Day 2 - storm looming

Well, the storm clouds rolled in last night.

For breakfast yesterday I had some cereal or something. It was about 2 tablespoons worth in a plastic bag. They did say all I would need was milk...And that is seemingly true!

Lunch was ok too, tuna salad and two slices bread. Nice full tummy.

Then we were invited to stay over at friends. Nibbles and wine flowed. Once I had a glass of wine I couldn't resist. The boat rocked and I was totally caught in the storm. I did not have any other tea as such, so I am hoping that by having a glass of water between each glass of wine rather than matching them glass for glass, that I will have put into effect a form of damage limitation.

However, the nibbles were vol-au-vents (or however you spell them) with egg Mayo, cream cheese and salmon, mushroom stuff and another had chicken stuff. I have no idea how many calories are in them, but I bet there's a lot. I know there's about 200 cals in a glass of wine, so there's 600 gone totally before I start!

I am not impressed with myself. I can't believe I haven't even done a single day on this diet yet.

I guess that I have still cut back though. If I had not been on my diet, I would probably have had no breakfast at all, and then for lunch a big baguette from the bakery filled with lashings of butter and chicken/Mayo/fat combination. Then in the afternoon, maybe some cake or a chocolate bar or sweets. I would then have had a big meal in the evening and some wine too. So I guess I was reserved, even though I totally blew it.

I feel bad. This morning when I woke up I felt guilty. I hoped no one would find out that I had been naughty on my diet. My husband hasn't said anything, so I hope he hasn't noticed or doesn't think it matters.

I have to be firmer with myself. I am realizing I have very little self control. I must work at that.

Today has been ok. I ate the breakfast (beans on toast - yummy!) and the lunch and the tea.
I have had a few coffees with sugar rather than sweetener though...Its 16 calories a spoonful, so I have had about 100 extra calories than I should have.

My daily calorie value is supposedly 1600 on this diet. Its all worked out for me. So If I have had 1700, when my body is used to 3000 a day or something, then its a plus right?

I know its not just calories, but the proportion of fat to protein and carbs, but I am no scientist. Sugar is carbs I think, so that should be ok. The big part of today's meals seems to have been carbs and little protein and low fat, so hopefully the balance is still right.

OHHH! I must try better tomorrow. I have a feeling the weekdays will be easier as I am busier.

lets hope so!

I am off now to watch the rest of the Home and Away Omnibus that I recorded. Yes, I am a sad wretch, but I never said I wasn't! :o) Then I think we are going to watch the film "Down with Love" .