going back to slimmingworld as I like the weekly weigh in and it helps keep my mind focused on weight loss. Then on Wednesday evening I am going for an NLP session with a local lady who is excellent. I need to get over my fear of the band going wrong. I think my block is psychological, and I think it needs to be something deeper that counselling or similar, and I need it fixed fast.
Tonights tea is Shepherds Pie & Peas. strictly this is cottage pie as I am making it with Beef, not lamb but I gre up with it being called sheperds pie, so thats what I call it now. I think real shepherds pie is gross and minced lamb disgusting. Its way too fatty, even for me!
Tuesday our Romanian Truck driver lodger Stefan left the establishment. It was with a huge sigh of relief as he really did make us worried. He came back one night absolutely paralytic - and had driven over 20 miles to get back home. He could hardly stand. I reported him to the police and told them he didn't have insurance either (he told me that!) and the next night he didn't come home.
I did have thoughts that he'd been nicked, but then his friend brought him home to collect a few bits for a trip to London. He came back that evening, and the next day a friend came and picked him up for work. The same friend brought him home again and then turned up again the following morning to take Stefan to London again. It was when he came home that evening (Tuesday) and said he was moving to London and his friend was there to help him move his stuff that I put 2 and 2 together. 3 days I hadn't seen the car, and now he was off to London! His car had obviously been written off or taken by the police and now he was off. Whatever, he is out of here. I don't want people like that running around my house.
Right, off to have my hair cut.
I have had sausage and chips, curry, fish fingers, chicken Kiev and a few other things that aren't fabulous diet wise, but no junk and no wine. Will weigh myself again on Monday and see where we are at.
I am also going back to slimmingworld as I like the weekly weigh in and it helps keep my mind focused on weight loss. Then on Wednesday evening I am going for an NLP session with a local lady who is excellent. I need to get over my fear of the band going wrong. I think my block is psychological, and I think it needs to be something deeper that counselling or similar, and I need it fixed fast.
Tonights tea is Shepherds Pie & Peas. strictly this is cottage pie as I am making it with Beef, not lamb but I gre up with it being called sheperds pie, so thats what I call it now. I think real shepherds pie is gross and minced lamb disgusting. Its way too fatty, even for me!
Tuesday our Romanian Truck driver lodger Stefan left the establishment. It was with a huge sigh of relief as he really did make us worried. He came back one night absolutely paralytic - and had driven over 20 miles to get back home. He could hardly stand. I reported him to the police and told them he didn't have insurance either (he told me that!) and the next night he didn't come home.
I did have thoughts that he'd been nicked, but then his friend brought him home to collect a few bits for a trip to London. He came back that evening, and the next day a friend came and picked him up for work. The same friend brought him home again and then turned up again the following morning to take Stefan to London again. It was when he came home that evening (Tuesday) and said he was moving to London and his friend was there to help him move his stuff that I put 2 and 2 together. 3 days I hadn't seen the car, and now he was off to London! His car had obviously been written off or taken by the police and now he was off. Whatever, he is out of here. I don't want people like that running around my house.
Right, off to have my hair cut.
Monday, 11 May 2009
Drastic
Peeps, its time to bulk buy slimfast.
I just cant do this.
Typical day (foodwise) for me ATM:
Coffee x 5
crisps
coleslaw
main evening dinner (too large for a bandit)
pudding
wine
crisps and junk
muller corners
Its a cycle. Hate self.
I am going to do what I should have done when we started this journey - slimfast for 2 weeks prior to the operation.
Now, I have to say that I was NEVER told to go on a diet before the operation. I phoned and was booked my surgery 3 weeks later, and basically ate like a hog for those 3 weeks. If they had told me I needed to do slimfast from that moment on, I would have done it. I was in the zone and ready to commit. After being in band land for the last 2 and a half years I now know that the vast majority of band patients are on 'optifast' or slimfast for several weeks prior so at to shrink their liver and prepare for the surgery with nutrients.
So, I think I need to go back and do this again in my head. I am going to do slimfast for 2 weeks and hopefully kick start some weight loss, get myself feeling better in that regard (no weight loss = comfort eating = weight gain = comfort eating = weight gain... ad infinitum) and then hopefully break this habit of self destruction.
I am re taking my oaths that I decided on pre surgery - no crap food.
I don't feel good. I don't feel healthy. I don't wake refreshed. I feel rubbish, sluggish, lethargic and sticky on the inside.
Once I have got my stuff together in my head, purged my body of toxins and rubbish food, I am going to re assess the situation and see if I can get this thing to work for me.
Life news... well not a lot. 2 kittens have gone to their new homes, so that means less blood loss from kitten inflicted leg lacerations, of which there are numerous.
Geoffrey had his second set of injections today and also a microchip with which he howled like billio! WOW, he really didn't like that at all. such a big needle for such a small doggy. But its all done now and I feel better about it. It was good because I had 27 tablets left from the kittens medication that I could get a refund for, so it offset the price meaning chipping only came to £5. Nice.
Can't wait to take him out for a walk.
I just cant do this.
Typical day (foodwise) for me ATM:
Coffee x 5
crisps
coleslaw
main evening dinner (too large for a bandit)
pudding
wine
crisps and junk
muller corners
Its a cycle. Hate self.
I am going to do what I should have done when we started this journey - slimfast for 2 weeks prior to the operation.
Now, I have to say that I was NEVER told to go on a diet before the operation. I phoned and was booked my surgery 3 weeks later, and basically ate like a hog for those 3 weeks. If they had told me I needed to do slimfast from that moment on, I would have done it. I was in the zone and ready to commit. After being in band land for the last 2 and a half years I now know that the vast majority of band patients are on 'optifast' or slimfast for several weeks prior so at to shrink their liver and prepare for the surgery with nutrients.
So, I think I need to go back and do this again in my head. I am going to do slimfast for 2 weeks and hopefully kick start some weight loss, get myself feeling better in that regard (no weight loss = comfort eating = weight gain = comfort eating = weight gain... ad infinitum) and then hopefully break this habit of self destruction.
I am re taking my oaths that I decided on pre surgery - no crap food.
I don't feel good. I don't feel healthy. I don't wake refreshed. I feel rubbish, sluggish, lethargic and sticky on the inside.
Once I have got my stuff together in my head, purged my body of toxins and rubbish food, I am going to re assess the situation and see if I can get this thing to work for me.
Life news... well not a lot. 2 kittens have gone to their new homes, so that means less blood loss from kitten inflicted leg lacerations, of which there are numerous.
Geoffrey had his second set of injections today and also a microchip with which he howled like billio! WOW, he really didn't like that at all. such a big needle for such a small doggy. But its all done now and I feel better about it. It was good because I had 27 tablets left from the kittens medication that I could get a refund for, so it offset the price meaning chipping only came to £5. Nice.
Can't wait to take him out for a walk.
Monday, 27 April 2009
Going back to basics
Ok darlings, Bunny's going back to basics.
Its simply out of frustration at not being able to eat jack that has got me into this state.
I truly didn't know that people out there in band land drink-eat their breakfasts and often lunches and its made me feel a lot better knowing that fact.
So as of today I am going to try and turn over a new leaf and deal with the eating situation as it is. I cant afford to change it (i.e. get all the fluid out for a cool £100), and its only making me the most miserable beeyatch I know fighting the band to armageddon and back.
The only other option is to go with it.
So today I had a coffee for brekkie, and some chicken noodle soup for lunch. I like chicken noodle soup because I can drink the liquidy part and get the band eased a bit so that the noodles slip down in there too. I think I will make pasta puttanesca tonight - who would call a sauce Prostitute sauce...
No seriously thinking about it, only the prossies would know the recipe right? So if my husband came home and said "Hey darling, why not try putting tomato, capers, red peppers and lemon - hey throw in some tuna to the pasta tonight hey?" I would ask him where he got the recipe... "Oh, you know some prostitutes made it for me whilst I was at the whore house getting my rocks off you know". Yeah of COURSE he would say that!! To be honest I would wonder that any Italian man in 1600 would come back with a recipe for anything. I am sure its just been glamorised. It's probably 'housewife sauce' in all reality. I cant see that the prostitutes would have any 'different' ingredients to the general population. So seriously - how DID that name get into common circulation. I am pretty sure that no-one would have promoted it as that. I even did wikipedia on it and I don't believe it at all.
My finger is still splinted. Its still killing me, and I hate the gravel drive more now than I even did. It has got to be block-paved to within an inch of its life. You know it didn't even apologise for tripping me up!! How very dare it.
I have kitties are climbing up my legs right now. They certainly got over their nasty toxoplasmosis thing. Poor little babies! If I hadn't taken them to the vets they would have died. Apparently there are so many kittens born with it that they are called 'fading kittens' and apparently a lot of people just think they were not born right, or defective and aren't going to survive and have them put down. So sad that it isn't widely known. For the sake of 2 weeks antibiotics all 4 are perfect again.
We also picked up our little puppy Geoffrey yesterday and he is adorable.
I will post a photo of him on here when I get the card thingy out.
So, I'm hanging in there. Thanks for all your messages. And Tina... I am holding you to that drink! ;o)
Its simply out of frustration at not being able to eat jack that has got me into this state.
I truly didn't know that people out there in band land drink-eat their breakfasts and often lunches and its made me feel a lot better knowing that fact.
So as of today I am going to try and turn over a new leaf and deal with the eating situation as it is. I cant afford to change it (i.e. get all the fluid out for a cool £100), and its only making me the most miserable beeyatch I know fighting the band to armageddon and back.
The only other option is to go with it.
So today I had a coffee for brekkie, and some chicken noodle soup for lunch. I like chicken noodle soup because I can drink the liquidy part and get the band eased a bit so that the noodles slip down in there too. I think I will make pasta puttanesca tonight - who would call a sauce Prostitute sauce...
No seriously thinking about it, only the prossies would know the recipe right? So if my husband came home and said "Hey darling, why not try putting tomato, capers, red peppers and lemon - hey throw in some tuna to the pasta tonight hey?" I would ask him where he got the recipe... "Oh, you know some prostitutes made it for me whilst I was at the whore house getting my rocks off you know". Yeah of COURSE he would say that!! To be honest I would wonder that any Italian man in 1600 would come back with a recipe for anything. I am sure its just been glamorised. It's probably 'housewife sauce' in all reality. I cant see that the prostitutes would have any 'different' ingredients to the general population. So seriously - how DID that name get into common circulation. I am pretty sure that no-one would have promoted it as that. I even did wikipedia on it and I don't believe it at all.
My finger is still splinted. Its still killing me, and I hate the gravel drive more now than I even did. It has got to be block-paved to within an inch of its life. You know it didn't even apologise for tripping me up!! How very dare it.
I have kitties are climbing up my legs right now. They certainly got over their nasty toxoplasmosis thing. Poor little babies! If I hadn't taken them to the vets they would have died. Apparently there are so many kittens born with it that they are called 'fading kittens' and apparently a lot of people just think they were not born right, or defective and aren't going to survive and have them put down. So sad that it isn't widely known. For the sake of 2 weeks antibiotics all 4 are perfect again.
We also picked up our little puppy Geoffrey yesterday and he is adorable.
I will post a photo of him on here when I get the card thingy out.
So, I'm hanging in there. Thanks for all your messages. And Tina... I am holding you to that drink! ;o)
Sunday, 26 April 2009
Lovely
Hi there people,
Thanks for all your support. I guess I cant just put a statement on this blog and not explain :o)
Yeah, at the moment me and the band are not friends. I don't know whether its a head thing or what, but something ain't right. I don't seem to feel the way everyone else with a band feels.
My band wont let me eat anything half decent until at least 8pm. I spend most of my day starving hungry and only able to 'eat' liquids. When I get to the end of my tether I make some mash potato or something and try and eat it in nibbles, but it more often than not comes right back at me... this can go on for hours until the magic 8pm watershed and then all of a sudden I can finish the whole bowl off.
Then its bedtime and I know the whole rigmarole will start again the next day.
Some people suggest that my band is too tight. Well, I am sorry, but its not. I have been down the 'take some out' road with disastrous effect many times. They take out a bunch of saline and I spend maybe £400 getting it all topped up to the right point again... but staggeringly THAT POINT NEVER COMES!
I am not joking. I can be wide open and able to eat a whole pizza... go for a fill and be able to eat half a pizza, go for another fill and be able to eat 1/4 then another one and I suddenly can't eat anything, then I go back and have another tiny bit out (less that was originally taken out) and I can eat a whole flaming pizza again!!!!!!!!!!
This farce has got to end. I am so hacked off with my band I can't begin to describe it.
Couple that with the fact that I have had the operation twice and it still ain't working...
Obviously people are going to read this and think "well, if you eat pizza then...Pheph!" But I am just using it as an example. I actually cook all my food from scratch. I eat organic (heniously expensive) meat and veggies and limit oil etc etc.
The killer for me is actually the hellish nightmare BAND! Because I cant eat like a normal human being I actually feel my mood slide during the day and I feel like getting out the aspirin, a carving knife and a needle and thread and sorting the blasted thing out once and for all. It gets to 8pm and I am exhausted at the effort needed to eat. Every bite is a torture and I am fed up with it - then i grab chocolate and crap and sit in a puddle of dispair and self loathing feeling the pits of the deepest darkest prehistoric stinky swamp for eating rubbish.
I was 18 stone when I had this thing done 2 and a half years ago, and now I am 16 stone 9.
I am tearing my hair out and to be honest I think I would be better off without it. Like everyone, I was prepared to put in the hard graft, but I have been grafting for 2 and a half years and getting nowhere. Most of you who have struggled the same amount of time have actually lost loads of weight and life is looking great. My life is the exact same because every day I get on the scales it reminds me that I pissed £4500 down the toilet. I wish I had never bothered.
That's gonna annoy anyone off right?
Abuse and correct at will my freinds... somethings got to work.
Thanks for all your support. I guess I cant just put a statement on this blog and not explain :o)
Yeah, at the moment me and the band are not friends. I don't know whether its a head thing or what, but something ain't right. I don't seem to feel the way everyone else with a band feels.
My band wont let me eat anything half decent until at least 8pm. I spend most of my day starving hungry and only able to 'eat' liquids. When I get to the end of my tether I make some mash potato or something and try and eat it in nibbles, but it more often than not comes right back at me... this can go on for hours until the magic 8pm watershed and then all of a sudden I can finish the whole bowl off.
Then its bedtime and I know the whole rigmarole will start again the next day.
Some people suggest that my band is too tight. Well, I am sorry, but its not. I have been down the 'take some out' road with disastrous effect many times. They take out a bunch of saline and I spend maybe £400 getting it all topped up to the right point again... but staggeringly THAT POINT NEVER COMES!
I am not joking. I can be wide open and able to eat a whole pizza... go for a fill and be able to eat half a pizza, go for another fill and be able to eat 1/4 then another one and I suddenly can't eat anything, then I go back and have another tiny bit out (less that was originally taken out) and I can eat a whole flaming pizza again!!!!!!!!!!
This farce has got to end. I am so hacked off with my band I can't begin to describe it.
Couple that with the fact that I have had the operation twice and it still ain't working...
Obviously people are going to read this and think "well, if you eat pizza then...Pheph!" But I am just using it as an example. I actually cook all my food from scratch. I eat organic (heniously expensive) meat and veggies and limit oil etc etc.
The killer for me is actually the hellish nightmare BAND! Because I cant eat like a normal human being I actually feel my mood slide during the day and I feel like getting out the aspirin, a carving knife and a needle and thread and sorting the blasted thing out once and for all. It gets to 8pm and I am exhausted at the effort needed to eat. Every bite is a torture and I am fed up with it - then i grab chocolate and crap and sit in a puddle of dispair and self loathing feeling the pits of the deepest darkest prehistoric stinky swamp for eating rubbish.
I was 18 stone when I had this thing done 2 and a half years ago, and now I am 16 stone 9.
I am tearing my hair out and to be honest I think I would be better off without it. Like everyone, I was prepared to put in the hard graft, but I have been grafting for 2 and a half years and getting nowhere. Most of you who have struggled the same amount of time have actually lost loads of weight and life is looking great. My life is the exact same because every day I get on the scales it reminds me that I pissed £4500 down the toilet. I wish I had never bothered.
That's gonna annoy anyone off right?
Abuse and correct at will my freinds... somethings got to work.
Saturday, 25 April 2009
Oh boy
...well, I am typing with a broken finger. I know that sounds lame, but TRUST me, it's totally terrible.
Owwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
Tragically, there is no wicked amazing story to go with it. I just fell over at my doorstep - and No! I wasn't drunk either!!!
We got back from the cinema yesterday and I got the shopping out of the car then my ankle rolled over on the stupid gravel and that's it. Two very bruised knees, a sprained shoulder and a fractured middle knuckle on my left hand.
WAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!
Not fair man.
It was a totally RUBBISH day too. Started off excellent. I was lying in bed reading 2 Joanne Harris novels (Sleep Pale Sister and The Evil Seed, and yes I read two books at a time... I like to chop and change every half hour!) then whilst relaxing at 11:05am I remembered I had an opticians appointment at 11:25. IN THE NEXT TOWN.
So I raced off, got my eyes tested and ordered my prescription etc and then raced back as I was looking after a friends daughter for the day.
All was cool, we went to see Monsters V Aliens in 3D and it was on exiting the car after returning home that I did the ankle rick/falling over clumsy bit.
So I have a fracture to my PIP joint which will require 6-8 weeks in a splint and the therapy.
YAY
Today I tried to go to work. I got to my first appointment and decided I would never make it out of the village, so went home and told everyone they were welcome to come to my house, but there was no way I could get to theirs. They were all pretty cool about it, but only 2 of them actually came to have a lesson here. Ho humm.
When DH got home we decided to have a BBQ. We went off to Rainbow and bought some beef steaks, pork chops and sausages. When we returned Danie decided that HE was the KING of BBQ and told be how I was going wrong etc and how the fire was too hot and that to Brai or whatever they call it is like a ritual to them, and really really REALLY MUGGED ME OFF.
What a caveman. Seriously. I cannot believe that there are people out there who hate black people and think Women should be told what to do and Men are the best.
To be honest, I quite like a bit of "Oh honey, you sit down, I'll do this... its not good for you", but not to this extent. What a PIG IGNORANT SWINEHUND.
He is such a racists its unbelievable. I will not even tell you what he has said about black people in South Africa because its just so disgusting. He has only been here 6 weeks and I cant wait for him to go. He spent the last 10 days in SA and it was PURE bliss. The arrogant shmuck. His poor wife - seriously!!
So they are going on Thursday because they have found a flat. This is all his idea. She knows that its madness to take on a flat when she doesn't have a job and he hasn't even received his first pay cheque, but he knows what is best for them all. Idiot.
Web have a Romanian truck driver moving in on the 2nd May which should be good. Back to normal hopefully.
band - forget it. I wish the thing wasn't there.
Owwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
Tragically, there is no wicked amazing story to go with it. I just fell over at my doorstep - and No! I wasn't drunk either!!!
We got back from the cinema yesterday and I got the shopping out of the car then my ankle rolled over on the stupid gravel and that's it. Two very bruised knees, a sprained shoulder and a fractured middle knuckle on my left hand.
WAAAAAAAAAAaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa!
Not fair man.
It was a totally RUBBISH day too. Started off excellent. I was lying in bed reading 2 Joanne Harris novels (Sleep Pale Sister and The Evil Seed, and yes I read two books at a time... I like to chop and change every half hour!) then whilst relaxing at 11:05am I remembered I had an opticians appointment at 11:25. IN THE NEXT TOWN.
So I raced off, got my eyes tested and ordered my prescription etc and then raced back as I was looking after a friends daughter for the day.
All was cool, we went to see Monsters V Aliens in 3D and it was on exiting the car after returning home that I did the ankle rick/falling over clumsy bit.
So I have a fracture to my PIP joint which will require 6-8 weeks in a splint and the therapy.
YAY
Today I tried to go to work. I got to my first appointment and decided I would never make it out of the village, so went home and told everyone they were welcome to come to my house, but there was no way I could get to theirs. They were all pretty cool about it, but only 2 of them actually came to have a lesson here. Ho humm.
When DH got home we decided to have a BBQ. We went off to Rainbow and bought some beef steaks, pork chops and sausages. When we returned Danie decided that HE was the KING of BBQ and told be how I was going wrong etc and how the fire was too hot and that to Brai or whatever they call it is like a ritual to them, and really really REALLY MUGGED ME OFF.
What a caveman. Seriously. I cannot believe that there are people out there who hate black people and think Women should be told what to do and Men are the best.
To be honest, I quite like a bit of "Oh honey, you sit down, I'll do this... its not good for you", but not to this extent. What a PIG IGNORANT SWINEHUND.
He is such a racists its unbelievable. I will not even tell you what he has said about black people in South Africa because its just so disgusting. He has only been here 6 weeks and I cant wait for him to go. He spent the last 10 days in SA and it was PURE bliss. The arrogant shmuck. His poor wife - seriously!!
So they are going on Thursday because they have found a flat. This is all his idea. She knows that its madness to take on a flat when she doesn't have a job and he hasn't even received his first pay cheque, but he knows what is best for them all. Idiot.
Web have a Romanian truck driver moving in on the 2nd May which should be good. Back to normal hopefully.
band - forget it. I wish the thing wasn't there.
Sunday, 12 April 2009
*hanging head in shame*
Hello...
I know its been a long time, and I am so sorry Tina. I kept meaning to post and just didn't get around to it - then it was over a week and then two... you know how it goes.
so, how much has happened in the last few weeks? LOADS.
Right then, the last time I posted Rob was still with us and any day he was going to have his job finish and give us his notice. Well this happened 2 days later. He left us on the Wednesday, and we were actually out. We came home from the cinema to find a bottle of red and a nice note on the table thanking us for having him and making us welcome etc but that he had got his kit together and left that evening. (Oh and Erika - here you can get a great Shiraz for under £4 - bad news for me!)
So this was in fact quite good for us because he left only 3 days into his notice period and that meant that we could get someone in the room immediately. However, the lady who was lined up to take the room had already found somewhere else, but had not bothered telling us.
So, to make the room even more appealing we put a double bed in the room and some pictures and moved it all about and now it looks fabulous.
So we duly advertised the room, and had no takers (for about a week). During this week we went down to my Mum and Dad's to get my car MOT'd and it passed without any problems. groovy. We also went to see my brother in his cobblers shop and DS had a cool time there.
I think DS will have to do his work experience with my brother. They will have a great time. Its funny to think that both Bro and I were only 13 when we started cobbling. I was eased somewhat more gently into the trade being a 'girl' but by the time I was 15 I was mending like a pro. My Bro took my job when I left for college (we go at 16 here in the UK) and was mending on his first day. Now he runs the place. Good eh?
We came home, had some chocolate, wine, take aways and more rubbish and I just could not be bothered to diet in any way shape or form. We were in desperate need of spondoolics as the room was empty and wasting money.
On Saturday 14th March, 10 days after Rob left, we got a call from a lady called Jean. She was from South Africa and said that she had been trawling the net trying to find a room for her friends Danie and Claudine. D&C had apparently come to England to work for 5-10 years and were looking for a flat. She told them they were mad, and all they needed was a room in the general location until they were on their feet, had started jobs and had the capital behind them for the deposit bla bla bla. Both of their sons were in the British Forces, and were on leave trying to help them out. They also said they just needed a room, and Jean told us we sounded ideal.
I told her the room was still available and arranged to pick them up from the station on Monday so they could see the room. I was so desperate to get it filled, and this was the only call I had had in 10 days.
I went to fetch D&C and their two strapping twin lads from the station, and they came and had a look around. They were very pleasant and chatty and seemed like a lovely family. C was very stressed out and you could see she needed a break bless her. She said 'it's like coming home' as we drove up the drive. They told me that they like the room and would let me know that evening.
Not exactly the answer I was looking for, but at least hopeful. I made them a coffee and we sat chatting about stuff for about 15 minutes as the next train didn't leave for a while. It was then that D was telling me about his sister being in the UK and trying to trace their family tree. She hadn't had much luck. Well of course I said that maybe I could help because I had been doing it for years and might have the connections to give them a hand.
He said his family name was very unusual and that it was unlikely that he would find anything, but he wanted to try.
The name is indeed very unusual (and for privacy reasons I am not going to repeat it) and it just happens to be the EXACT same family name as mine. I was B L O W N away. There was all this kind of wide eyed 'no way' kind of stuff going on. I had been looking into that family line for 12 years and his particular family line for 6 and a half with NO SUCCESS. His family had been trying to trace back from South Africa for about 3 years similarly with no luck. So as 'fate' or wahever would have it, my long lost family had walked through my door.
I swear that when I saw the twins, something hit me that I couldn't put my finger on, and when I found this out, that's when I realised that they were like my great grandad exactly. Even in the same regiments.
Obviously my great grandad isn't smiling and hes about 16 when this was taken, but the resemblance is too weird for words.
So guess what... they took the room there and then! HA HA. I know that C was very very relieved and as I drive her to the City for a job interview she said she felt at home here and that it all seemed so divinely organised. It certainly is newspaper worthy I think.
They move in on the Thursday, and the rent crisis was over thank goodness. D didn't start work for about 10 days so we were able to take them around and show them some things about the place. I also took them to Sussex to see their roots and some very memorable things went down. We had a lunch in a pub owned by one of their ancestors kin, and stood on Littlehampton beach where their South African Founding Father had his house and most likely stood in 1840 before he left for South Africa. He owned one of the houses in the seafront row here.
So a very emotive and exiting couple of weeks, and then on Friday 20th March Mary had her kittens. 4 lovely little bundles. It was extraordinary as she was so humongous and only had 4. All of them were fine though, which is what mattered.
As the week progressed we all mentioned the fact that they were very contented and seemed very lovable. they were very handleable and fell asleep in your hands. So delicious!
The situation did not change and, although they were gaining weight and feeding well and looking scrumptious, they didn't move. They didn't hold themselves up or wander about.
Yesterday I took them to the vet because I was very concerned that at 3 weeks old they could not walk. they lie in the basket and only move around to get to the teat, which is usually about 2 inches away from them. They lie on their backs and they have no guarding reflex... you go as if to poke one in the face and they don't blink or move. You clap your hands suddenly and they don't jump. They are seemingly the most contented kittens in the entire world, and that is exactly what is wrong with them. This is not normal. also the fact that they wobble about trying to walk if they are put out away from the basket, and they tremor in their sleep and have massive jerky movements also doesn't bode well.
The vet new there was something wrong too. He said that there could be no definite diagnosis (well there could, but it would cost mega bucks), but he suspected that Mary was exposed to Panleukopenia virus whilst pregnant. It doesn't affect the adult cat, in fact all cats come into contact with it during the first year of their lives, but if the cat is pregnant, it can be bad for the kittens. It usually means they wobble, shake and are lethargic. Euthanasia was suggested but both he and I were not exactly willing to do that right away until I tried something else.
Another virus - called Toxoplasmosis that every pregnant mother has heard of -"don't touch cat litter or dig the garden whilst pregnant" etc... Well cats get toxoplasmosis from eating a raw bird/frog/mouse. This happens very often apparently and the cat will emit oocytes in its faeces for about 14 days. It does not make the cat ill, and it doesn't even make humans ill... it only affects mammal babies in utero - human and feline.
The virus causes a parasite to enter the body of the kitten and it crosses membranes etc and will eventually grow in the cerebellum of the kitten who at about 3-4 weeks old will begin to die - called fading kittens. This is much more usual as the injection against panleukopenia has been very effective and has become a rare disease now. Certainly Mary didn't have any of the symptoms of the disease at any time.
Now, given the fact that my kittens are 3 weeks old and still alive but very very dopey and lethargic, he thinks there might be a strong possibility that it is toxoplasmosis rather than panleukopenia induced Cerebellum Hyperplasia (the first option), so we have started giving them antibiotics. They should start to improve in a few days if it is toxoplasmosis and the infection will be clear in about 10 days to 2 weeks. Mary did have a weepy eye at about 7 weeks pregnant, which is often indicative of toxoplasmosis infection - but that's about as bad as it gets in adult cats.
If it is Cerebellum Hypoplasia, then we have a problem. The kittens will actually live to a ripe old age, just be wobbly and weird and docile and dopey. Actually a lovely lovely cat I think. But they will be basically a disabled cat, and have to live indoors as the roads will be treacherous and they of course cannot jump. So at the moment, we are waiting to see. I seriously hope and pray that it is toxoplasmosis.
So that's an ongoing story, and another ongoing story is that we are getting a new puppy! I know, you must think I am mad, but after Clifford our black labrador died 2 years ago, we always said we would get another dog but we kind of never could broach the subject as the death of Clifford was still too raw. Then of course Sue moved in bringing Dylan with her, an old Cavalier King Charles Spaniel, which DS adores.
Now Dylan in 12. That's ancient for a CKC. It could be any time that Dylan croaks his last, and I know DS will be devastated. So DH and I decided it might be a good time to get a puppy to preempt his demise and give DS his own doggie again.
Little did we know that Airplane Grandad (DH's father) was thinking of getting DS a dog as a gift anyway, so it turns out that we get to choose a puppy and he is paying for it! Brilliant.
So our new puppy is a Blenheim Cavalier King Charles Spaniel who we have named Geoffrey.
Here he is at about 1 week:
At 5 weeks old
What a Cute little baby, and the puppy's not too bad either!!
Ok, as for band news... whats to say. I am not doing anything with it. If I choke, then I puke and then I go back to my food when I can. Its just an annoying piece of silicone and I cant deal with thinking about losing weight right now. I have half hearted thoughts of going on slimfast for a while and seeing what happens but the right week never seems to come up. I have it all here ready to go, but just cant get myself motivated. I just wish I had gone for the bypass. I know that if my band had not gone wrong, and I know its the same for my Bunk Mate 'M' from Brugge too, that I would be winning this battle, but we lost serious emotional, mental and physical trust in this thing and its never come back.
I do want it too, but right now, I am not in that zone.
Ok, I will promise to write this blog more often, because this has taken me hours and I don't want to be doing that again.
Oh, yeah and I am going to an Indian wedding next weekend - henna, sari the works! Cool eh?
Monday, 2 March 2009
Busy busy
Lots of things to do and so little time. I have been relatively bad with my eating, mainly junk and easy stuff... but never over the top. So I have managed to keep the same weight, which is a blessing considering the week I have had. If ever there was a time when I would have liked to pig out and eat junk, then this was it.
Money is really tight this month as I only had 2 weeks work last month because of the half term and the band nightmare lesson cancellation rubbish. I am going to take tomorrows earnings as well because March is a full 4 week month of work with no school holidays in it, and that will help us out this month.
I also have the car MOT this month, and it will be typical of my life for there to be some horrendous thing wrong with it. I only just had a big bill for it, so hopefully it wont cripple us.
I did the most unbelievable thing yesterday. I mean, talk about penny pinching miser! I did a shop online at Tesco for delivery tonight. They then email you what you ordered and the prices. So I printed this off and went to Lidl. We compared everything on the list with the same item in the store and saved £25!!
The things that were cheaper at Lidl were:
Cat food
Cheese
Sugar
Robinsons blackcurrant squash
Washing up liquid
Dishwasher salt
Dishwasher tablets
Kitchen towel
I was surprised that margarine, tinned tomatoes and sweetcorn, fabric softener were all surprisingly more expensive than Tescos. I was very surprised... so I am going to do the same each month as £25 is huge saving really! What I need to be careful about is not buying extra things because I am there and they look nice. I always find I save money if I order online because you don't get that pull of the eyes luring you into a purchase! Most of the money saved was on cat food - £13. We buy all the cat food at the beginning of the month, so it normally comes to about £56. This month it was £43. Bargain.
So back to the band news... well I still have restriction even after the unfill, so that's good. I think if she had taken the whole 0.5mls out then it would be different, but it feels ok right now. Infact this is most probably good place for it to be. That extra 0.3 was a tad too restrictive and obviously led to immense strife on the whole water consumption thing. So This is good. I can eat, but not loads and I have to go slowly and I have to think and stuff like that. good good.
Anyway, as always wine is becoming a problem. I love it so much, and I just cant help having the odd glass or 10, so this week would have been a loss I reckon had it not been for the booze. However, this month we are so skint, that I don't think I could afford a look at a glass of wine let alone drink one!! So it could be a blessing in disguise.
Another thing is that Rob, our lodger, could be leaving at the end of this month which will be grim because he pays a fortnight in advance, so we could lose £120 this month. Well - I say 'lose', but its not really lost. I mean we used the £120 he gave us when he first moved in obviously, so it will just feel like we are getting nothing for the last 2 weeks, and this is totally the wrong month for that to happen in. I hope he just has another couple of weeks an then it will be cool.
We already have someone in the pipeline should he blow on us, so that's a relief.
Mary is now started her confinement and is 'lying in' like the Queen of Sheba as she is about to deliver another bunch of bouncing kittens... She is right here with me in the office. Its perfect because the utility room is right outside the door and everythings close at hand. It was good in the caravan but it meant we had to trek outside and stuff like that. She wasn't happy not being with us a lot too, whereas now she is all cosy tucked up with me most of the day and has been very quiet and content in her lying in state. She is massive. I have put her in the maternity ward simply because she was finding it hard to get up on the counter to eat her dinner and also get out of the cat flap, so its only fair.
The last Tom was seen sniffing around her about 7 weeks ago, so she has 2 weeks maximum until delivery, and I am pretty sure she was got at before that, so it could be anytime really. It is nice knowing a date though... makes it a lot less stressful. Poor Mary was in the caravan on her own for 4 weeks last time as we just didn't know when she was going to have them and I couldn't risk her having them in the bed or under the kitchen sink or something with my Dad being ill and all that crap happening.
Its much easier confining them to one room ad being able to keep them safe.
Anyway, will let you know when they arrive!!
Money is really tight this month as I only had 2 weeks work last month because of the half term and the band nightmare lesson cancellation rubbish. I am going to take tomorrows earnings as well because March is a full 4 week month of work with no school holidays in it, and that will help us out this month.
I also have the car MOT this month, and it will be typical of my life for there to be some horrendous thing wrong with it. I only just had a big bill for it, so hopefully it wont cripple us.
I did the most unbelievable thing yesterday. I mean, talk about penny pinching miser! I did a shop online at Tesco for delivery tonight. They then email you what you ordered and the prices. So I printed this off and went to Lidl. We compared everything on the list with the same item in the store and saved £25!!
The things that were cheaper at Lidl were:
Cat food
Cheese
Sugar
Robinsons blackcurrant squash
Washing up liquid
Dishwasher salt
Dishwasher tablets
Kitchen towel
I was surprised that margarine, tinned tomatoes and sweetcorn, fabric softener were all surprisingly more expensive than Tescos. I was very surprised... so I am going to do the same each month as £25 is huge saving really! What I need to be careful about is not buying extra things because I am there and they look nice. I always find I save money if I order online because you don't get that pull of the eyes luring you into a purchase! Most of the money saved was on cat food - £13. We buy all the cat food at the beginning of the month, so it normally comes to about £56. This month it was £43. Bargain.
So back to the band news... well I still have restriction even after the unfill, so that's good. I think if she had taken the whole 0.5mls out then it would be different, but it feels ok right now. Infact this is most probably good place for it to be. That extra 0.3 was a tad too restrictive and obviously led to immense strife on the whole water consumption thing. So This is good. I can eat, but not loads and I have to go slowly and I have to think and stuff like that. good good.
Anyway, as always wine is becoming a problem. I love it so much, and I just cant help having the odd glass or 10, so this week would have been a loss I reckon had it not been for the booze. However, this month we are so skint, that I don't think I could afford a look at a glass of wine let alone drink one!! So it could be a blessing in disguise.
Another thing is that Rob, our lodger, could be leaving at the end of this month which will be grim because he pays a fortnight in advance, so we could lose £120 this month. Well - I say 'lose', but its not really lost. I mean we used the £120 he gave us when he first moved in obviously, so it will just feel like we are getting nothing for the last 2 weeks, and this is totally the wrong month for that to happen in. I hope he just has another couple of weeks an then it will be cool.
We already have someone in the pipeline should he blow on us, so that's a relief.
Mary is now started her confinement and is 'lying in' like the Queen of Sheba as she is about to deliver another bunch of bouncing kittens... She is right here with me in the office. Its perfect because the utility room is right outside the door and everythings close at hand. It was good in the caravan but it meant we had to trek outside and stuff like that. She wasn't happy not being with us a lot too, whereas now she is all cosy tucked up with me most of the day and has been very quiet and content in her lying in state. She is massive. I have put her in the maternity ward simply because she was finding it hard to get up on the counter to eat her dinner and also get out of the cat flap, so its only fair.
The last Tom was seen sniffing around her about 7 weeks ago, so she has 2 weeks maximum until delivery, and I am pretty sure she was got at before that, so it could be anytime really. It is nice knowing a date though... makes it a lot less stressful. Poor Mary was in the caravan on her own for 4 weeks last time as we just didn't know when she was going to have them and I couldn't risk her having them in the bed or under the kitchen sink or something with my Dad being ill and all that crap happening.
Its much easier confining them to one room ad being able to keep them safe.
Anyway, will let you know when they arrive!!
Friday, 20 February 2009
bonsoir
Bonsoir little diary...
Today has been cool. I went to a friends house and we had a load of mums and kids over to play and a good old natter. The lunch that she served was:
Ham rolls
Cheese rolls
Cold pizza slices
Sausage rolls
Crisps
Cakes
Flapjacks
Salad
Oh dear. A Bandsters NIGHTMARE. Obviously I could eat absolutely nothing. I sucked a bit of roll trying to not look like an idiot for about half an hour, and then gave up. The rolls were the really floury dry kind and there was just no way. I had a bit of some chocolate slab cake that one of the mums had made, but it came back at me. My mate came to the rescue and made me a bowl of soup bless.
Today has been cool. I went to a friends house and we had a load of mums and kids over to play and a good old natter. The lunch that she served was:
Ham rolls
Cheese rolls
Cold pizza slices
Sausage rolls
Crisps
Cakes
Flapjacks
Salad
Oh dear. A Bandsters NIGHTMARE. Obviously I could eat absolutely nothing. I sucked a bit of roll trying to not look like an idiot for about half an hour, and then gave up. The rolls were the really floury dry kind and there was just no way. I had a bit of some chocolate slab cake that one of the mums had made, but it came back at me. My mate came to the rescue and made me a bowl of soup bless.
Monday, 16 February 2009
The room is D O N E !
Ok, so this is not the most flattering pic of me, but I am slumped, glugging wine and absolutely shattered. Its all done bar the carpet. This was me last night (Sunday 15th Feb) covered in expanding foam, polyfiller and paint. Until sometime later, I didnt realise that expanding foam DOES NOT come off of your skin. NO. IT. DOES. NOT. My hands right now (over 24 hours later) are still covered in hard green gooooo which has eaten small parts of my skin like a very presumptuous skin peel. DO NOT use this muck without gloves. You have been warned.In the photo are Sue, Travelling Buddie's DH and me. They are sitting on the roll of beautiful carpet that I laid this morning in my nightie BEFORE I went to slimmingworld (2 pounds off!! YAY!).
I am a freak, I know. Sue (the lodger whos been here nearly a year) said that I am the only person she has ever known that decorates at 2am and lays carpet in a nightie. Well, I guess she must be right.
But NOW, the room is DONE. Check it out. Its pure lush. MMMmmmmmm. I want it for myself now. I am gutted that its not going to be me thats in it, but then again, at least this time tomorrow I will be in my own little office once again. YAY! The 5th bedroom will become my office at last MWAHHH HAAA HAAAA
OK, here it is complete-o:
TURN SOUND !!!!DOWN!!!! It sounds like someone is being murdered!! DH dropped the camera, and its trashed the microphone obviously!! :o(
Some random Inspirational photos
Some Horrors from my past... in order of fatness...
DS was only 7 or 8 months here. I was porky, but not my biggest...
A Holiday in the St. Tropez, South of France. Don't look that humongous, but trust me, the tables covering a lot!
In the American Airlines flight to San Diego. The most uncomfortable trip of my life. The seat divider was practically rammed up my bum the whole trip. Thank goodness the plane wasn't full so DH sat in the mid section so I could have his seat too. (a cute picture of the little bloke though I think, he was 4 here, and turned 5 in California)
Jan, 2004. The recording studio in San Diego. Glad voices don't sound fat eh!! I was recording an 'English' voice for an audio book company and DH took a quick shot mid sentence. Thanks!!!
Our last day in America... A massive slap up meal in Fudruckers (yes, its really called that!) sees us into the car that drives us to the airport. I am wearing some of my new gear from Lane Bryant - a fab outsize clothing store in the states. I spent £1000 there!! HA!!!!!
Oh good grief. I want to die. The above is me doing a medieval cooking demonstration at a 'Gravett Gathering'. Genealogy is a passion of mine and I used to do a lot to bring family history alive. I think in my hands is a 'Tart de Brie' which would have been consumed in the 1450 -1500's England. Look at my arm... its positively bloating. Euuuugh.
Another awful pose of me in full flight delivering a History talk during a Genealogy tour. I actually remember thinking I looked great. GULP! I only ever kept photos that I thought I looked halfway decent in, so you can imagine the photos I threw away!! I am actually 4 times the size of my Grandmother who is right next to me. Jeeeeez.
this is a photo taken to show how bad my impetigo was. I caught impetigo from somewhere and it was terrible and painful and I could barely speak. I got DH to take a photo to remember it. I am now using this photo as my all time FATTEST photo. I was over 19 stone here (266 lbs +).
DS was only 7 or 8 months here. I was porky, but not my biggest...
A Holiday in the St. Tropez, South of France. Don't look that humongous, but trust me, the tables covering a lot!In the American Airlines flight to San Diego. The most uncomfortable trip of my life. The seat divider was practically rammed up my bum the whole trip. Thank goodness the plane wasn't full so DH sat in the mid section so I could have his seat too. (a cute picture of the little bloke though I think, he was 4 here, and turned 5 in California)
Jan, 2004. The recording studio in San Diego. Glad voices don't sound fat eh!! I was recording an 'English' voice for an audio book company and DH took a quick shot mid sentence. Thanks!!!Our last day in America... A massive slap up meal in Fudruckers (yes, its really called that!) sees us into the car that drives us to the airport. I am wearing some of my new gear from Lane Bryant - a fab outsize clothing store in the states. I spent £1000 there!! HA!!!!!Oh good grief. I want to die. The above is me doing a medieval cooking demonstration at a 'Gravett Gathering'. Genealogy is a passion of mine and I used to do a lot to bring family history alive. I think in my hands is a 'Tart de Brie' which would have been consumed in the 1450 -1500's England. Look at my arm... its positively bloating. Euuuugh.Another awful pose of me in full flight delivering a History talk during a Genealogy tour. I actually remember thinking I looked great. GULP! I only ever kept photos that I thought I looked halfway decent in, so you can imagine the photos I threw away!! I am actually 4 times the size of my Grandmother who is right next to me. Jeeeeez.this is a photo taken to show how bad my impetigo was. I caught impetigo from somewhere and it was terrible and painful and I could barely speak. I got DH to take a photo to remember it. I am now using this photo as my all time FATTEST photo. I was over 19 stone here (266 lbs +).
Saturday, 14 February 2009
2 YEARS SINCE BANDING
Happy anniversary silicone band. What a way to celebrate with having 0.3ml out and guzzling water like its going out of fashion.
Cant believe its been 2 years. So much has happened in those couple of years too.
It will be my REAL 2 year bandiversary November 9th 2009 though...(yeah, you remember, the whole band breaking, regain all weight lost and re-do surgery nightmare)
So I am looking forward to what I will be at then.
Shall I make a prediction?
Well heres what I hope I will be: 13 stone
Heres what I think I will be given my past record: 15 stone
Lets see.
Cant believe its been 2 years. So much has happened in those couple of years too.
It will be my REAL 2 year bandiversary November 9th 2009 though...(yeah, you remember, the whole band breaking, regain all weight lost and re-do surgery nightmare)
So I am looking forward to what I will be at then.
Shall I make a prediction?
Well heres what I hope I will be: 13 stone
Heres what I think I will be given my past record: 15 stone
Lets see.
Disaster Strikes
Everything has been going really well...
Then suddenly I cant eat.. or drink.... even my own SPIT!
Ok, lets roll back a bit. Wednesday was cool. DH had the day off and we totally nailed the garage and its now unrecognisable as a garage. It was completely sealed, coved & skirted, and the next jobs were down to me - wallpapering and corners filling, tiling to the entrance etc... so were were Wooo-flippin-doo.
So I got up on the Thursday morning, had breakfast as usual and a coffee or 6 and then got straight in the garage and on with the wallpapering. I had to wallpaper the ceiling too because of the joins, and it took me the best part of the day to do the whole room. I had lunch, I had numerous food and drinks aplenty... I washed and tidied up at 5pm as DH was soon going to be home, and started cooking the dinner.
I was so tired, and I couldn't be bothered to cook after being in the garage the whole 2 days solid, so I got a beef stew out of the freezer, and boiled some potatoes for mash. DS had had a pickle sandwich at lunch and left the practically empty jar open and on the side, including the sticky buttery, pickley knife. I thought, "I'll just clear that up" and ate the last teaspoon that was inside it, and threw it away.
As you know, pickle is saucy, but quite chunky... I chewed it ok, but it did sort of feel hard in the chest. I didn't think a lot of it, and the feeling had gone by the time I sat down to dinner. I served up and I kid you not... the 1st tablespoon of stew - just the gravy - came straight out like a bullet!
Over the course of the next 6 hours I tried various little bits of stuff... Sue had bought a bottle of wine and gave me a glass... puked it.
Glass of water - puked it
coffee - puked
small spoon of cold stew sauce - puked
puke
puke
puke
ARGHHHHHHHH
I had managed to get everything done in the 'bedroom' now. Tiled the doorway opening and everything. All that needed doing was painting the lining paper and hanging the door. So I went to bed happy with my days work, being that I was so darn thirsty and starving, I went to bed at about 12 with a sad heart.
I honestly thought that I would be fine the next morning though.
HA HA!!
I got up and made my brekkie. I always have a berocca and a coffee too. I took a gulp of coffee and just on the first swallow... I don't know if you guys get this or not... but sometimes you just know you got to wait before you swallow again. I was holding the rest of the gulp in my mouth. I gave it a few seconds and then tentatively swallowed. It felt horrible & hard in my chest. I put the cup down and got on with some other things and realised that unbelievably the coffee was still sitting on my band an HOUR LATER!
It got to midday when I still had my berocca and cold coffee and inedible breakfast sitting on the table. There was no way I could eat it. I hadn't even bothered to try any more, so I gave it another shot with the cold coffee... same response.
It got to 3pm and I realised it had been 24 hours since I last had a drink. I also hadn't been to the loo at all that day. Hmmm. I went to lie down as I was really achy from the DIY. I hadn't managed to do anything in the new bedroom as I was so tired and weak. I lay down and started reading and using a spoon to drink it with, drank a few spoonfuls and then a spoonful of salad creme - random i know - but I know it contains fats and sugars and is high in calories so I went with it. I also love salad creme!! :o)
I puked about 2 mins after eating that. I continued this way for an hour or so until I fell asleep.
When I woke up I thought maybe a paracetamol would help to reduce swelling... There was no way I could have swallowed them without them coming back, and dissolvable tablets would have come back too, so I held my nose and chewed two tablets up. OH MAN. That is the grimmest thing ever. They get stuck in your teeth and all kinds. I was gagging just eating them, but at least they went down.
It got to about 6pm when I started to get scared. Really scared. My mouth was like Gandhi's flip flop and my stomach was growling like it was going to eat itself. I was more achy than normal, had a headache and was so lethargic. My skin was obviously dehydrated and I felt like dying.
I am not kidding here right - I googled survival tips. Yep, I did. I looked up how long you can survive without water for. Apparently it depends on the temperature and the amount of energy and if you lose more that 25% of your bodies water its usually fatal. Well I was overwhelmed by gladness about this as you can imagine. GULP.
Why cant they give you a figure in days... even just an average? I mean, how the hell do I measure the % of my body water??? All the survival sites were the same "You can lose up to 2% of your body's water bla bla before bla bla" and so on.
THAT DOESN'T HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So I wrote a desperate post on a forum. I hate those lapband forums to be honest, they are so full of bull. Also everyone picks you apart, so you have to explain minutiae of you daily plate of food just to get a reasonable response - so judgmental and political. To be honest I steer clear of these types of lists of any subject because of this.
However one lady did come up with the goods and it put my mind at rest a little and I then knew what to do. I had to go see Wendy at the WLSgroup again for an unfill.
I called the emergency telephone number and got an appointment for this morning first thing.
I watched the family eat their dinner and begrudged them every single bite. It was horrible. I even licked the spoon that I had made the chilli with because I just wanted some so badly. I kept trying to drink my iced water with a teaspoon and I could manage a teaspoon every 2 minutes that way. We watched a bit of telly and then went to bed. I had the worst nights sleep of my life with aches and pains and horrible dreams. Really horrible dreams man. and then thankfully it was the morning.
We got up at 6:30 and picked up my friend on the way through. The drive took us a different way than I usually go, as she lives quite a way from me. It was really great! The drive took us through Hatfield, Brent Cross and Finchley rather than struggling through the yucky side of London through Lee Valley and E17 and all those scummy streets and the traffic that builds up through the last few miles into Islington. We got there about an hour earlier than I had expected going this route, and it was a much more scenic too. I am so going that way next time.
So when we rocked up to 10 Harley Street the road was closed. Wunderbah! We parked at the top of the road and walked. So not only am I half starved, but practically on my knees with lack of water and I have to walk half a mile! Oh the irony!
In the waiting room we sat and chatted and then I went down to see Wendy when she arrived, which was after us due to the excellent route we took, and she was so good. She calmed me down and suggested that it was probably the pickle that had got a little bit stuck and inflamed my tissues. I tend to agree with this. The last fill I had was 0.5mls and today she took out 0.3ml. I got off the couch and could drink immediately.
PHEW. That was the biggest sigh of relief I have ever made. Rhuta and I stopped at the Asda in Hatfield and stocked up on smoothies and water for the drive home. It was so lush. Drinking is so blissful it's unreal.
So * 43 hours * without food or water is not for the feint hearted.
Right, I am off to have some lovely water!
Then suddenly I cant eat.. or drink.... even my own SPIT!
Ok, lets roll back a bit. Wednesday was cool. DH had the day off and we totally nailed the garage and its now unrecognisable as a garage. It was completely sealed, coved & skirted, and the next jobs were down to me - wallpapering and corners filling, tiling to the entrance etc... so were were Wooo-flippin-doo.
So I got up on the Thursday morning, had breakfast as usual and a coffee or 6 and then got straight in the garage and on with the wallpapering. I had to wallpaper the ceiling too because of the joins, and it took me the best part of the day to do the whole room. I had lunch, I had numerous food and drinks aplenty... I washed and tidied up at 5pm as DH was soon going to be home, and started cooking the dinner.
I was so tired, and I couldn't be bothered to cook after being in the garage the whole 2 days solid, so I got a beef stew out of the freezer, and boiled some potatoes for mash. DS had had a pickle sandwich at lunch and left the practically empty jar open and on the side, including the sticky buttery, pickley knife. I thought, "I'll just clear that up" and ate the last teaspoon that was inside it, and threw it away.
As you know, pickle is saucy, but quite chunky... I chewed it ok, but it did sort of feel hard in the chest. I didn't think a lot of it, and the feeling had gone by the time I sat down to dinner. I served up and I kid you not... the 1st tablespoon of stew - just the gravy - came straight out like a bullet!
Over the course of the next 6 hours I tried various little bits of stuff... Sue had bought a bottle of wine and gave me a glass... puked it.
Glass of water - puked it
coffee - puked
small spoon of cold stew sauce - puked
puke
puke
puke
ARGHHHHHHHH
I had managed to get everything done in the 'bedroom' now. Tiled the doorway opening and everything. All that needed doing was painting the lining paper and hanging the door. So I went to bed happy with my days work, being that I was so darn thirsty and starving, I went to bed at about 12 with a sad heart.
I honestly thought that I would be fine the next morning though.
HA HA!!
I got up and made my brekkie. I always have a berocca and a coffee too. I took a gulp of coffee and just on the first swallow... I don't know if you guys get this or not... but sometimes you just know you got to wait before you swallow again. I was holding the rest of the gulp in my mouth. I gave it a few seconds and then tentatively swallowed. It felt horrible & hard in my chest. I put the cup down and got on with some other things and realised that unbelievably the coffee was still sitting on my band an HOUR LATER!
It got to midday when I still had my berocca and cold coffee and inedible breakfast sitting on the table. There was no way I could eat it. I hadn't even bothered to try any more, so I gave it another shot with the cold coffee... same response.
It got to 3pm and I realised it had been 24 hours since I last had a drink. I also hadn't been to the loo at all that day. Hmmm. I went to lie down as I was really achy from the DIY. I hadn't managed to do anything in the new bedroom as I was so tired and weak. I lay down and started reading and using a spoon to drink it with, drank a few spoonfuls and then a spoonful of salad creme - random i know - but I know it contains fats and sugars and is high in calories so I went with it. I also love salad creme!! :o)
I puked about 2 mins after eating that. I continued this way for an hour or so until I fell asleep.
When I woke up I thought maybe a paracetamol would help to reduce swelling... There was no way I could have swallowed them without them coming back, and dissolvable tablets would have come back too, so I held my nose and chewed two tablets up. OH MAN. That is the grimmest thing ever. They get stuck in your teeth and all kinds. I was gagging just eating them, but at least they went down.
It got to about 6pm when I started to get scared. Really scared. My mouth was like Gandhi's flip flop and my stomach was growling like it was going to eat itself. I was more achy than normal, had a headache and was so lethargic. My skin was obviously dehydrated and I felt like dying.
I am not kidding here right - I googled survival tips. Yep, I did. I looked up how long you can survive without water for. Apparently it depends on the temperature and the amount of energy and if you lose more that 25% of your bodies water its usually fatal. Well I was overwhelmed by gladness about this as you can imagine. GULP.
Why cant they give you a figure in days... even just an average? I mean, how the hell do I measure the % of my body water??? All the survival sites were the same "You can lose up to 2% of your body's water bla bla before bla bla" and so on.
THAT DOESN'T HELP ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So I wrote a desperate post on a forum. I hate those lapband forums to be honest, they are so full of bull. Also everyone picks you apart, so you have to explain minutiae of you daily plate of food just to get a reasonable response - so judgmental and political. To be honest I steer clear of these types of lists of any subject because of this.
However one lady did come up with the goods and it put my mind at rest a little and I then knew what to do. I had to go see Wendy at the WLSgroup again for an unfill.
I called the emergency telephone number and got an appointment for this morning first thing.
I watched the family eat their dinner and begrudged them every single bite. It was horrible. I even licked the spoon that I had made the chilli with because I just wanted some so badly. I kept trying to drink my iced water with a teaspoon and I could manage a teaspoon every 2 minutes that way. We watched a bit of telly and then went to bed. I had the worst nights sleep of my life with aches and pains and horrible dreams. Really horrible dreams man. and then thankfully it was the morning.
We got up at 6:30 and picked up my friend on the way through. The drive took us a different way than I usually go, as she lives quite a way from me. It was really great! The drive took us through Hatfield, Brent Cross and Finchley rather than struggling through the yucky side of London through Lee Valley and E17 and all those scummy streets and the traffic that builds up through the last few miles into Islington. We got there about an hour earlier than I had expected going this route, and it was a much more scenic too. I am so going that way next time.
So when we rocked up to 10 Harley Street the road was closed. Wunderbah! We parked at the top of the road and walked. So not only am I half starved, but practically on my knees with lack of water and I have to walk half a mile! Oh the irony!
In the waiting room we sat and chatted and then I went down to see Wendy when she arrived, which was after us due to the excellent route we took, and she was so good. She calmed me down and suggested that it was probably the pickle that had got a little bit stuck and inflamed my tissues. I tend to agree with this. The last fill I had was 0.5mls and today she took out 0.3ml. I got off the couch and could drink immediately.
PHEW. That was the biggest sigh of relief I have ever made. Rhuta and I stopped at the Asda in Hatfield and stocked up on smoothies and water for the drive home. It was so lush. Drinking is so blissful it's unreal.
So * 43 hours * without food or water is not for the feint hearted.
Right, I am off to have some lovely water!
Wednesday, 11 February 2009
How goes the work? Quack!
We shall be putting the ceiling up in about 1 hours time... YAY!! Note the electric light... Yes, that is the handiwork of my darling amazing husband. It also runs the outdoor flood light... What a wonderful guy I am married too. Also its saved me £200 which makes him even more attractive!!! HA HA. It took just an hour once we got all the parts. Its amazing what you can do when you don't have any cash! I am preparing him the gorgeous lasagna left overs from last night and some chips for luncheon.
I shall be eating nothing. I cant stomach food until about 4 or 5pm. That's just how I like it. I have a few coffee's and a couple of slim fasts and that keeps me going. In all honesty I am probably 0.1 or 0.2 mls too tight in my band, but there is NO WAY I am paying to have it removed when I will lose weight and it will slacken off on its own.
It does always seem to me that once I have had a fill it takes a good 6 or 7 days until I really feel it. Isn't that strange. Its like my guts give resistance and then after about a week it gives in and rolls over. I love the way my band is at the moment. I am really feeling positive and much much better about it. I know that when I have lost another few pounds it will give me that boost I have needed. I know I have lost another couple this week, so that's great.
I didn't go and get weighed on Monday though as I wasn't feeling the best. DH's snoring had been keeping me awake at night so I am tending to lay in in the morning... Oh heck - I never need an excuse to lie in, but in this instance I really needed the kip! So DH tried a new idea. He put two bits of wood we are using for the build under the headboard end of the bed, raising it about an inch higher. This really helped and last night I had a decent sleep. I mean, he cant enjoy it either when every 2 mins I am kneeing him in the back, or slapping him around the head, or poking him in the sides or some other form of "SHUT UP!" that takes me at the time - like electrocution by bedside lamp.
So we will eat lunch (or the boys will) and then carry on. Maybe I will have another vid for you later...
The title of this post comes from a play DS was in when he used to be at school a million years ago. It was called Farmer Duck, and he was the lazy farmer. DS came into the garage/bedroom as said "How goes the work" which I thought to be rather a yokel sounding way of asking about the current build situation... Thinking that he must be developing a Fenland burr from the local oiks, I replied "Yeah, alright thanks hun". He then replied. "You are supposed to say 'Quack' ". Funny what kids remember isnt it - he was about 4 at the time.
Tuesday, 10 February 2009
Cant sleep
I have dreadful asthma right now and cant sleep... I think I could if weren't for DH's terrible snoring. Grrrr
So I am awake at 4am.
So... what do I have to tell... hmmm... well the garage is nicely changing into a bedroom. It should be done very soon. all the walls are done, its insulated and everything is toasty. Its amazing that the house is so warm now... having that hole cut in October we didn't kind of notice the chill difference at first because it kind of wasn't that cold back then, so it kind of crept up on you. Since the garage door has been completely blocked off its amazing. I haven't caught myself turning the thermostat up or sitting with blankets on the sofa of an evening. Little things like that. So no more drafts which is great. Next things to happen are the light switch wiring (tomorrow evening) and the ceiling (also tomorrow evening), both of which I can't help much with as brute force is required for the latter, which I just don't have. Yep, I am a weed. Rob is back for the week, so he has offered to help. Seeing as he is the one who is going to be using the room as a bedroom... well more like a suite really... its kind of worth it for him as then he can move in really soon. After the ceiling is in... its just the skirting boards and then over to me to wallpaper it, paint it out and carpet it. Oh yeah, we still need to do the door, but that's not a problem at all. We will get a spare door from the dump and paint it up and all will be great.
The dump is an amazing place to pick up stuff like that. I begrudge paying £30 for a brand new moulded door, when some of the doors down the dump are solid hardwood, nothing wrong with them and only a £5. This room needs a thick door because its straight onto the lounge so noise will be a problem as its now going to be a bedroom. We are not early to bed people either and when TB is in a better frame of mind, they are often over and we get chatting with her and her hubby into the small hours. Or should I say laughing and joking and shrieking with mirth...
Tb is not a happy bunny at the moment either. She is really struggling with seasonal affective disorder. She gets it every winter, but this year has her at her knees. Its so bad. When someone really truly suffers from this its so debilitating. Its not just some quack affliction. Obviously there is little I can do to help her; she has withdrawn into herself and her home, doesn't want to socialise and is angry, argumentative and tearfully distressed and shes kind of keeping her distance from everyone. I wish she would go and see a doctor and get some medical help because it does work. Her routine is absolutely messed up too... sleeping in the day, awake at night. Its dreadful. it happened bad like this about 5 years ago and it took a good 4 months for it to work its way out of her. When it happens really band like this the body gets into a funny state and when the better weather comes, you are sleeping the daylight hours and therefore don't benefit from the sunlight. It takes so much effort for her to force herself to change that. Its a bit like coming out of hibernation. It will be April before she is better.
Band news... I am tight. Its fabulous. I am not hungry at all and as long as I stay away from chocolates and wine I think we will be kicking some fat losing butt shortly. I am going to try really hard this month and push to get under 16 stone because I know psychologically that will give me such a thrill and I will know I am back in the zone. Then it will be my aim to get under 15 stone 7. Its not that far away... a stone at the most. 1 stone is so nice to focus on as it seems within the realms of possibility. Its hard to look at the small picture when you are always thinking of losing 7 stone or something. the thing is... I only need to lose about 4 stone now. It used to be 7, and I keep thinking I still need to lose that amount, but I really don't. Its quite amazing to think that even if I get to my goal on my weightloss ticker, I am a 1/3rd of the way there. I like thinking about things like that.
where I struggle is on a small scale. I struggle keeping it together from 1 day to the next. I will have to make it a goal to stick to my regime of good eating daily rather than thinking of a weekly weigh in. If I think weekly, then the first few days often go by without me being very good at all and then I kind of cheat a little bit each other day. What I need to do is think "Today I am going to be 100% on plan" and then do it the next day too, and the next day... etc. If I have one good week like that maybe it will break my bad habits... who knows.
Anyway, I am actually feeling really tired and I need my inhaler again too. All this building dust is getting to me I think. So night night.
So I am awake at 4am.
So... what do I have to tell... hmmm... well the garage is nicely changing into a bedroom. It should be done very soon. all the walls are done, its insulated and everything is toasty. Its amazing that the house is so warm now... having that hole cut in October we didn't kind of notice the chill difference at first because it kind of wasn't that cold back then, so it kind of crept up on you. Since the garage door has been completely blocked off its amazing. I haven't caught myself turning the thermostat up or sitting with blankets on the sofa of an evening. Little things like that. So no more drafts which is great. Next things to happen are the light switch wiring (tomorrow evening) and the ceiling (also tomorrow evening), both of which I can't help much with as brute force is required for the latter, which I just don't have. Yep, I am a weed. Rob is back for the week, so he has offered to help. Seeing as he is the one who is going to be using the room as a bedroom... well more like a suite really... its kind of worth it for him as then he can move in really soon. After the ceiling is in... its just the skirting boards and then over to me to wallpaper it, paint it out and carpet it. Oh yeah, we still need to do the door, but that's not a problem at all. We will get a spare door from the dump and paint it up and all will be great.
The dump is an amazing place to pick up stuff like that. I begrudge paying £30 for a brand new moulded door, when some of the doors down the dump are solid hardwood, nothing wrong with them and only a £5. This room needs a thick door because its straight onto the lounge so noise will be a problem as its now going to be a bedroom. We are not early to bed people either and when TB is in a better frame of mind, they are often over and we get chatting with her and her hubby into the small hours. Or should I say laughing and joking and shrieking with mirth...
Tb is not a happy bunny at the moment either. She is really struggling with seasonal affective disorder. She gets it every winter, but this year has her at her knees. Its so bad. When someone really truly suffers from this its so debilitating. Its not just some quack affliction. Obviously there is little I can do to help her; she has withdrawn into herself and her home, doesn't want to socialise and is angry, argumentative and tearfully distressed and shes kind of keeping her distance from everyone. I wish she would go and see a doctor and get some medical help because it does work. Her routine is absolutely messed up too... sleeping in the day, awake at night. Its dreadful. it happened bad like this about 5 years ago and it took a good 4 months for it to work its way out of her. When it happens really band like this the body gets into a funny state and when the better weather comes, you are sleeping the daylight hours and therefore don't benefit from the sunlight. It takes so much effort for her to force herself to change that. Its a bit like coming out of hibernation. It will be April before she is better.
Band news... I am tight. Its fabulous. I am not hungry at all and as long as I stay away from chocolates and wine I think we will be kicking some fat losing butt shortly. I am going to try really hard this month and push to get under 16 stone because I know psychologically that will give me such a thrill and I will know I am back in the zone. Then it will be my aim to get under 15 stone 7. Its not that far away... a stone at the most. 1 stone is so nice to focus on as it seems within the realms of possibility. Its hard to look at the small picture when you are always thinking of losing 7 stone or something. the thing is... I only need to lose about 4 stone now. It used to be 7, and I keep thinking I still need to lose that amount, but I really don't. Its quite amazing to think that even if I get to my goal on my weightloss ticker, I am a 1/3rd of the way there. I like thinking about things like that.
where I struggle is on a small scale. I struggle keeping it together from 1 day to the next. I will have to make it a goal to stick to my regime of good eating daily rather than thinking of a weekly weigh in. If I think weekly, then the first few days often go by without me being very good at all and then I kind of cheat a little bit each other day. What I need to do is think "Today I am going to be 100% on plan" and then do it the next day too, and the next day... etc. If I have one good week like that maybe it will break my bad habits... who knows.
Anyway, I am actually feeling really tired and I need my inhaler again too. All this building dust is getting to me I think. So night night.
Thursday, 5 February 2009
What a stroke!
Boy am I glad I did all that work in the garage yesterday! Beautiful blue skys, sunshine, and dry - just the best day to get it done.
When DH got home, he and Rob and Paul from next door got all the shelving from the garage into the shed, ferried all the stuff to keep onto the shelving and cleared the whole garage in about 15 minutes. Men! They're brilliant aren't they!!! There is just no way I could match that brawn.
Anyway, it was all done, the wood and polystyrene was taken from the drive and put in the newly emptied garage and all sighed with relief that the hard work was done. We sat down to a massive Indian takeaway and chilled out.
I had prawn dahnsak. I managed the curry and had rice too. I didn't bother with the poppadoms or naan as its not worth it. Good evening all around.
This morning, we awoke to this:
MAKE HAY WHILST THE SUN SHINES MY FRIENDS!
Wednesday, 4 February 2009
Operation Garage Nightmare
We are in the process of coverting our garage into a bedroom. It started like this:
Sue and I spent all morning throwing stuff down the dump and now it looks like this:
It would seem that we have simply moved all the junk to the other side of the room, but actually that is not the case. Everything on the left hand side is needed, and being kept. We took 3 whole stuffed car loads of crap down the dump for it to be poured over by the scavenging scumbuckets that work there ('work' in the loosest possible sense of the word).
Sue and I spent all morning throwing stuff down the dump and now it looks like this:It would seem that we have simply moved all the junk to the other side of the room, but actually that is not the case. Everything on the left hand side is needed, and being kept. We took 3 whole stuffed car loads of crap down the dump for it to be poured over by the scavenging scumbuckets that work there ('work' in the loosest possible sense of the word). So we are at step 2 - Removal of Wanted Stuff to Shed.
RWSS will commence this evening when DH gets home. I don't care if its dark. I don't care if its cold. I have done the hard work, and now its his turn. When you give up your day off work to go to a trade show for 'fun' when you should be at home clearing out the garage, but leave it all to the wife, then you deserve to work in the cold and the dark in my book! I know that if I had not done this today, then it would have sat there for the next couple of months because he just does NOT want to complete this project. So hands must be forced.
Step 3 will be - Let There Be Light... The electrician will come and put in a light and an electric socket in the room next week sometime. A cool £200.
Step 4 - Do IT!... battening, boarding and insulating will commence
Step 5 - Hurry Up... putting on the skirting, architrave and the door.
Step 6 - Finish IT!... Papering, painting, filling and carpeting to finish the job.
Tuesday, 3 February 2009
Today I ate:
October 30th, 2010
Calorie goal: 2,017; calories consumed: 2,198; calories burned: 592
Net calories: 1,606
McDonald's Chocolate Brownie
Daim Crunchy Caramel Candy Bar
McDonald's Chicken Selects Premium Breast Strips
McDonald's Onion Rings
Trident Sweet Chilli Sauce
Mission Tortillas
Chicken Breast
Daisy Sour Cream
Avocado
Bombay Bombay Sapphire Gin
Tropicana Orange Juice
October 29th, 2010
Calorie goal: 2,017; calories consumed: 2,902; calories burned: 1,184
Net calories: 1,718
Greggs Sausage Roll
Asda Cream Slice
Weight Watchers Multigrain Bread
Tesco Creamy Coleslaw 0.50
Daim Crunchy Caramel Candy Bar
Bombay Bombay Sapphire Gin
McCain Home Fries
Stone Hearth Pizza Co. Roasted Peppers Pizza
Cockburns Fine Tawny Port
Cottage Cheese Puff
October 28th, 2010
Calorie goal: 2,017; calories consumed: 2,005; calories burned: 0
Net calories: 2,005
Tesco Skimmed UHT Milk
Oscar Mayer Hot Dog
White Finger Roll (tesco)
Donner Kabab
Bottle Red Wine
Calorie goal: 2,017; calories consumed: 2,415; calories burned: 592
Net calories: 1,823
Oscar Mayer Hot Dog
Warburtons White Batch Bread
Nestle Yorkie Original
Bottle Red Wine
Chicken Fried Rice
Chicken Korma
Bottle Red Wine
October 26th, 2010
Calorie goal: 2,017; calories consumed: 2,389; calories burned: 0
Net calories: 2,389
Ferrero Rocher
egg
Pompeian Extra Virgin Olive Oil
Warburtons White Batch Bread
Butter, Salted
Eismann Camembert Bake
Fresh Green Beans
Warburtons White Batch Bread
Tesco Coleslaw
Bottle Red Wine
October 25th, 2010
Calorie goal: 2,017; calories consumed: 2,496; calories burned: 0
Net calories: 2,496
Scampi
Hellman's Salad Cream
Tesco Skimmed UHT Milk
Bottle Red Wine
Crispy Seaweed
Sweet 'N Sour Sauce
Compliments Chicken Balls in Batter
Chicken Fried Rice
October 24th, 2010
Calorie goal: 2,017; calories consumed: 2,504; calories burned: 740
Net calories: 1,764
egg
Dromona Grated Mild Cheddar Cheese
Pompeian Extra Virgin Olive Oil
Daim Crunchy Caramel Candy Bar
Brussels Sprouts, Cooked
Baby Carrots, Raw
Cauliflower
Atora Beef Suet
Sainsbury's Basics Self Raising Flour
Sainsbury's Danish Smoked Back Bacon
Onions
Bottle Red Wine
Daim Crunchy Caramel Candy Bar
Walk to carrot factory (5 miles over ROUGH ground) 150 minutes -740.0 cals
October 23rd, 2010
Calorie goal: 2,017; calories consumed: 2,506; calories burned: 0
Net calories: 2,506
Food Item
Tesco Skimmed UHT Milk
Daim Crunchy Caramel Candy Bar
Bottle Red Wine
Tesco Giant Yorkshire Pudding
Onions
Richmond Sausages
Smash Smash Instant Mash
Peas
Bisto Instant Gravy
22nd October
Spaghetti, Whole-wheat, Dry
Pompeian Extra Virgin Olive Oil
Tesco Tomatoes (tin Chopped)
Tesco Skimmed UHT Milk
Chicken Breast
Onions
Peppers
Avocado
Sour Cream
Salsa
Discovery Soft Flour Tortillas - Garlic & Coriander
Red Wine, Dry
Daim Crunchy Caramel Candy Bar
Totals: 2,154cals (137 over daily goal) and 72g protein
21st October
Tesco Skimmed UHT Milk
Honey
Pork Centre Loin Chop
Broccoli
potato
Cornflour
Roasted Parsnip
Scampi
Maille Wholegrain Mustard
Young's Admiral's Pie
Daim Crunchy Caramel Candy Bar
Totals: 1,420 cals 66g protein
20th October
Tesco Skimmed UHT Milk 600ml
Omlette:
egg x 2
15ml Pompeian Extra Virgin Olive Oil x 2
Dromona Grated Mild Cheddar Cheese 34g
Hellmann's Mayonnaise 2 x 15ml
Salad
Curry:
Tesco Lentils Green (canned) 132g
Garlic 1 clove
Spinach 1 cup
Onions 1 cup
Tesco Tomatoes (tin Chopped) 100g
Maggi Coconut Milk Powder 10g
Tesco Brown Rice (easy Cook) 100g uncooked
The Co-Operative Exotic Fruit Juice Drink 200ml
Totals: 1,606 cals & 61g protein
19th October
Lunch
'yummy dinner' - consists of mashed potato, chopped tomatoes, chopped frankfurters, jalapeno's and cheese
Dinner
Quiche and salad with mayonnaise. Quiche was made with pastry shell, peppers, onions and courgette. salad was spinach, watercress and lettuce.
Snacks
Aero bubbles
KitKat chunky
Cals = 1783
18th October
Lunch
Banana
PM Snack
Banana
Dinner
Salad & French Fries- romaine leaves, spinach and watercress with oven cooked chips
3 KitKat Chunky bars
red wine
Cals 2305
17th October
Breakfast
Porridge
Lunch
Scone with jam an cream
Champagne
Dinner
Chicken caesar salad
tiny piece of celebratory cake
olives
Cals 2084
16th October
Lunch
2 scrambled eggs on 2 slices of toast
Dinner
Half of a three cheese pizza, massive watercress and spinach salad and coleslaw
a gazillion coffee's with milk
Daily calories: 1660
15th October
lunch
half an egg mayonnaise sandwich - possibly less cos it was rank.
banana
dinner
Chinese meal at restaruant
spring roll
seaweed
4 prawn toasts
1 wanton
3 duck pancakes
red wine
Evening dumb move
2x coleslaw sandwiches
Total calories for the the day 3000
14th October
really really crap day eating wise
LUNCH
mashed potato and coleslaw
DINNER
*planned* chicken stirfry
stirfry veg, chicken breast & dressing made with jam, peanut butter and soy sauce (yummy honest!) but I couldnt eat it - puked the first try out of this meal at 7pm. Then on return from the meeting, I puked my second go at eating it at around 11pm.
DINNER
*actual* ended up being Mashed potato and coleslaw again!!! LOL
Oh boy, well nevermind. I now know I cant eat stirfry - well maybe not today anyhow.
SNACKS
banana
Cals today 1290
13th October
Lunch
Cheese and spring onion sandwich
Afternoon snack
banana
Dinner
Nasi goreng and chilli sauce
Evening treat's
A Crunchie and a Daim Bar!!! YUM
The days calorie count: 1369!!!!!!!
12th October
Lunch
Egg mayonnaise & cress sandwich
Snack
Banana
Dinner
Cheese and tomato pizza, salad and coleslaw
Evening treat
Cadbury's Crunchie
Total day's calories 1515
11th October
Lunch (very late)
1/2 sausage roll
Lucozade Sport
Dinner
Lasagna - a 'lite' version of my cheesy delight
Serves 6 Seriously hungry people (or 12 semi restricted bandits)
900g beef mince
1 can of pureed plum tomatoes
2 carrots grated
2 onions
2 cloves of garlic
150g cheese
400mls skimmed milk
2 teaspoons of English (yellow) mustard
mixed herbs
salt and pepper
25g cornflour
21 Lasagna pasta sheets (you kight need more/less depending on how you layer it)
Put the mince in a pan with 2 pints of water and bring to the boil (this removed the solid fattening lard so that you can get rid of it). In another pan add the 2 grated carrots and chopped onion and sweat off in some water too - not enough to cover, but enough so that it cooks without burning.
In another saucepan (yes there are a lot!) heat the milk and cornflour stiring continuously. When it has thickened, add the 1tsp mustard and 3/4 of the grated cheese and stir vigorously then set aside.
Drain the mince, then put it back in the pan. Add 1 tsp mustard, herbs, salt, pepper and tomatoes and stir. Puree the carrot and onion mix and add to the mince. Mix it through and then begin layering mince/pasta sheets/mince/pasta sheets until its all gone. Finish with a layer or pasta.
Pour the sauce all over the top so that it is completely covered. Lay 3 thinly sliced tomatoes all over the top and then sprinkle with the remaining cheese.
Cook for 45 mins to 1 hour at 175oC until the top begins to brown
The result is this:
10th October
No brekkie - this is getting to be a habit!
Lunch
Eggy bread
Dinner
Quiche, coleslaw + salad
greek yoghurt with apricots and honey
Snack
More yoghurt as above :-)
todays cals: 1749
9th October
No brekkie, No lunch - we are going out tonight + not that hungry so why bother.
Dinner - Mushroom strogannof, rice and rye bread roll
Serves 4
loads of mushrooms (of differing varieties if you like/can be bothered)
400g (probably get away with less) of weight watchers low fat thick cream
4 tbsp olive oil (1 per person)
2 cloves of garlic
2 onions
1tbsp lemon juice
salt & pepper
parsley
rice to serve
stock (or a stock cube - but watch you dont add too much salt)
Fry the onion in the oil, and 250ml stock and reduce on quick heat. add muchrooms and stir. Add salt and pepper and the lemon juice and fry for a few minutes. It starts to get more fluid in the pan from the mushrooms cooking. When its obviously done, lots of watery stuff and the mushies are cooked turn off the heat, add garlic and stir. Add the cream and then the parsley.
Serve with rice and a roll
The reuslt: (by the way - I ate only half of this!!! LOL)
I also consumed milk, 2 litres of tropical fruit juice (and I have a nice swollen tastebud on my tounge because of it), 2 glasses of red wine and some Doritos at our freinds house for a cards evening.
Todays calories: 2110 - 79cals OVER my allowance, but this might not actually be the case as I had to take a best guess from memory on the juice nutritional label and erred on the side of caution. Anyway, for a night out, that is a total WIN!
8th October
Breakfast -nowt again
Lunch
Bubble & Squeak - red cabbage from last night with mashed potato and a little onion fried in a hot pan with fry light cooking spray.
Dinner
Jacket potato, coleslaw & cheese with a huge green salad.
Snacks
Apple flapjack organic yoghurt
Cadbury's Crunchie Rocks
Total cals for the day: 1835
7th October
Breakfast - nowt
Lunch (well if its still classed as that at 4pm)
Half a portion of chick pea curry leftovers from 6th October below sans rice!
Dinner
Roast pork loin in honey and mustard, oven fried tatties with rosemary and garlic and lashings of red cabbage
Small Evening snack (read 'dirty gluttonous feast')
170g Galaxy Minstrels
400mls Apple juice
throughout the day - the usual 600ml milk allowance.
Calories today 1952 (and you really thoguht I would bust it right??!!! HAHAHA! Wrong!)
6th October
Breakfast - coffee
Lunch
'Yummy Dinner'
This is a favorite of mine and my son's.
Mashed Potato, 4 chopped frankfurters, half a tin of chopped tomatoes, jalapeno's and grated cheddar. Its like so amazingly yummy and low in cals for such a filling and satisfying meal.
Dinner
Chick Pea Curry & Rice
Serves 5
2 Onions
Chicken stock (made from boiling bones, cabbage leaves, onions in skins and celery for ages)
42g coconut milk powder
2 cans of chick peas (cooked)
1 tin of tomatoes
1 tin of peaches in juice (blended smooth in a jug)
2 cloves garlic
cayenne
curry powder of choice - but its best as a mild one.
Snack this evening
Daim bar - what else could it ber right now?!?!?!
(and allowance of milk for the day 600mls)
Todays calories so far 1566
5th October
Breakfast - nowt as I wasnt hungry
Lunch
Jacket Potato, beans and cheese and a small amount of margarine
Dinner
2 cheese and ham pancakes with peas.
Evening snack
Daim Bar
Many coffee's with milk. I allow myself 600mls of milk each day, and as a family we get through about 1 litre a day, so I think this could be a little bit of an exaggerated guess, but I would rather err on the side of caution!
todays cals 1548
4th October
Breakfast
2 scrambled eggs with milk and butter (yes, real butter!)
half a can of baked beans
Lunch
Half a can of baked beans followed by a large banana
Dinner
Chilli Con Carne with Rice.
Evening treat
Nestle Caramac bar
total for today 1728
3rd October
Breakfast - slept through that one!
Lunch
Baked beans
low fat Greek Yoghurt and a spoonful of honey
P.M. Snack
2x Bananas
Dinner
Chicken & Bacon Pie, Broccoli and Carrots
This recipe serves 5 healthy appetites:
500ml milk allowance in various coffees
And to top my day off - a Nestle Caramac bar
Home made baked beans in tomato sauce
1/2 home made wholemeal roll
Slice roast beef, new potatoes and watercress & spinach salad with HM balsamic dressing
1/4 piece of organic no MSG chocolate. (tastes like shit but hits the PMT spot man!)
umpteen coffees and water24nd November 2009
Coffee with Organic Whole milk x 6
Portion of Curry & Rice -
Another portion of above
1 Ryvita dark rye crispbread
1/2 jar green olives
Bowl of Tesco's own Instant Hot Oat Cereal (aka Ready Brek) with 2 tbsp sugar
23 November 2009 - GOING MSG FREE DAY
Coffee with UHT Skimmed milk x 4
Coffee with Full Fat Organic Milk x 2
Mashed potato with butter, salt, pepper & garlic
2 Scrambled eggs with UHT Skimmed milk, butter
Mashed potato with butter, salt, pepper & garlic
Grated Cheese
1 marshmallow toasted on a candle
1 spoon Chicken and Leek soup left over in fridge before I WOKE UP & realised I must not eat this & poured in down the sink
1 bowl of maple & pecan cereal with whole milk & 1 tbsp sugar
31st October 2009
course of the morning snacks:
few olives
1 row (5 squares) white chocolate with crunchy rice in it (mmmm!)
lunch: 1egg, scrambled with a little milk and butter
1/2 can baked beans in tomato sauce
dinner:
jacket potato with butter, cheese and coleslaw
evening snack:
mashed potato with tinned chopped tomato, jalapenos and grated cheese
total cals 1554 - and that had to be over estimated on occasion too e.g. I had 12g butter, but LIVESTRONG.COM have values for 15g so I went with that rather than do the maths and portion it out. What a good girl! No wine either - hee hee!
30th October 2009
Macaroni cheese + salad
olives
prawn curry from takeaway
2 glasses red wine
a very over estimated 1800 cals... I truly don't know how much was in the curry, as you never really do, and I had to over estimate the cals in the mac and cheese because it was impossible to factor every last drop of calories.
29th October 2009
USN diet fuel shake x2
Liver and Bacon pate
chicken stir fry (chicken, vegetables, worcestershire sauce, apricot jame, soy sauce, chilli)
2 tablespoons of white rice
2 bags of lettuce with low cal dressing
20 olives
2 glasses red wine
1649 cals including 91g protein
28th October 2009
USN diet fuel shake x 1
chicken livers on salad
6 jaffa cakes
7 fishfingers
2 tablespoons of peas
tomato ketchup
5 olives
3 glasses red wine
1528 cals
exercise today: brisk 10 minute walk up to village and brisk 10 minute walk back.
28th September 2009
2 x USN Diet Fuel Shakes
1 portion of home made Celery soup
1 Hot smoked Salmon fillet with chopped tinned plumb tomatoes
1/2 (or just over, which included the business part = chocolate sauce+topping) McFlurry
27th September
2 Diet fuel shakes
Roast Sunday Dinner:
26th September
1 diet fuel shake
1 portion of pureed ratatouille
2 cups of thin soup
2 large glasses of liqueur Muscat
2 slices of cheese (approx 100g)
spoonful of chilli sauce
25th September 2009
2 diet fuel shakes
pureed ratatouille
1/4 of a 1 scoop protein powder pancake (1 egg, 1 scoop protein powder, beaten together and dry fried in a skillet... LUSH!)
24th September
2 x USN Diet fuel shakes (354)
1/2 cup of curry and rice (?)
1 pot diet ice cream from eismann (73)
2 low fat yoghurts (100 each)
todays calories 630 + curry of which I have no idea. It was so small its hardly worth writing about though I guess. I also have skimmed milk in my coffees throughout the day, so whatever it was in the curry, I think we are safe to say I am under 1000 cals again today.
23rd September
2 x Diet fuel Protein shakes (354cals)
1 packet Knorr Crofters thick veggie soup (eaten over course of day) (250cals)
1 can of spaghetti in tomato sauce (200 cals)
1/2 packet Angel Delight mousse (200 cals)
22nd September
1 slimfast
1/2 packet of Knorr Golden Vegetable soup
2 tesco's own slim shakes
1 bowl (1/2 packet) Angel Delight butterscotch flavour
5000 coffee's
61 glasses of squash
... ok it felt like that, but probably more like 3 pints squash, and 7 coffees... maybe more.
21st September 2009
4 x slimfast shakes
1 bowl Birds Custard (home made) & stewed cooking apple from garden - no sugar
Gravy from home made Beef Stew:
20th September 2009
2 x Slimfast
11th June 2009
Massive green salad with Tuna mayo (xtra lite)
Muller lite x2
Spinach and Green Bean curry with rice
1 Jar Kalamata Olives
TOTAL SYNS 8
10th June 2009 (had evening pamper party)
no breakfast
no lunch
Chicken and tarragon Casserole (chicken, carrots, onion, garlic, peas in oxo gravy)with new potatoes
at the party: Wine - about 1 bottle by the way I felt
Doritos and dip
cocktail sausages
snack eggs (mini scotch eggs)
chocolates - mint thins and also dairy milk squares
No idea on SYNS
9th June 2009
fruit salad + no-fat yoghurt for breakfast
baked beans for lunch
Pasta Putanesca for dinner made with tomato, peppers, onion, celery, capers, tuna, olives and pasta spirals.
Mullerlite yoghurt
packet of Starburst sweets
TOTAL 10 SYNS
8th June 2009
2 Rashers bacon, 1/2 an onion with a 2 egg omelette - dry fried
Chicken curry made with garlic, ginger, tomato, spinach, chicken and rice and 1 tbsp Olive oil
3 Muller lite yoghurts
diet tonic water
jar of olives
TOTAL 8 SYNS
11th May
Coffee
slimfast x2
10th May
Coffee
3 pks Walkers crisps with salad cream
1 packet prawn crackers
3 muller fruit corners
whole portion Saag (spinach bhaji)
whole portion of Bringal (aubergine bhaji)
1/2 prawn dhansak
2 popadoms
1 bottle red wine
1 large G+T (not slimline)
probably other stuff I forgot (another crisps maybe)
27th April
1 Jar Kalamata Olives
1/4 tub coleslaw
Bowl of chicken noodle soup and half a small soft roll
Pasta with Puttanesca sauce
Recipe for Puttanesca my way
serves 1 bandit and 5 normals:
1 very large onion slices
4 tbsp olive oil
1 tbsp black pepper
1 vegetable oxo
2 tbsp balsamic vinegar
1 can chopped tomato
1 can of water (use the tomato can obviously!)
12 Greek Style seriously hardcore strong black olives
2 tbsp capers
1/2 jar of roasted red peppers (or 2 fresh ones) sliced
4 cloves garlic (no vampires coming here tonight)
1 tbsp sugar
1 tin of tuna chunks in brine
1 small plants worth of basil leaves
What to do:
fry onion in all the oil for a bit.
throw in the olives and stir and stuff for a bit longer
throw in can of tomato and can of water and stir for a while
bung in everything else too EXCEPT the Tuna and Basil
turn down the heat and simmer lightly for an hour.
You can then after an hour turn off the heat and stir in the tuna and basil leaves and serve over as much or as little pasta as you want. Nice and wet and full of goodness for bandsters.
yummmmmmmy
18th Feb
1 Slice toast with Mango Chutney and cheese
1/4 plum
1 slice dragon fruit.
17h Feb
Coffee's and Water etc
2 slices toast with beans and cheese
2 steamed mince meat dumplings
mashed potato
2 glasses red
5 Lindt Lindor chocs
16th Feb
2 slimfast
1 small slice suet pudding ( instead of bacon I made with creamed beefburger and garlic - actually very yummy!),1 parsnip, 1 piece sweet potato, few carrots, few peas + gravy
Coleslaw
Potato salad
Hummus
4 Lindt Lindor chocs and 3 glasses red.
Hmmm, heavy eating day today.
14th Feb
2 little fruit smoothies from Asda
1 litre Evian
1 Slimfast
1.5 litres Yazoo Milkshake
2 coffees
2 pints of water
13th Feb 2009
Nothing!
11 Feb 2009
2 slimfast
15 chip shop chips
4 glasses red
Little bit (childs portion) of lamb hotpot
10 Feb 2009
4 slimfast
Helping of Lasagne
4 Feb 2009
Slice toast with tinned tomato
Slice home made bread rubbed with garlic and cheese
Prawn dahnsak & rice
3 Feb 2009
1 Shape lasting satisfaction Yoghurt
1/2 can baked beans
1 small slice apple flap-jack
Roast Lamb Dinner (lamb, potato, sweet potato, parsnip, carrots, broccoli)
red wine
2 Feb 2009
2 slices home made bread
1 tin of tomato soup
1 cup of pasta spirals
1 serving home made puttanesca sauce (Tomato, Onion, Garlic, Olives, Red peppers, Aubergine, Pine nuts, Capers
1 Shape Lasting Satisfaction Yoghurt
Calorie goal: 2,017; calories consumed: 2,198; calories burned: 592
Net calories: 1,606
McDonald's Chocolate Brownie
Daim Crunchy Caramel Candy Bar
McDonald's Chicken Selects Premium Breast Strips
McDonald's Onion Rings
Trident Sweet Chilli Sauce
Mission Tortillas
Chicken Breast
Daisy Sour Cream
Avocado
Bombay Bombay Sapphire Gin
Tropicana Orange Juice
October 29th, 2010
Calorie goal: 2,017; calories consumed: 2,902; calories burned: 1,184
Net calories: 1,718
Greggs Sausage Roll
Asda Cream Slice
Weight Watchers Multigrain Bread
Tesco Creamy Coleslaw 0.50
Daim Crunchy Caramel Candy Bar
Bombay Bombay Sapphire Gin
McCain Home Fries
Stone Hearth Pizza Co. Roasted Peppers Pizza
Cockburns Fine Tawny Port
Cottage Cheese Puff
October 28th, 2010
Calorie goal: 2,017; calories consumed: 2,005; calories burned: 0
Net calories: 2,005
Tesco Skimmed UHT Milk
Oscar Mayer Hot Dog
White Finger Roll (tesco)
Donner Kabab
Bottle Red Wine
October 27th, 2010
Calorie goal: 2,017; calories consumed: 2,415; calories burned: 592
Net calories: 1,823
Oscar Mayer Hot Dog
Warburtons White Batch Bread
Nestle Yorkie Original
Bottle Red Wine
Chicken Fried Rice
Chicken Korma
Bottle Red Wine
October 26th, 2010
Calorie goal: 2,017; calories consumed: 2,389; calories burned: 0
Net calories: 2,389
Ferrero Rocher
egg
Pompeian Extra Virgin Olive Oil
Warburtons White Batch Bread
Butter, Salted
Eismann Camembert Bake
Fresh Green Beans
Warburtons White Batch Bread
Tesco Coleslaw
Bottle Red Wine
October 25th, 2010
Calorie goal: 2,017; calories consumed: 2,496; calories burned: 0
Net calories: 2,496
Scampi
Hellman's Salad Cream
Tesco Skimmed UHT Milk
Bottle Red Wine
Crispy Seaweed
Sweet 'N Sour Sauce
Compliments Chicken Balls in Batter
Chicken Fried Rice
Calorie goal: 2,017; calories consumed: 2,504; calories burned: 740
Net calories: 1,764
egg
Dromona Grated Mild Cheddar Cheese
Pompeian Extra Virgin Olive Oil
Daim Crunchy Caramel Candy Bar
Brussels Sprouts, Cooked
Baby Carrots, Raw
Cauliflower
Atora Beef Suet
Sainsbury's Basics Self Raising Flour
Sainsbury's Danish Smoked Back Bacon
Onions
Bottle Red Wine
Daim Crunchy Caramel Candy Bar
Walk to carrot factory (5 miles over ROUGH ground) 150 minutes -740.0 cals
Totals: 1,764 cals 83g protein
October 23rd, 2010
Calorie goal: 2,017; calories consumed: 2,506; calories burned: 0
Net calories: 2,506
Food Item
Tesco Skimmed UHT Milk
Daim Crunchy Caramel Candy Bar
Bottle Red Wine
Tesco Giant Yorkshire Pudding
Onions
Richmond Sausages
Smash Smash Instant Mash
Peas
Bisto Instant Gravy
Totals: 2,506 protein 61g
22nd October
Spaghetti, Whole-wheat, Dry
Pompeian Extra Virgin Olive Oil
Tesco Tomatoes (tin Chopped)
Tesco Skimmed UHT Milk
Chicken Breast
Onions
Peppers
Avocado
Sour Cream
Salsa
Discovery Soft Flour Tortillas - Garlic & Coriander
Red Wine, Dry
Daim Crunchy Caramel Candy Bar
Totals: 2,154cals (137 over daily goal) and 72g protein
21st October
Tesco Skimmed UHT Milk
Honey
Pork Centre Loin Chop
Broccoli
potato
Cornflour
Roasted Parsnip
Scampi
Maille Wholegrain Mustard
Young's Admiral's Pie
Daim Crunchy Caramel Candy Bar
Totals: 1,420 cals 66g protein
20th October
Tesco Skimmed UHT Milk 600ml
Omlette:
egg x 2
15ml Pompeian Extra Virgin Olive Oil x 2
Dromona Grated Mild Cheddar Cheese 34g
Hellmann's Mayonnaise 2 x 15ml
Salad
Curry:
Tesco Lentils Green (canned) 132g
Garlic 1 clove
Spinach 1 cup
Onions 1 cup
Tesco Tomatoes (tin Chopped) 100g
Maggi Coconut Milk Powder 10g
Tesco Brown Rice (easy Cook) 100g uncooked
The Co-Operative Exotic Fruit Juice Drink 200ml
Totals: 1,606 cals & 61g protein
19th October
Lunch
'yummy dinner' - consists of mashed potato, chopped tomatoes, chopped frankfurters, jalapeno's and cheese
Dinner
Quiche and salad with mayonnaise. Quiche was made with pastry shell, peppers, onions and courgette. salad was spinach, watercress and lettuce.
Snacks
Aero bubbles
KitKat chunky
Cals = 1783
18th October
Lunch
Banana
PM Snack
Banana
Dinner
Salad & French Fries- romaine leaves, spinach and watercress with oven cooked chips
3 KitKat Chunky bars
red wine
Cals 2305
17th October
Breakfast
Porridge
Lunch
Scone with jam an cream
Champagne
Dinner
Chicken caesar salad
tiny piece of celebratory cake
olives
Cals 2084
16th October
Lunch
2 scrambled eggs on 2 slices of toast
Dinner
Half of a three cheese pizza, massive watercress and spinach salad and coleslaw
a gazillion coffee's with milk
Daily calories: 1660
15th October
lunch
half an egg mayonnaise sandwich - possibly less cos it was rank.
banana
dinner
Chinese meal at restaruant
spring roll
seaweed
4 prawn toasts
1 wanton
3 duck pancakes
red wine
Evening dumb move
2x coleslaw sandwiches
Total calories for the the day 3000
14th October
really really crap day eating wise
LUNCH
mashed potato and coleslaw
DINNER
*planned* chicken stirfry
stirfry veg, chicken breast & dressing made with jam, peanut butter and soy sauce (yummy honest!) but I couldnt eat it - puked the first try out of this meal at 7pm. Then on return from the meeting, I puked my second go at eating it at around 11pm.
DINNER
*actual* ended up being Mashed potato and coleslaw again!!! LOL
Oh boy, well nevermind. I now know I cant eat stirfry - well maybe not today anyhow.
SNACKS
banana
Cals today 1290
13th October
Lunch
Cheese and spring onion sandwich
Afternoon snack
banana
Dinner
Nasi goreng and chilli sauce
Evening treat's
A Crunchie and a Daim Bar!!! YUM
The days calorie count: 1369!!!!!!!
12th October
Lunch
Egg mayonnaise & cress sandwich
Snack
Banana
Dinner
Cheese and tomato pizza, salad and coleslaw
Evening treat
Cadbury's Crunchie
Total day's calories 1515
11th October
Lunch (very late)
1/2 sausage roll
Lucozade Sport
Dinner
Lasagna - a 'lite' version of my cheesy delight
Serves 6 Seriously hungry people (or 12 semi restricted bandits)
900g beef mince
1 can of pureed plum tomatoes
2 carrots grated
2 onions
2 cloves of garlic
150g cheese
400mls skimmed milk
2 teaspoons of English (yellow) mustard
mixed herbs
salt and pepper
25g cornflour
21 Lasagna pasta sheets (you kight need more/less depending on how you layer it)
Put the mince in a pan with 2 pints of water and bring to the boil (this removed the solid fattening lard so that you can get rid of it). In another pan add the 2 grated carrots and chopped onion and sweat off in some water too - not enough to cover, but enough so that it cooks without burning.
In another saucepan (yes there are a lot!) heat the milk and cornflour stiring continuously. When it has thickened, add the 1tsp mustard and 3/4 of the grated cheese and stir vigorously then set aside.
Drain the mince, then put it back in the pan. Add 1 tsp mustard, herbs, salt, pepper and tomatoes and stir. Puree the carrot and onion mix and add to the mince. Mix it through and then begin layering mince/pasta sheets/mince/pasta sheets until its all gone. Finish with a layer or pasta.
Pour the sauce all over the top so that it is completely covered. Lay 3 thinly sliced tomatoes all over the top and then sprinkle with the remaining cheese.
Cook for 45 mins to 1 hour at 175oC until the top begins to brown
The result is this:
No brekkie - this is getting to be a habit!
Lunch
Eggy bread
Dinner
Quiche, coleslaw + salad
greek yoghurt with apricots and honey
Snack
More yoghurt as above :-)
todays cals: 1749
9th October
No brekkie, No lunch - we are going out tonight + not that hungry so why bother.
Dinner - Mushroom strogannof, rice and rye bread roll
Serves 4
loads of mushrooms (of differing varieties if you like/can be bothered)
400g (probably get away with less) of weight watchers low fat thick cream
4 tbsp olive oil (1 per person)
2 cloves of garlic
2 onions
1tbsp lemon juice
salt & pepper
parsley
rice to serve
stock (or a stock cube - but watch you dont add too much salt)
Fry the onion in the oil, and 250ml stock and reduce on quick heat. add muchrooms and stir. Add salt and pepper and the lemon juice and fry for a few minutes. It starts to get more fluid in the pan from the mushrooms cooking. When its obviously done, lots of watery stuff and the mushies are cooked turn off the heat, add garlic and stir. Add the cream and then the parsley.
Serve with rice and a roll
The reuslt: (by the way - I ate only half of this!!! LOL)
Todays calories: 2110 - 79cals OVER my allowance, but this might not actually be the case as I had to take a best guess from memory on the juice nutritional label and erred on the side of caution. Anyway, for a night out, that is a total WIN!
8th October
Breakfast -nowt again
Lunch
Bubble & Squeak - red cabbage from last night with mashed potato and a little onion fried in a hot pan with fry light cooking spray.
Dinner
Jacket potato, coleslaw & cheese with a huge green salad.
Snacks
Apple flapjack organic yoghurt
Cadbury's Crunchie Rocks
Total cals for the day: 1835
7th October
Breakfast - nowt
Lunch (well if its still classed as that at 4pm)
Half a portion of chick pea curry leftovers from 6th October below sans rice!
Dinner
Roast pork loin in honey and mustard, oven fried tatties with rosemary and garlic and lashings of red cabbage
Small Evening snack (read 'dirty gluttonous feast')
170g Galaxy Minstrels
400mls Apple juice
throughout the day - the usual 600ml milk allowance.
Calories today 1952 (and you really thoguht I would bust it right??!!! HAHAHA! Wrong!)
6th October
Breakfast - coffee
Lunch
'Yummy Dinner'
This is a favorite of mine and my son's.
Mashed Potato, 4 chopped frankfurters, half a tin of chopped tomatoes, jalapeno's and grated cheddar. Its like so amazingly yummy and low in cals for such a filling and satisfying meal.
Dinner
Chick Pea Curry & Rice
Serves 5
2 Onions
Chicken stock (made from boiling bones, cabbage leaves, onions in skins and celery for ages)
42g coconut milk powder
2 cans of chick peas (cooked)
1 tin of tomatoes
1 tin of peaches in juice (blended smooth in a jug)
2 cloves garlic
cayenne
curry powder of choice - but its best as a mild one.
Snack this evening
Daim bar - what else could it ber right now?!?!?!
(and allowance of milk for the day 600mls)
Todays calories so far 1566
5th October
Breakfast - nowt as I wasnt hungry
Lunch
Jacket Potato, beans and cheese and a small amount of margarine
Dinner
2 cheese and ham pancakes with peas.
Evening snack
Daim Bar
Many coffee's with milk. I allow myself 600mls of milk each day, and as a family we get through about 1 litre a day, so I think this could be a little bit of an exaggerated guess, but I would rather err on the side of caution!
todays cals 1548
4th October
Breakfast
2 scrambled eggs with milk and butter (yes, real butter!)
half a can of baked beans
Lunch
Half a can of baked beans followed by a large banana
Dinner
Chilli Con Carne with Rice.
Evening treat
Nestle Caramac bar
total for today 1728
3rd October
Breakfast - slept through that one!
Lunch
Baked beans
low fat Greek Yoghurt and a spoonful of honey
P.M. Snack
2x Bananas
Dinner
Chicken & Bacon Pie, Broccoli and Carrots
This recipe serves 5 healthy appetites:
- Pastry -150g margarine, 340g plain flour & water to mix (to make a pie case and lid)
- Filling - 330g Back Bacon - no fat, 5oz chicken breast (as that all i had left!)
- Sauce - Stock + 2 onions, half head of celery, pureed carrots and romanesco from last nights dinner and thickened with cornflour.
- Broccoli and Carrots to serve
500ml milk allowance in various coffees
And to top my day off - a Nestle Caramac bar
how many calories in this little lot... Ta Da! 1666
2nd October 2010
Breakfast
Coffee as usual
Lunch
120g of rice (uncooked weight) boiled
72g of Lao Gan Ma's Chilli Paste with Fermented Soybean - oooh its gooood but...
Roast chicken
Oven cooked tatties
Romanesque (romanesco broccoli)
Gravy
Orange Juice
Milk in many coffees
Cals today 1950
1st October 2010
2nd October 2010
Breakfast
Coffee as usual
Lunch
120g of rice (uncooked weight) boiled
72g of Lao Gan Ma's Chilli Paste with Fermented Soybean - oooh its gooood but...
***THIS IS A LUNCH NEVER TO BE REPEATED***
***WAY TOO FATTENING***
***1 JAR of this paste has over 2000 calories!!!!!!***
***10g has 74cals. I need 70g minimum = 532 cals on PASTE! GULP!***
DinnerRoast chicken
Oven cooked tatties
- cut potatoes into inch pieces, spray with one of those diet oil sprays and throw on some Rosemary, crushed garlic and pepper and bake for 20 mins. mmm
Romanesque (romanesco broccoli)
Gravy
- Have never gone back to using Oxo/stock powders - all gravy is made from home made chicken stock (boiled bones of a whole chicken, onion, cabbage leaves, half head of celery and onions in skins pressure cooked for 25 minutes) and then I use cornflour to thicken
Milk in many coffees
Cals today 1950
1st October 2010
Brunch
3 eggs scrambled with 10g butter and skimmed milk
2 slices toasted brown bread
Dinner
Cottage Pie:- Mince beef, peas and stock thickened with cornflour, mashed potato and green beans (about 4 cos they were stringy and grim)
500ml orange juice
4 cups of fresh coffee and skimmed milk (going to give milk up in coffee as it dont taste nice to me anymore)
Tropical fruit juice - about 500mls
1x Daim Bar
Daily Plate calories: 1876cals - (my daily allowance is 2081)
Tropical fruit juice - about 500mls
1x Daim Bar
Daily Plate calories: 1876cals - (my daily allowance is 2081)
******************************************************************************** 26th November 2009
Home made baked beans in tomato sauce
1/2 home made wholemeal roll
Slice roast beef, new potatoes and watercress & spinach salad with HM balsamic dressing
1/4 piece of organic no MSG chocolate. (tastes like shit but hits the PMT spot man!)
umpteen coffees and water24nd November 2009
Coffee with Organic Whole milk x 6
Portion of Curry & Rice -
Green Lentils1 Marshmallow
Chopped Tomato
1 Onion
1 ounce butter
2 teaspoon sugar
1 tbsp Sri Lankan curry powder
salt
Portion from Pouch Sharwoods Ready cooked Steamed Pilau Rice
Another portion of above
1 Ryvita dark rye crispbread
1/2 jar green olives
Bowl of Tesco's own Instant Hot Oat Cereal (aka Ready Brek) with 2 tbsp sugar
23 November 2009 - GOING MSG FREE DAY
From today I endevour to eat NO MSG or any product containing the ingredients listed here http://www.msgmyth.com/hidename.htm
Coffee with UHT Skimmed milk x 4
Coffee with Full Fat Organic Milk x 2
Mashed potato with butter, salt, pepper & garlic
2 Scrambled eggs with UHT Skimmed milk, butter
Mashed potato with butter, salt, pepper & garlic
Grated Cheese
1 marshmallow toasted on a candle
1 spoon Chicken and Leek soup left over in fridge before I WOKE UP & realised I must not eat this & poured in down the sink
1 bowl of maple & pecan cereal with whole milk & 1 tbsp sugar
31st October 2009
course of the morning snacks:
few olives
1 row (5 squares) white chocolate with crunchy rice in it (mmmm!)
lunch: 1egg, scrambled with a little milk and butter
1/2 can baked beans in tomato sauce
dinner:
jacket potato with butter, cheese and coleslaw
evening snack:
mashed potato with tinned chopped tomato, jalapenos and grated cheese
total cals 1554 - and that had to be over estimated on occasion too e.g. I had 12g butter, but LIVESTRONG.COM have values for 15g so I went with that rather than do the maths and portion it out. What a good girl! No wine either - hee hee!
30th October 2009
Macaroni cheese + salad
olives
prawn curry from takeaway
2 glasses red wine
a very over estimated 1800 cals... I truly don't know how much was in the curry, as you never really do, and I had to over estimate the cals in the mac and cheese because it was impossible to factor every last drop of calories.
29th October 2009
USN diet fuel shake x2
Liver and Bacon pate
chicken stir fry (chicken, vegetables, worcestershire sauce, apricot jame, soy sauce, chilli)
2 tablespoons of white rice
2 bags of lettuce with low cal dressing
20 olives
2 glasses red wine
1649 cals including 91g protein
28th October 2009
USN diet fuel shake x 1
chicken livers on salad
6 jaffa cakes
7 fishfingers
2 tablespoons of peas
tomato ketchup
5 olives
3 glasses red wine
1528 cals
exercise today: brisk 10 minute walk up to village and brisk 10 minute walk back.
28th September 2009
2 x USN Diet Fuel Shakes
1 portion of home made Celery soup
1 Hot smoked Salmon fillet with chopped tinned plumb tomatoes
1/2 (or just over, which included the business part = chocolate sauce+topping) McFlurry
27th September
2 Diet fuel shakes
Roast Sunday Dinner:
- 1tbsp roast beef
- 1 tbps cabbage
- 1tbsp carrots
- 1 small roast potato
- gravy
- horseradish sauce
- 1 small Yorkshire pudding.
26th September
1 diet fuel shake
1 portion of pureed ratatouille
2 cups of thin soup
2 large glasses of liqueur Muscat
2 slices of cheese (approx 100g)
spoonful of chilli sauce
25th September 2009
2 diet fuel shakes
pureed ratatouille
1/4 of a 1 scoop protein powder pancake (1 egg, 1 scoop protein powder, beaten together and dry fried in a skillet... LUSH!)
24th September
2 x USN Diet fuel shakes (354)
1/2 cup of curry and rice (?)
1 pot diet ice cream from eismann (73)
2 low fat yoghurts (100 each)
todays calories 630 + curry of which I have no idea. It was so small its hardly worth writing about though I guess. I also have skimmed milk in my coffees throughout the day, so whatever it was in the curry, I think we are safe to say I am under 1000 cals again today.
23rd September
2 x Diet fuel Protein shakes (354cals)
1 packet Knorr Crofters thick veggie soup (eaten over course of day) (250cals)
1 can of spaghetti in tomato sauce (200 cals)
1/2 packet Angel Delight mousse (200 cals)
22nd September
1 slimfast
1/2 packet of Knorr Golden Vegetable soup
2 tesco's own slim shakes
1 bowl (1/2 packet) Angel Delight butterscotch flavour
5000 coffee's
61 glasses of squash
... ok it felt like that, but probably more like 3 pints squash, and 7 coffees... maybe more.
21st September 2009
4 x slimfast shakes
1 bowl Birds Custard (home made) & stewed cooking apple from garden - no sugar
Gravy from home made Beef Stew:
- 500g lean braising steak
- 1 large onion rough chopped
- 3 large chunky chopped carrots
- 1 can chopped tinned tomato
- 2oxo cubes
- 1 tbs cornflour to thicken
- 3pts water
20th September 2009
2 x Slimfast
11th June 2009
Massive green salad with Tuna mayo (xtra lite)
Muller lite x2
Spinach and Green Bean curry with rice
6 garlic cloves and half a stem of ginger blitzed in water with 2 chicken
oxo
2 cans of tomato
cumin
turmeric
cumin seed
white pepper
mild curry powder
1 bag spinach
1/2 pound french green beans
1/2 pot of no-fat yoghurt
1 Jar Kalamata Olives
TOTAL SYNS 8
10th June 2009 (had evening pamper party)
no breakfast
no lunch
Chicken and tarragon Casserole (chicken, carrots, onion, garlic, peas in oxo gravy)with new potatoes
at the party: Wine - about 1 bottle by the way I felt
Doritos and dip
cocktail sausages
snack eggs (mini scotch eggs)
chocolates - mint thins and also dairy milk squares
No idea on SYNS
9th June 2009
fruit salad + no-fat yoghurt for breakfast
baked beans for lunch
Pasta Putanesca for dinner made with tomato, peppers, onion, celery, capers, tuna, olives and pasta spirals.
Mullerlite yoghurt
packet of Starburst sweets
TOTAL 10 SYNS
8th June 2009
2 Rashers bacon, 1/2 an onion with a 2 egg omelette - dry fried
Chicken curry made with garlic, ginger, tomato, spinach, chicken and rice and 1 tbsp Olive oil
3 Muller lite yoghurts
diet tonic water
jar of olives
TOTAL 8 SYNS
11th May
Coffee
slimfast x2
10th May
Coffee
3 pks Walkers crisps with salad cream
1 packet prawn crackers
3 muller fruit corners
whole portion Saag (spinach bhaji)
whole portion of Bringal (aubergine bhaji)
1/2 prawn dhansak
2 popadoms
1 bottle red wine
1 large G+T (not slimline)
probably other stuff I forgot (another crisps maybe)
27th April
1 Jar Kalamata Olives
1/4 tub coleslaw
Bowl of chicken noodle soup and half a small soft roll
Pasta with Puttanesca sauce
Recipe for Puttanesca my way
serves 1 bandit and 5 normals:
1 very large onion slices
4 tbsp olive oil
1 tbsp black pepper
1 vegetable oxo
2 tbsp balsamic vinegar
1 can chopped tomato
1 can of water (use the tomato can obviously!)
12 Greek Style seriously hardcore strong black olives
2 tbsp capers
1/2 jar of roasted red peppers (or 2 fresh ones) sliced
4 cloves garlic (no vampires coming here tonight)
1 tbsp sugar
1 tin of tuna chunks in brine
1 small plants worth of basil leaves
What to do:
fry onion in all the oil for a bit.
throw in the olives and stir and stuff for a bit longer
throw in can of tomato and can of water and stir for a while
bung in everything else too EXCEPT the Tuna and Basil
turn down the heat and simmer lightly for an hour.
You can then after an hour turn off the heat and stir in the tuna and basil leaves and serve over as much or as little pasta as you want. Nice and wet and full of goodness for bandsters.
yummmmmmmy
18th Feb
1 Slice toast with Mango Chutney and cheese
1/4 plum
1 slice dragon fruit.
17h Feb
Coffee's and Water etc
2 slices toast with beans and cheese
2 steamed mince meat dumplings
mashed potato
2 glasses red
5 Lindt Lindor chocs
16th Feb
2 slimfast
1 small slice suet pudding ( instead of bacon I made with creamed beefburger and garlic - actually very yummy!),1 parsnip, 1 piece sweet potato, few carrots, few peas + gravy
Coleslaw
Potato salad
Hummus
4 Lindt Lindor chocs and 3 glasses red.
Hmmm, heavy eating day today.
14th Feb
2 little fruit smoothies from Asda
1 litre Evian
1 Slimfast
1.5 litres Yazoo Milkshake
2 coffees
2 pints of water
13th Feb 2009
Nothing!
11 Feb 2009
2 slimfast
15 chip shop chips
4 glasses red
Little bit (childs portion) of lamb hotpot
10 Feb 2009
4 slimfast
Helping of Lasagne
4 Feb 2009
Slice toast with tinned tomato
Slice home made bread rubbed with garlic and cheese
Prawn dahnsak & rice
3 Feb 2009
1 Shape lasting satisfaction Yoghurt
1/2 can baked beans
1 small slice apple flap-jack
Roast Lamb Dinner (lamb, potato, sweet potato, parsnip, carrots, broccoli)
red wine
2 Feb 2009
2 slices home made bread
1 tin of tomato soup
1 cup of pasta spirals
1 serving home made puttanesca sauce (Tomato, Onion, Garlic, Olives, Red peppers, Aubergine, Pine nuts, Capers
1 Shape Lasting Satisfaction Yoghurt
Monday, 2 February 2009
Great results
Well, cant remember if I put it down or not, but when I got weighed at fat club last Monday I had put on 2 and a half pounds, taking me to 16 stone 11.5. Not good. This week, without following any specific diet or regime at all, even having a couple of bottles of red during the week, I have lost a whopping 5 AND A HALF POUNDS!!!!
When I went to see Wendy again yesterday, I obviously didn't know this. I weighed in on their scales as a pound up, but she looked at me and then asked her husband Steve if it was the same scales, to which the answer was no as they had been sent for calibration or something. She told me I looked as though I had lost weight. I told her I had my hair cut, and we agreed it must have been that.
So we chatted about food and the intake thereof. I have been able to eat this week everything that I cooked. The portions were a tad smaller, I didn't feel as hungry in the morning as usual etc but, to me it did seem that although I could feel some difference, it wasn't quite the difference that I thought might tip me over that little plateau. So we agreed that she would put another half in and I would go careful and see what happens. If its too much, I will know and just stay on liquids. Obviously I am on liquids at the moment, so I haven't got much to report, except for the lovely delicious result at slimmingworld today! It was great to see those scales tipped the other way. I re-joined slimmingworld about 7 weeks ago as you know and I weighed in at 16 8.5. That week I lost 2 and a half pounds taking me to 16stone 6. Then I have farted about and been rubbish for a while gaining here there and everywhere, so to be right back to 16 stone 6 again, its given me a great boost. I also have 1 more ml in my band than I had back in December, so things should start to rock an roll.
Now, I have had a couple of emails from readers about the possibility of evaporative loss. I think that they say this because they cant quite form the words..." we could have lost a bit when I was putting the needle in and out etc" I know that my last fill in October didn't go well, and the syringe plunger was not working quite right and popped off and we lost fluid and she had to re-fill another syringe and replace it, so its a possibility that actually that is where I lost half a ml. The saline actually ran down my side onto the couch. To be honest I think that that is definitely where I lost it. But she called it evaporative loss and hinted at never getting all the fluid drawn back as some is in the tubing etc... So that's what I put here. No ones perfect are they, and when you see so many patients, it must be hard to remember what happened at each visit and stuff. I am not bothered. I know that my band is full, under pressure and has no leaks, air bubbles or any problems. I feel a lot more positive to be honest.
So whatever the loss was down to, its not a problem right now.
When I went to see Wendy again yesterday, I obviously didn't know this. I weighed in on their scales as a pound up, but she looked at me and then asked her husband Steve if it was the same scales, to which the answer was no as they had been sent for calibration or something. She told me I looked as though I had lost weight. I told her I had my hair cut, and we agreed it must have been that.
So we chatted about food and the intake thereof. I have been able to eat this week everything that I cooked. The portions were a tad smaller, I didn't feel as hungry in the morning as usual etc but, to me it did seem that although I could feel some difference, it wasn't quite the difference that I thought might tip me over that little plateau. So we agreed that she would put another half in and I would go careful and see what happens. If its too much, I will know and just stay on liquids. Obviously I am on liquids at the moment, so I haven't got much to report, except for the lovely delicious result at slimmingworld today! It was great to see those scales tipped the other way. I re-joined slimmingworld about 7 weeks ago as you know and I weighed in at 16 8.5. That week I lost 2 and a half pounds taking me to 16stone 6. Then I have farted about and been rubbish for a while gaining here there and everywhere, so to be right back to 16 stone 6 again, its given me a great boost. I also have 1 more ml in my band than I had back in December, so things should start to rock an roll.
Now, I have had a couple of emails from readers about the possibility of evaporative loss. I think that they say this because they cant quite form the words..." we could have lost a bit when I was putting the needle in and out etc" I know that my last fill in October didn't go well, and the syringe plunger was not working quite right and popped off and we lost fluid and she had to re-fill another syringe and replace it, so its a possibility that actually that is where I lost half a ml. The saline actually ran down my side onto the couch. To be honest I think that that is definitely where I lost it. But she called it evaporative loss and hinted at never getting all the fluid drawn back as some is in the tubing etc... So that's what I put here. No ones perfect are they, and when you see so many patients, it must be hard to remember what happened at each visit and stuff. I am not bothered. I know that my band is full, under pressure and has no leaks, air bubbles or any problems. I feel a lot more positive to be honest.
So whatever the loss was down to, its not a problem right now.
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