Well today i feel ok, but not 100% I haven't taken any pain killers today, which is good i guess. I will take some tonight just in case. I have munched through nearly the whole pack of instant strawberry paracetamol tablets that I bought in Belgium.
I didnt go to the meeting today as I felt rotten. I woke up at 8am, and then went back to sleep again and woke again at 12! I felt weak and tired and could hardly lift my spoon to my lips as i ate my .... wait for it... yogurt! However, after I had finished it I felt a little better.
I caught up on my weeks worth of missed Home and Away's (I LOVE IT) and then some brothers and sisters from the congregation came around. First J and her husband popped around and later J and his daughters. Then K and C popped in too. Its was really lovely. I had C on the phone for an hour checking I was ok and had lots of emails to reply to, as some people didn't know I was having an op. Only R, C, J and M know from the hall that I have had the band. I don't think its anyone else's business, and I feel embarrassed that I have had to go to these lengths to get my weight under control. So thats that. Its all over and done with and I am on the mend. YAY! I cannot BELIEVE that I have done this. 4 weeks ago I wasnt even thinking about it. Now it done. Hopefully it will be the best £4K i have ever spent.
Sunday, 18 February 2007
Saturday, 17 February 2007
Day 6 - Brugge -> Heathrow
Travelling Buddy and I went down to breakfast and I had a sachet of honey, a cream cheese, a yogurt and half a cup of coffee. Bloated. Linda had muesli, yogurt, banana, kiwi, 3 cups coffee, scrambled eggs and something else I cant remember! She also got herself a cheese roll for the flight home.
Our taxi picked us up at 9:30. It cost 180 Euros which was just dreadful, but there we go. I had factored it in. It was then that I realised that I hadnt paid for the first taxi to the hotel on day 1. that should have been 130 euros, so maybe i got a bargain; Marc never asked me for the money. I am pretty sure it wasnt included, but maybe it was. I dunno.
The drive took about an hour and then we were at Brussels airport. and uneventful wait of 3 hours and then 45 minute flight back. I was worried about my band being affected by the pressure in the aircraft, but it didnt seem to feel any different at all thank goodness. I had a tomato juice on the plane for my lunch (goodness I cant get over this). Linda had her roll. They gave us free wraps, but of course I couldnt eat it because, well i cant; and Travelling Buddy couldnt because she is vegetarian, and also on a diet, so we took them back for DH and DS.
My 2 boys met us at the airport with hugs and kisses. A bouquet of flowers for me and a lovely watch and a thank you to Travelling Buddy for coming with me.
We drove home and I was hungry by the time I got home. I had half a pot of jelly, and then a yogurt and that was me done.
DH had arranged for some neighbours to come around for the evening, which I couldn't believe!! However we had a nice time and I felt fine. Went to bed and for the first time since the op I was able to sleep on my right hand side. My left side was still too painful, but I hate sleeping on my back so much, that I felt really at home and comfortable in my own bed. I put pillows down the middle so DH wouldn't hug me in the middle of the night by accident and give me agony. He didnt, but says its awful not being able to cuddle up like we usually do, so we held hands all night and linked legs. All together now..." Ahhhhhhhh".
Our taxi picked us up at 9:30. It cost 180 Euros which was just dreadful, but there we go. I had factored it in. It was then that I realised that I hadnt paid for the first taxi to the hotel on day 1. that should have been 130 euros, so maybe i got a bargain; Marc never asked me for the money. I am pretty sure it wasnt included, but maybe it was. I dunno.
The drive took about an hour and then we were at Brussels airport. and uneventful wait of 3 hours and then 45 minute flight back. I was worried about my band being affected by the pressure in the aircraft, but it didnt seem to feel any different at all thank goodness. I had a tomato juice on the plane for my lunch (goodness I cant get over this). Linda had her roll. They gave us free wraps, but of course I couldnt eat it because, well i cant; and Travelling Buddy couldnt because she is vegetarian, and also on a diet, so we took them back for DH and DS.
My 2 boys met us at the airport with hugs and kisses. A bouquet of flowers for me and a lovely watch and a thank you to Travelling Buddy for coming with me.
We drove home and I was hungry by the time I got home. I had half a pot of jelly, and then a yogurt and that was me done.
DH had arranged for some neighbours to come around for the evening, which I couldn't believe!! However we had a nice time and I felt fine. Went to bed and for the first time since the op I was able to sleep on my right hand side. My left side was still too painful, but I hate sleeping on my back so much, that I felt really at home and comfortable in my own bed. I put pillows down the middle so DH wouldn't hug me in the middle of the night by accident and give me agony. He didnt, but says its awful not being able to cuddle up like we usually do, so we held hands all night and linked legs. All together now..." Ahhhhhhhh".
Friday, 16 February 2007
Day 5 - Brugge
Well I was feeling a lot better today. Pain all day, mostly in my shoulder actually, but not too horrific.
For breakfast I had a yogurt. I was full immediately. I could not believe the small amounts of food we were now eating. Full liquid and milk product diet is very odd. Then Travelling Buddy and I waited in the lobby with D and M for the private nurse to come. We sat drinking (sipping) coffee until she came at about 1pm. M and I went back to her room and the nurse changed our dressings for us and that was it.
Travelling buddy and I then decided to have a wander around Brugge. We went slowly and took in the sights. Its such a lovely place. I got a few nice things for my boys... a T shirt for DH and a pair of willow clogs for DS and also some chocolates. I bought some pressies for my Mum and Dad and also for my Brother too.
We stopped off at about 3 in a little cafe place and I had some tomato soup. I ate only half of it. Travelling buddy wasnt hungry and she had had her lunch so she just had a coffee. It was really nice to sit down. I did feel exhausted to be honest. My hips ached. It felt like they were wearing out. My shoulder pain, by the end of the day, was almost unnoticeable thank goodness. I got a twinge of arm ripping now and again, but not too bad.
We went back to the hotel and I had a lie down, phoned DH and DS and my MUM. Travelling Buddy went off to get a few bits on her own and when she got back we made a start on the packing. At about 7pm D and M came round to say goodbye as they were going off home. They didnt see the point in staying another night, so they hopped in the car, the lucky things, and were back at home in Blighty by 11pm.
TravBud and I were sad to see them go and we had really kept each other company and they were such a lovely couple. We promised to get together at some point and we know now that we are both having our band fills on the same day (24th March) at the same centre, so thats good.
After a little supper.... yogurt (HEE HEE) Travelling buddy and I went out on the town again. We wandered all around and stopped in the square to see the film 'In Brugge' being filmed with Colin Farrel and some actress with a French sounding name... maybe Catherine someone or other. I didnt recognise the name. That was quite thrilling. A fire engine had wet all the cobble stones outside the bell tower and the couple were kissing as the camera panned around them. They were doing the scene over and over again and we got bored and walked on.
We walked about a load and were back at the hotel at about 8:30. I had a coffee and TB had a diet coke and then we retired. We sat in the room watching Eastenders and then another programme called Lillies which was really good and then some other tripe and went to sleep.
For breakfast I had a yogurt. I was full immediately. I could not believe the small amounts of food we were now eating. Full liquid and milk product diet is very odd. Then Travelling Buddy and I waited in the lobby with D and M for the private nurse to come. We sat drinking (sipping) coffee until she came at about 1pm. M and I went back to her room and the nurse changed our dressings for us and that was it.
Travelling buddy and I then decided to have a wander around Brugge. We went slowly and took in the sights. Its such a lovely place. I got a few nice things for my boys... a T shirt for DH and a pair of willow clogs for DS and also some chocolates. I bought some pressies for my Mum and Dad and also for my Brother too.
We stopped off at about 3 in a little cafe place and I had some tomato soup. I ate only half of it. Travelling buddy wasnt hungry and she had had her lunch so she just had a coffee. It was really nice to sit down. I did feel exhausted to be honest. My hips ached. It felt like they were wearing out. My shoulder pain, by the end of the day, was almost unnoticeable thank goodness. I got a twinge of arm ripping now and again, but not too bad.
We went back to the hotel and I had a lie down, phoned DH and DS and my MUM. Travelling Buddy went off to get a few bits on her own and when she got back we made a start on the packing. At about 7pm D and M came round to say goodbye as they were going off home. They didnt see the point in staying another night, so they hopped in the car, the lucky things, and were back at home in Blighty by 11pm.
TravBud and I were sad to see them go and we had really kept each other company and they were such a lovely couple. We promised to get together at some point and we know now that we are both having our band fills on the same day (24th March) at the same centre, so thats good.
After a little supper.... yogurt (HEE HEE) Travelling buddy and I went out on the town again. We wandered all around and stopped in the square to see the film 'In Brugge' being filmed with Colin Farrel and some actress with a French sounding name... maybe Catherine someone or other. I didnt recognise the name. That was quite thrilling. A fire engine had wet all the cobble stones outside the bell tower and the couple were kissing as the camera panned around them. They were doing the scene over and over again and we got bored and walked on.
We walked about a load and were back at the hotel at about 8:30. I had a coffee and TB had a diet coke and then we retired. We sat in the room watching Eastenders and then another programme called Lillies which was really good and then some other tripe and went to sleep.
Thursday, 15 February 2007
Day 4 - Brugge - ->Hotel
The following morning M and I were feeling like we had gone a few rounds with Mike Tyson to be honest. The lovely nurse came in and gave us a bottle of water (thats right, bottle of mineral water.. not a jug of tap!!) for us to try to drink a little. If we could drink then she would remove the intravenous drip that was KILLING my arm. I drank. Cheers. She removed it. YAHOO!!!
Until that point it had been totally nill by mouth except for one of those Evian spray canister things which M correctly summed up as 'tasting like Poison'. If I could have laughed and not hurt myself I would have done. It was actually fine according to our companions, but with nothing to eat or drink my breath munged so bad that even toothpaste tasted like death.
A little while later they brought us some breakfast. Custardy vanilla pudding stuff, milk, coffee and a yogurt. God grief. There was no way we could eat it. I felt totally off my food. I ate a little custard type stuff and had a mouthful of coffee but I was just really scared, and to be honest not feeling hungry one little bit.
Dr. Dillemans came to our ward a few minutes into our meal and looked at our dressings. There was a bit of blood on all of them. 4 holes and a slice, so they changed the dressings to waterproof ones and that meant we could have a shower. A shower was urgently needed considering I was pasted from breast to knee with red iodine.
Revelation: Dr Dillemans also told us of how LJ was not allowed to have surgery in the end. He had complained so much, about the meeting on Tuesday, the hotel, the food, the language barrier (what language barrier????)and the hospital procedure and so much questioning that Dr Dillemans decided that he would not want to perform the surgery on him! We were flabbergasted. I don't blame him one little bit. I mean, one little thing wrong and you dont know what LJ would have done. So he sent him packing. I don't think LJ was ready for it anyway. He was a brute of a man. Very sexist and arrogant. He didn't even look nice, he looked venomous and menacing... even when he was smiling. He also looked worried and scared although he swore blue he wasn't and that he was a big hard man and he was this and that and owned this and that. All that bravado showed to me that basically he was scared stiff. The more he protested that he wasn't the more I thought he was. Stupid bloke. He really had not thought through the procedure.
The another Revelation... D had vanished!!! Apparently D, who checked in with us and was wanting to be first on the slab -"Get that band on me no matter what" - had done a runner. They came to get him for surgery and he wasn't there. He never said goodbye to any of us, and vanished without a trace. We heard from Dr. Dillemans that the bloke's wife had written a stinking email to Cisca at the office saying it was the most traumatic experience of his life and no one spoke English and he had no confidence etc etc. What an utter load of crap. The Dutch speak fluent English! I mean everyone even the shop keepers spoke beautiful English. at the end of the day, we are English people in a foreign country. If he didnt want to have it done in Belgium.... then he should not have come. Come on man!!! Basically he was chicken too. didnt want to lose face and made some b****cks up about it being terrible. He didnt even get the surgery! If that was the most traumatic experience of his life, then he has had a very pleasurable life!! Both M and I were both very very shocked that they had both not had the surgery. so at the end of it, M, N and Me - the three girls - went through with it, and the boys chickened out. There is no shame in that, i mean I was questioning my decision all the time, but for goodness sake, just admit to it. Dont make up some rubbish about it being a terrible service, because it wasnt.
So after they changed our dressings we were allowed to go home. I dressed gingerly and we went back to the hotel armed with 10 hypodermic syringes of blood thinners.
If you are considering this operation, be aware that apart from the initial consultation that Marc picked us up for, all the other journeys to and from the hospital you had to make by yourself. D and M drove from the UK and very kindly took us to the hospital and back, and D also took my travelling buddy back from the hospital the night that me and M had to stay in, an brought her back the following morning. If it wasnt for that, because we flew, we would have had to get taxi's costing around 10 Euros a throw or a bus. Their kindness meant that I rested easy knowing my travelling buddy was able to get home and wasnt wandering around Brugge on her own in the dark.
We walked to the car and I developed a very bad pain in my shoulder. If felt like someone was ripping my arm off in between stabbing it with a dagger. It was the most excruciating pain ever. It was more painful than the wounds themselves. The gas they use to separate your organs during surgery finds its way out usually through your shoulders, and this was what it was.
As soon as I got back to the hotel, I laid down and it was better.
We spent the day in the room, watching tv a bit, and chatting with D and M in our room, and then in their room and walking up and down the room as we were told to mobilise as soon as possible. However, I finally got into bed at about 6pm and stayed there until the morning. My back killed me all night and I had crud on my lungs which I couldnt cough up because of the pain in my stomach when i coughed.
It was a pretty bad night to be honest. I was awake a lot and feeling very sorry for myself.
Until that point it had been totally nill by mouth except for one of those Evian spray canister things which M correctly summed up as 'tasting like Poison'. If I could have laughed and not hurt myself I would have done. It was actually fine according to our companions, but with nothing to eat or drink my breath munged so bad that even toothpaste tasted like death.
A little while later they brought us some breakfast. Custardy vanilla pudding stuff, milk, coffee and a yogurt. God grief. There was no way we could eat it. I felt totally off my food. I ate a little custard type stuff and had a mouthful of coffee but I was just really scared, and to be honest not feeling hungry one little bit.
Dr. Dillemans came to our ward a few minutes into our meal and looked at our dressings. There was a bit of blood on all of them. 4 holes and a slice, so they changed the dressings to waterproof ones and that meant we could have a shower. A shower was urgently needed considering I was pasted from breast to knee with red iodine.
Revelation: Dr Dillemans also told us of how LJ was not allowed to have surgery in the end. He had complained so much, about the meeting on Tuesday, the hotel, the food, the language barrier (what language barrier????)and the hospital procedure and so much questioning that Dr Dillemans decided that he would not want to perform the surgery on him! We were flabbergasted. I don't blame him one little bit. I mean, one little thing wrong and you dont know what LJ would have done. So he sent him packing. I don't think LJ was ready for it anyway. He was a brute of a man. Very sexist and arrogant. He didn't even look nice, he looked venomous and menacing... even when he was smiling. He also looked worried and scared although he swore blue he wasn't and that he was a big hard man and he was this and that and owned this and that. All that bravado showed to me that basically he was scared stiff. The more he protested that he wasn't the more I thought he was. Stupid bloke. He really had not thought through the procedure.
The another Revelation... D had vanished!!! Apparently D, who checked in with us and was wanting to be first on the slab -"Get that band on me no matter what" - had done a runner. They came to get him for surgery and he wasn't there. He never said goodbye to any of us, and vanished without a trace. We heard from Dr. Dillemans that the bloke's wife had written a stinking email to Cisca at the office saying it was the most traumatic experience of his life and no one spoke English and he had no confidence etc etc. What an utter load of crap. The Dutch speak fluent English! I mean everyone even the shop keepers spoke beautiful English. at the end of the day, we are English people in a foreign country. If he didnt want to have it done in Belgium.... then he should not have come. Come on man!!! Basically he was chicken too. didnt want to lose face and made some b****cks up about it being terrible. He didnt even get the surgery! If that was the most traumatic experience of his life, then he has had a very pleasurable life!! Both M and I were both very very shocked that they had both not had the surgery. so at the end of it, M, N and Me - the three girls - went through with it, and the boys chickened out. There is no shame in that, i mean I was questioning my decision all the time, but for goodness sake, just admit to it. Dont make up some rubbish about it being a terrible service, because it wasnt.
So after they changed our dressings we were allowed to go home. I dressed gingerly and we went back to the hotel armed with 10 hypodermic syringes of blood thinners.
If you are considering this operation, be aware that apart from the initial consultation that Marc picked us up for, all the other journeys to and from the hospital you had to make by yourself. D and M drove from the UK and very kindly took us to the hospital and back, and D also took my travelling buddy back from the hospital the night that me and M had to stay in, an brought her back the following morning. If it wasnt for that, because we flew, we would have had to get taxi's costing around 10 Euros a throw or a bus. Their kindness meant that I rested easy knowing my travelling buddy was able to get home and wasnt wandering around Brugge on her own in the dark.
We walked to the car and I developed a very bad pain in my shoulder. If felt like someone was ripping my arm off in between stabbing it with a dagger. It was the most excruciating pain ever. It was more painful than the wounds themselves. The gas they use to separate your organs during surgery finds its way out usually through your shoulders, and this was what it was.
As soon as I got back to the hotel, I laid down and it was better.
We spent the day in the room, watching tv a bit, and chatting with D and M in our room, and then in their room and walking up and down the room as we were told to mobilise as soon as possible. However, I finally got into bed at about 6pm and stayed there until the morning. My back killed me all night and I had crud on my lungs which I couldnt cough up because of the pain in my stomach when i coughed.
It was a pretty bad night to be honest. I was awake a lot and feeling very sorry for myself.
Wednesday, 14 February 2007
Day 3 - Brugge - Surgery
Well I just spent about an hour writing what happened on the day of surgery in minute details and then my PC crashed!
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Poxy thing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So I just cannot be bothered to re write it all out again so carefully. If anyone wants to know exactly, then just ask ok?
8:30 arrived hospital
checked in with M, D, LJ and N. N went up to floor 13. I went to floor 11, same room as M, D was sent to same floor as M and me. LJ apparently didnt have a bed yet. Very strange. I figured that he was still a bi nervous of the surgery. He looked hunted!
9:45 enrobed in a crispy white backless mini dress and sexy white stockings. Modesty completely surrendered.
10:00 taken down for surgery. very clean, airlock doors and great staff etc etc. Amazing clean and different to English surgery.
2:00 back in ward feeling cruddy. given intravenous drip and paracetamol (!)
Drifted through day between sleep and semi awake. Waved a couple of times at M across from me in the bed.
Didnt get much sleep. Very painful.
ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
Poxy thing!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
So I just cannot be bothered to re write it all out again so carefully. If anyone wants to know exactly, then just ask ok?
8:30 arrived hospital
checked in with M, D, LJ and N. N went up to floor 13. I went to floor 11, same room as M, D was sent to same floor as M and me. LJ apparently didnt have a bed yet. Very strange. I figured that he was still a bi nervous of the surgery. He looked hunted!
9:45 enrobed in a crispy white backless mini dress and sexy white stockings. Modesty completely surrendered.
10:00 taken down for surgery. very clean, airlock doors and great staff etc etc. Amazing clean and different to English surgery.
2:00 back in ward feeling cruddy. given intravenous drip and paracetamol (!)
Drifted through day between sleep and semi awake. Waved a couple of times at M across from me in the bed.
Didnt get much sleep. Very painful.
Tuesday, 13 February 2007
Day 2 - Brugge - Pre op tests
Had breakfast and then we were waiting to be picked up by 'Marc' to take us to the hospital for pre op tests. We noticed another couple and a chap on his own, also hanging about the lobby and realised that they must be there for the surgery too. My travelling buddy went up and asked them and they confirmed it. I had thought that I would be on my own to be honest and felt a little bit weird... like it was a bit of a conveyor belt system, but my fears were soon allayed because it was nice to have the others there to talk too.
We were taken to the hospital where we met another couple of people also there to have the surgery. M was there with D having a gastric band like me, LJ was having a r/y bypass and so was N who was there with dad J. Another chap D was having the gastric band too, and he was there on his own.
It was nice to be all sitting together and discussing things. It made me feel like I wasnt being stupid, and that I was not alone and there must be a LOT of people having this surgery in the UK. I mean... there were 5 of us there, and they operate on Monday, Wednesday and Friday so thats around 15 a week. Thats a lot of operations a year.
The Dietitian Martine Harsfinger came and talked to us as a group and then individually and gave us forms to fill in and then sent us off for the blood tests. The best blood test I have ever had! Didnt feel the needle at all, and had NO bruise. I think thats amazing!! I was very impressed with the facilities too as we went to another part of the hospital to have the tests.
Then we came back and spent I think quite a long time talking with Marc and other things and we were waiting for Dr Dillemans to come to talk with us about it all. It was a long day and I was really starving by the time we left the hospital. Dillemans came to the room and sat down and explained the procedure and it was a bit 'technical' and I still had a lot of questions, so I asked him at the end. He was a very good chap and had no problem with the fact I didnt want to have blood either. His reaction when I told him that made me feel very safe and confident in his abilities. After all he is supposedly one of the best bariatric surgeons in Europe. I felt good about the op.
So a VERY long day - picked up at 10am, back at hotel (by bus) by 3:30pm!
We went out after that around the town and Brugge is beautiful. It is the most beautiful city I think I have ever been to. Outstanding architecture and lovely people. Everyone spoke such wonderful English and it was a joy to be there.
We went out, my travelling buddy and I, to a lovely bistro in the evening where I had a £50 bottle of Chateauneuf Du Pape and the most thrilling 'last supper' ever. It was lovely. I can still see it behind my eyes! A feast of rare smoked duck, fois gras, steak and different salads and topped off with a chocolate pudding. gorgeous.
We went back to the hotel and sat in the bar to have a few drinks before I was nil by mouth at midnight, and were soon joined by D & M, LJ and his mate K, and D. We had a rip roaring night and a great laugh and all of us, or so we thought, were looking forward to our surgery in the morning.
We retired to our teeny beds for a good (!) nights sleep.
We were taken to the hospital where we met another couple of people also there to have the surgery. M was there with D having a gastric band like me, LJ was having a r/y bypass and so was N who was there with dad J. Another chap D was having the gastric band too, and he was there on his own.
It was nice to be all sitting together and discussing things. It made me feel like I wasnt being stupid, and that I was not alone and there must be a LOT of people having this surgery in the UK. I mean... there were 5 of us there, and they operate on Monday, Wednesday and Friday so thats around 15 a week. Thats a lot of operations a year.
The Dietitian Martine Harsfinger came and talked to us as a group and then individually and gave us forms to fill in and then sent us off for the blood tests. The best blood test I have ever had! Didnt feel the needle at all, and had NO bruise. I think thats amazing!! I was very impressed with the facilities too as we went to another part of the hospital to have the tests.
Then we came back and spent I think quite a long time talking with Marc and other things and we were waiting for Dr Dillemans to come to talk with us about it all. It was a long day and I was really starving by the time we left the hospital. Dillemans came to the room and sat down and explained the procedure and it was a bit 'technical' and I still had a lot of questions, so I asked him at the end. He was a very good chap and had no problem with the fact I didnt want to have blood either. His reaction when I told him that made me feel very safe and confident in his abilities. After all he is supposedly one of the best bariatric surgeons in Europe. I felt good about the op.
So a VERY long day - picked up at 10am, back at hotel (by bus) by 3:30pm!
We went out after that around the town and Brugge is beautiful. It is the most beautiful city I think I have ever been to. Outstanding architecture and lovely people. Everyone spoke such wonderful English and it was a joy to be there.
We went out, my travelling buddy and I, to a lovely bistro in the evening where I had a £50 bottle of Chateauneuf Du Pape and the most thrilling 'last supper' ever. It was lovely. I can still see it behind my eyes! A feast of rare smoked duck, fois gras, steak and different salads and topped off with a chocolate pudding. gorgeous.
We went back to the hotel and sat in the bar to have a few drinks before I was nil by mouth at midnight, and were soon joined by D & M, LJ and his mate K, and D. We had a rip roaring night and a great laugh and all of us, or so we thought, were looking forward to our surgery in the morning.
We retired to our teeny beds for a good (!) nights sleep.
Monday, 12 February 2007
Day 1 - Heathrow -> Brugge
DH dropped Travelling buddy and I at the Bus Station, where we caught the Heathrow Shuttle. I booked the coach on the internet the day before. The coach was an hour late arriving at Terminal 4 although it didnt matter, because I had thankfully booked a bus earlier than needed just incase.
We had checked in for our flight online the night before, so literally dumped our luggage at the drop off and then went through security.
An uneventful flight and landing where we were picked up in Brussels by a driver, which was included in the package surgery deal.
Taxi took just over an hour to take us to Brugge, where we stayed at the Best Western Acacia. This Hotel was described as being 4 star, and the other hotel we could have used, the campanile, was described as 3 star. In reality, the Campanile was way out of town, and also 2 star. The Acacia was not what I thought it was going to be. Very nice lounges, bar, breakfast room and lobby with lovely reception... but the room you are actually sleeping in, and eventually eating, recuperating and relaxing in, is not what I would class as 4 star. Ok it was clean, they came and cleaned up every day and made the beds, but the beds were a bit lumpy and also TINY considering the people in them were there for weight loss surgery as well made it even more obvious! They were low to the floor and that made it difficult to get in and out of after the surgery too. There was a big wardrobe in the room which contained a kitchen... hot plate and kettle, sink and fridge which i thought was great. But the net curtains were grey with filth and the whole room needed a bit of a re paint. It just was not a 4 star hotel at the end of the day, but it was comfortable. Unfortunately you could only stay at the Acacia, or at the Campanile as the private nurse had to visit us after we were back at our hotel, so we had no choice.
So, installed in our hotel, we unpacked and then went out for a slap up meal and look around Brugge at night. The Christmas decs were still all up, and when we asked why, they said there was a film being made there. Indeed there was and it is called In Brugge starring Colin Farrel. I am guessing it will be out next November/December due to the Christmas theme. Watched a bit of the filming on our last night there which made for an interesting tale to tell when we got back.
We had checked in for our flight online the night before, so literally dumped our luggage at the drop off and then went through security.
An uneventful flight and landing where we were picked up in Brussels by a driver, which was included in the package surgery deal.
Taxi took just over an hour to take us to Brugge, where we stayed at the Best Western Acacia. This Hotel was described as being 4 star, and the other hotel we could have used, the campanile, was described as 3 star. In reality, the Campanile was way out of town, and also 2 star. The Acacia was not what I thought it was going to be. Very nice lounges, bar, breakfast room and lobby with lovely reception... but the room you are actually sleeping in, and eventually eating, recuperating and relaxing in, is not what I would class as 4 star. Ok it was clean, they came and cleaned up every day and made the beds, but the beds were a bit lumpy and also TINY considering the people in them were there for weight loss surgery as well made it even more obvious! They were low to the floor and that made it difficult to get in and out of after the surgery too. There was a big wardrobe in the room which contained a kitchen... hot plate and kettle, sink and fridge which i thought was great. But the net curtains were grey with filth and the whole room needed a bit of a re paint. It just was not a 4 star hotel at the end of the day, but it was comfortable. Unfortunately you could only stay at the Acacia, or at the Campanile as the private nurse had to visit us after we were back at our hotel, so we had no choice.
So, installed in our hotel, we unpacked and then went out for a slap up meal and look around Brugge at night. The Christmas decs were still all up, and when we asked why, they said there was a film being made there. Indeed there was and it is called In Brugge starring Colin Farrel. I am guessing it will be out next November/December due to the Christmas theme. Watched a bit of the filming on our last night there which made for an interesting tale to tell when we got back.
Sunday, 11 February 2007
Off to Brugge Tomorrow.... Gastric Banding is here!
Well, here I am. 3 weeks wait went very quickly. I have been using the weeks to have several 'last suppers'. Nothing massive... not an all out blow out, but just a last filling enjoyment of everything I loved.
This week has been hellish though. I have had a very stressful week, and I cannot believe that I am off to Belgium tomorrow!
Monday we had Thai, Tuesday we had Chinese, Wednesday we had Indian, Thursday we had English (Fish and Chips!!!), Friday was chocolate cake and crumpets - like a 'tea time', saturday we had Italian, and today, I have had a full 3 course Traditional Sunday Roast. Prawn Cocktail (Mmmmm!)Roast beef, Yorkshire pud, horseradish sauce and all the trimmings followed by Banoffee pie made WELL!! ginger biscuit base with an inch thick layer of toffee and sliced banana and cream on top. Adorable. Then coffee and mints. Y U M ! ! ! ! ! !
So I am having a lovely Shiraz now to wash me out and then tomorrow morning I go.
I have not gone totally mad. I could have lost the plot and totally gone crazy for eating, but All I did was have one of my favorite meals each night. I still kept to low fat butter and sauces and salads etc during the day. I think I would have felt disgusting inside if I eat full fat everything after not having it for 2 years. Also kind of defeats the object of weightloss surgery, as it just means I have to lose a load more weight before I REALLY start shifting it. I dont want to make the job any harder than it is.
Anyway, I think life after surgery will be very different. I have been told to use a tea spoon eating and a shot glass for drinking at first. :o( But I am 100% committed to this and I will go with it. I will not fight the band and I will stick to the dietary advice I am given. I have a juicer now so I will be able to make relly vitamin rich liquids for myself for the forst couple of months when I cant eat solid foods. It will also be a good supplement to my eating in future.
I am nervous and excited. I could be sick actually. I am all packed and have everything I need, so all I have to do now is go. I wont be able to write this blog for a bit because I will be in Belgium until Saturday so. I will let you all know how it went when I get back.
This week has been hellish though. I have had a very stressful week, and I cannot believe that I am off to Belgium tomorrow!
Monday we had Thai, Tuesday we had Chinese, Wednesday we had Indian, Thursday we had English (Fish and Chips!!!), Friday was chocolate cake and crumpets - like a 'tea time', saturday we had Italian, and today, I have had a full 3 course Traditional Sunday Roast. Prawn Cocktail (Mmmmm!)Roast beef, Yorkshire pud, horseradish sauce and all the trimmings followed by Banoffee pie made WELL!! ginger biscuit base with an inch thick layer of toffee and sliced banana and cream on top. Adorable. Then coffee and mints. Y U M ! ! ! ! ! !
So I am having a lovely Shiraz now to wash me out and then tomorrow morning I go.
I have not gone totally mad. I could have lost the plot and totally gone crazy for eating, but All I did was have one of my favorite meals each night. I still kept to low fat butter and sauces and salads etc during the day. I think I would have felt disgusting inside if I eat full fat everything after not having it for 2 years. Also kind of defeats the object of weightloss surgery, as it just means I have to lose a load more weight before I REALLY start shifting it. I dont want to make the job any harder than it is.
Anyway, I think life after surgery will be very different. I have been told to use a tea spoon eating and a shot glass for drinking at first. :o( But I am 100% committed to this and I will go with it. I will not fight the band and I will stick to the dietary advice I am given. I have a juicer now so I will be able to make relly vitamin rich liquids for myself for the forst couple of months when I cant eat solid foods. It will also be a good supplement to my eating in future.
I am nervous and excited. I could be sick actually. I am all packed and have everything I need, so all I have to do now is go. I wont be able to write this blog for a bit because I will be in Belgium until Saturday so. I will let you all know how it went when I get back.
Sunday, 4 February 2007
take away blow out heaven
Well DH is now away till wednesday, so we are having a take out fest. Think it will be Thai Cuisine tonight, good film with a bottle of wine and then a long read in bed of one of my new books.
Looking forward to it. Might even go for broke and hire a DVD!
woooo
Looking forward to it. Might even go for broke and hire a DVD!
woooo
Saturday, 3 February 2007
All systems are GO for surgery
Had an email from my Surgeon. He is advising hyperheparinisation. Thats cool. I had to inject heparin when I was pregnant too, so I will have no probs doing it again. I so totally go over my fear of injections during that 9 months. Phew.
Anyway, apart from that, everything is all checked in. I am booked for Pre op Tests on Tuesday 13th and The Surgery on 14th. My travelling buddy is coming with me, I have already bought 5 books for the duration for the stay, got lots of cup soup to drink, and I must remember to bring a strainer to get the bits out of it. I am only goign to be allowed clear soups, broths and liquids for a while. I am not looking forward to that bit, but I am prepared. I have bought chicken noodle soup which I love without the noodles, and Also some clear veg soup too.
I am feeling more positive about EVRYTHING! How can it be? Already I feel better in tuen with myself and this week, even though I have not been sticking to the diet, I weighed in exactly the same. No gain or loss. Strange. I also have taken on another 5 pupils over the last few weeks, and have been much more positive about teaching again. I am feeling great to be honest. I know everythign will be slotting into place really soon. Just over a week to go.
I am going to keep a diary of the surgery and photos and will post them when I get back. I want to make a really good blog about this surgery, because I havent been able to find many stories from people who have done this in the UK, so hopefully I can be of use to someone too.
Anyway, apart from that, everything is all checked in. I am booked for Pre op Tests on Tuesday 13th and The Surgery on 14th. My travelling buddy is coming with me, I have already bought 5 books for the duration for the stay, got lots of cup soup to drink, and I must remember to bring a strainer to get the bits out of it. I am only goign to be allowed clear soups, broths and liquids for a while. I am not looking forward to that bit, but I am prepared. I have bought chicken noodle soup which I love without the noodles, and Also some clear veg soup too.
I am feeling more positive about EVRYTHING! How can it be? Already I feel better in tuen with myself and this week, even though I have not been sticking to the diet, I weighed in exactly the same. No gain or loss. Strange. I also have taken on another 5 pupils over the last few weeks, and have been much more positive about teaching again. I am feeling great to be honest. I know everythign will be slotting into place really soon. Just over a week to go.
I am going to keep a diary of the surgery and photos and will post them when I get back. I want to make a really good blog about this surgery, because I havent been able to find many stories from people who have done this in the UK, so hopefully I can be of use to someone too.
Friday, 26 January 2007
Extreme measures are needed. Gastric banding here we come!
Well, its now January 2007. The 26th January to be precise. I have not lost a bean. I am nearly back to where I was in May 2005. I weigh 17 stone, 10lbs. This is terrible. I just cannot keep to plan. I hate everything about myself, and the way I eat, and I simply love food. I have come to the understanding that Slimmingworld is NEVER going to do it for me, because my own personal make up makes me go wrong all the time. I am sabotaging myself and I know it.
I am an overeater. I cant help it.
I get really excited that I lose a few pounds, and then congratulate myself with a takeaway - YES ITS CRAZY.... I KNOW!!!. My mind kids me that I can have a calorie rich diet the next day as its still a week till weigh in, and the next day I can probably get away with too. I forget about the diet totally on thursday and friday I think... "well i am going to put on weight, so who cares, might as well have this week off." Sunday evening comes and I am trying to be good 12 hours before weigh in.
I am pathetic. I KNOW I am!
I dont know WHY I do this. There should be some scientific research into WHY people like me cannot diet. 2 years I have been attending weekly meetings, and every week I come away with good intentions. I spend £5 (or nearly) a week doing this, which I can ill afford, but because I think it will work I do it. I might as well just jump on my own scales once a week for FREE!! I support other people, I tell them good recipes, but I cant do it myself. Its like the old me is saying "NO DONT EAT WELL, YOU LIKE IT LIKE THIS".
However, I am no psychologist, so I cannot ask myself the right questions to understand my own split personality, let alone solve my own problems. I certainly cannot control myself.
I overeat. I also comfort eat - when I am happy AND when I am sad!
I also eat late at night. I often skip breakfast. I try just one chocolate and end up eating the box.
I like a glass of wine in the evening.
I like baileys.
I like puddings.
I like creamy sauces with meals.
I like bread with butter not margarine.
I like oil on my pasta.
I like sauce with my chips.
I like ice cream.
I like to eat.
There you are. No excuses.
I think that there is no point from now on trying to give an excuse to why i skip brekkie, or eat late. What is the point. Its me. Its a habit. I cant change it or I would have done. Its the way my life runs.
Since I have been on this diet, I have thought of NOTHING but food. It doesnt matter what they say, all diets mean you obsess about food.
So thats it.
I have tried having all my meals delivered to my door prepared. (£100 per week for me and hubbie)
I have tried Atkins (for a long time too!)
I have done slimming world for 2 YEARS - every week... not missing a meeting!!!!!!!!
I have had hypnotherapy
I have had accupuncture
I have had lymphatic drainage massages
I have tried 5HTP pills and L-Carnitine supplements for increasing metabolism
I have tried crushed shells and seaweed exctract bought from holland. didnt work.
I have given up sugar in ALL drinks for 2 years
I have limited my wine to a bottle a week MAX. more that often less, and always inline with my diet
I have done the GI diet
The south beach diet - check!
The e-diets diet - check
cabbage soup - check
1000 cals a day - check
full fat normal living like the 1940's (full cream milk, chees and butter etc)- check!... (Actually I didnt put on as much as I thought I would! weird!)
Wierd wood vinegar pads for the feet at night- done it! - load of crap!
Xenical (Orlistat) - done. DONT DO IT - ITS TERRIBLE. I ruined my sofa, dining chairs and also car seats etc in only a month!! Lost nothing
Zotrim - done. Rubbish.
Reductil - Done. Was ok, but simply lost the will to live. Felt awful on them.
Infact I have probably already paid out more than this op will cost!
So people.... These are the ones I can actually remember over the last 10 years. I started this blog 2 years ago!!!
I AM FED UP.
I am booked in to have my GASTRIC BAND surgery on Feburary 14th 2007. I am having it done abroad saving me £4000 and am staying in a posh hotel with a private nurse and my friend is coming with me for moral support. My husband and son are staying here and are fully behind me 100%. My mum and Dad and mother inlaw are all there to help me.
When I first mentioned it to my mum last week she said "I have been waiting for you to tell me this".
So there we go. I physically wont be able to overindulge. I wont be hungry on some crappy diet. I wont feel the need to ruin my body when I am investing £6000 in it.
Watch this space.
I will give you a weight reading the week before surgery as I am still goig to attend slimmingworld before and after surgery, so that I can still have a balanced diet and support.
I will post pics of before and after too, so watch this space. I need all the support I can get.
I am an overeater. I cant help it.
I get really excited that I lose a few pounds, and then congratulate myself with a takeaway - YES ITS CRAZY.... I KNOW!!!. My mind kids me that I can have a calorie rich diet the next day as its still a week till weigh in, and the next day I can probably get away with too. I forget about the diet totally on thursday and friday I think... "well i am going to put on weight, so who cares, might as well have this week off." Sunday evening comes and I am trying to be good 12 hours before weigh in.
I am pathetic. I KNOW I am!
I dont know WHY I do this. There should be some scientific research into WHY people like me cannot diet. 2 years I have been attending weekly meetings, and every week I come away with good intentions. I spend £5 (or nearly) a week doing this, which I can ill afford, but because I think it will work I do it. I might as well just jump on my own scales once a week for FREE!! I support other people, I tell them good recipes, but I cant do it myself. Its like the old me is saying "NO DONT EAT WELL, YOU LIKE IT LIKE THIS".
However, I am no psychologist, so I cannot ask myself the right questions to understand my own split personality, let alone solve my own problems. I certainly cannot control myself.
I overeat. I also comfort eat - when I am happy AND when I am sad!
I also eat late at night. I often skip breakfast. I try just one chocolate and end up eating the box.
I like a glass of wine in the evening.
I like baileys.
I like puddings.
I like creamy sauces with meals.
I like bread with butter not margarine.
I like oil on my pasta.
I like sauce with my chips.
I like ice cream.
I like to eat.
There you are. No excuses.
I think that there is no point from now on trying to give an excuse to why i skip brekkie, or eat late. What is the point. Its me. Its a habit. I cant change it or I would have done. Its the way my life runs.
Since I have been on this diet, I have thought of NOTHING but food. It doesnt matter what they say, all diets mean you obsess about food.
So thats it.
I have tried having all my meals delivered to my door prepared. (£100 per week for me and hubbie)
I have tried Atkins (for a long time too!)
I have done slimming world for 2 YEARS - every week... not missing a meeting!!!!!!!!
I have had hypnotherapy
I have had accupuncture
I have had lymphatic drainage massages
I have tried 5HTP pills and L-Carnitine supplements for increasing metabolism
I have tried crushed shells and seaweed exctract bought from holland. didnt work.
I have given up sugar in ALL drinks for 2 years
I have limited my wine to a bottle a week MAX. more that often less, and always inline with my diet
I have done the GI diet
The south beach diet - check!
The e-diets diet - check
cabbage soup - check
1000 cals a day - check
full fat normal living like the 1940's (full cream milk, chees and butter etc)- check!... (Actually I didnt put on as much as I thought I would! weird!)
Wierd wood vinegar pads for the feet at night- done it! - load of crap!
Xenical (Orlistat) - done. DONT DO IT - ITS TERRIBLE. I ruined my sofa, dining chairs and also car seats etc in only a month!! Lost nothing
Zotrim - done. Rubbish.
Reductil - Done. Was ok, but simply lost the will to live. Felt awful on them.
Infact I have probably already paid out more than this op will cost!
So people.... These are the ones I can actually remember over the last 10 years. I started this blog 2 years ago!!!
I AM FED UP.
I am booked in to have my GASTRIC BAND surgery on Feburary 14th 2007. I am having it done abroad saving me £4000 and am staying in a posh hotel with a private nurse and my friend is coming with me for moral support. My husband and son are staying here and are fully behind me 100%. My mum and Dad and mother inlaw are all there to help me.
When I first mentioned it to my mum last week she said "I have been waiting for you to tell me this".
So there we go. I physically wont be able to overindulge. I wont be hungry on some crappy diet. I wont feel the need to ruin my body when I am investing £6000 in it.
Watch this space.
I will give you a weight reading the week before surgery as I am still goig to attend slimmingworld before and after surgery, so that I can still have a balanced diet and support.
I will post pics of before and after too, so watch this space. I need all the support I can get.
Wednesday, 12 July 2006
I am SO in the zone!
Well, i have lost another 2 pounds this week. WOW! I am sooooooooooo pleased!
It means that I have lost 6 lb since getting back from holiday 3 weeks ago. I got rid of my 5 and a half pounds of holiday fat PLUS another half a pound!!! Wicked. I am pleased with myself. I have really been able to get positive about the diet at the new class. I am looking forward to next week, even though I have the District Assembly to go to where we are Camping and I might find it difficult to eat "on plan". I am just gonna try my best. I have been good up to it, so hopefully as I know its comign up, I have done enough to still lose this week.
They have this saying at fat club
"We dont plan to fail, we simply fail to plan"
So a plan will be made tomorrow and I will stick to it. I really am on the fast track to bint-ness now!
Ha ha!
It means that I have lost 6 lb since getting back from holiday 3 weeks ago. I got rid of my 5 and a half pounds of holiday fat PLUS another half a pound!!! Wicked. I am pleased with myself. I have really been able to get positive about the diet at the new class. I am looking forward to next week, even though I have the District Assembly to go to where we are Camping and I might find it difficult to eat "on plan". I am just gonna try my best. I have been good up to it, so hopefully as I know its comign up, I have done enough to still lose this week.
They have this saying at fat club
"We dont plan to fail, we simply fail to plan"
So a plan will be made tomorrow and I will stick to it. I really am on the fast track to bint-ness now!
Ha ha!
Thursday, 6 July 2006
Another Pound off.... and Slimmer of the week!
Well everyone. I was a bit dissapointed, but I have lost another pound! This makes me 17 stone and half a pound. I really hoped that it would be more, but there we go. Strangely enough, I was slimmer of the week too this week. Unbelievable. Lots of people had really high weight losses, but had not lost the week before. To be slimmer of the week you must have lost last week or stayed the same. So it was me.
I went to the new class. It was great. The consultant is really nice and very relaxed and honest. I dont feel like she is just after my money like the other one. She really got on my goat.
Anyway, I have stayed focused and positive this week so that I will hopefully have more of a show on the scales next week.
Its been unbearably hot this week. I am sweating whilst writing this post. Its not the temperature per se, but the HUMIDITY! Its just awful. My glasses are slipping down my nose, its so gross! I washed my hair and dried it all nice... what for I dont know as its all sticky again. Yuk.
Hopefully Walking and working in this heat will help shift the pounds, and i will see a nice result next week.
I went to the new class. It was great. The consultant is really nice and very relaxed and honest. I dont feel like she is just after my money like the other one. She really got on my goat.
Anyway, I have stayed focused and positive this week so that I will hopefully have more of a show on the scales next week.
Its been unbearably hot this week. I am sweating whilst writing this post. Its not the temperature per se, but the HUMIDITY! Its just awful. My glasses are slipping down my nose, its so gross! I washed my hair and dried it all nice... what for I dont know as its all sticky again. Yuk.
Hopefully Walking and working in this heat will help shift the pounds, and i will see a nice result next week.
Tuesday, 27 June 2006
A great result.
Been well good this week. Have followed the diet pretty much all week with the exception of a few days where I went over the syn level for the day. I have been making a lot of meals purely because we now have our Slovak lodger living with us. Because she gets a meal in the evening, it means I have to cook rather than just grab a sandwich.
Anyway, this week I lost....... 3 pounds!
Wooo hooo. This means I now weigh 17 stone 1 and a half pounds. I am well chuffed. I hope to lose next week too and it would be really fabulous if I was able to lose the 2 and a half pounds from my whole holiday weight gain, but I am actually not bothered if I dont. I would definately like to have lost though, and I will be annoyed if I have only lose half a pound or 1 pound or something.
I have not been so good this week. I have done a lot of walking and biking though because I now have a new bike. I also went to play badminton and did much more than usual. I bought a new bike as I thought it would help me and it definately has. I rode 6 miles last wednesday and then went to play badminton in the evening!!! WOW.
I have decided to change our slimmingworld class though. I am fed up with the consultant raising her eyes to heaven and being so bossy and rude to people. We will now go to another class which is not so close, but still nearby.
Anyway, watch this space for Monday's weight loss as I will now be goign on mondays.
Anyway, this week I lost....... 3 pounds!
Wooo hooo. This means I now weigh 17 stone 1 and a half pounds. I am well chuffed. I hope to lose next week too and it would be really fabulous if I was able to lose the 2 and a half pounds from my whole holiday weight gain, but I am actually not bothered if I dont. I would definately like to have lost though, and I will be annoyed if I have only lose half a pound or 1 pound or something.
I have not been so good this week. I have done a lot of walking and biking though because I now have a new bike. I also went to play badminton and did much more than usual. I bought a new bike as I thought it would help me and it definately has. I rode 6 miles last wednesday and then went to play badminton in the evening!!! WOW.
I have decided to change our slimmingworld class though. I am fed up with the consultant raising her eyes to heaven and being so bossy and rude to people. We will now go to another class which is not so close, but still nearby.
Anyway, watch this space for Monday's weight loss as I will now be goign on mondays.
Tuesday, 20 June 2006
Post Holiday Flab....
Went to France for 2 weeks. This meant in actual fact 3 weeks away from slimmingworld. I went to weigh in on Tuesday and it was not good really. It was 16stone 13lbs. So I had gained. Just havent been in the mood really. Anyway, that meant that I didnt bother with the diet from that point because I was going on holiday on the following Saturday. Then i was away from class for the next 2 tuesdays. I didnt see the point of doing the diet for the 2 days before the class after I got home as I knew I had put on.
Now remember, last year I put on 12lbs. I was a little worried, because I had eaten the same amount, if not more to be honest, this year!!! I certainly didnt worry too much about counting sins or having free food. The only exception being that I did try to eat fruit when I was peckish, but we ate out 4 times at an all you can eat buffet (MMMMMMmmmmmmm!) and had 3 macdonalds meals! Wine every day, for breakfast daily I had 3 pain aux chocolat.... etc etc.
So I was thrilled to find I had only put on 5 and a half pounds!! So after my holiday blow out I now weigh 17 stone 4 and a half pounds. This is great news for me. I feel motivated and happy to get cracking. I am over the moon that its not goign to take a long slog to get rid of my holiday weight.
Now remember, last year I put on 12lbs. I was a little worried, because I had eaten the same amount, if not more to be honest, this year!!! I certainly didnt worry too much about counting sins or having free food. The only exception being that I did try to eat fruit when I was peckish, but we ate out 4 times at an all you can eat buffet (MMMMMMmmmmmmm!) and had 3 macdonalds meals! Wine every day, for breakfast daily I had 3 pain aux chocolat.... etc etc.
So I was thrilled to find I had only put on 5 and a half pounds!! So after my holiday blow out I now weigh 17 stone 4 and a half pounds. This is great news for me. I feel motivated and happy to get cracking. I am over the moon that its not goign to take a long slog to get rid of my holiday weight.
Tuesday, 25 April 2006
More weight loss
This week I have had more accupuncture, but I didnt feel it the way I thought I would. This is the first time I have had a treatment and come out feeling like I need one. Oh well. I will see her again in 10 days anyway, so hopefully that will come around fast.
I lost another half a pound this week. I am pleased with that actually, even though I would have loved to have lost more.
I am feeling a little bit down this week though. I really think I am going to put on this week, and because I am already thinking that, it means that I am eating to comfort myself. WHY DO WE DO THIS!!!! This is like self sabotage. Someone somewhere must analyse the psychology of this crazy mind set. What is it that makes us fat people who are battling the bulge think this way. They (my collegues at slimmingworld) all understand what I mean, but my thin friends totally dont get it. And i actually dont want to feel like this but I simply cannot help myself!!!! TRAGIC.
Anyway, I will try and get myself together so that I can lose this week too. I only have 6 weeks before we go to France and I would love to have lost 3 stone by then (but i SERIOUSLY doubt thats going to happen![you see.... there we go again, always underestimating myself. its like if i say it is really unlikely, when it doesnt happen i dont get hurt any more. I should really learn to aim a bit higher, and not worry about the fall!])
So I now weigh 16st 8 and a half lbs. I have now lost 2 stone and 4lbs.
3 more pounds and I will have lost 2 and a half stone. So only 10 more pounds until I reach my goal for the holiday of 3 stone. That will actually be 3 stone in one year, because when I came back from France at the same time last year I was back up to my original weight for when I started the diet!! Grrrrr. So its nice. I remember saying on holiday to my 35 stone freind and his 9 stone wife (wow man... thats gotta hurt!) that this time next year I would be a lot thinner. Well I am getting there!!!
I am also about to buy a colonic board. A freind of mine bought it about 5 years ago and after being hauled halfway across the world it has sat in her loft unused. She is selling it to me as I have seen these mega gross out photos of what colonic irrigation gets rid of. It is unreal!! I do not want that plaque blocking up my vital organs. Its got to be bad for you. So I am having a colonic at a clinic nearby for £75 initial conflab and cleanse (my words not theirs!!) and then i will do the others at home. I would normally have a go on my own, but I want to get them to do it first so I know what goes on and what it should be like so that I can be more sure of myself when I do it in my bathroom. This colonic board is really good! Its really amazing. You get a chair in the bathroom and lie it on the toilet and chair and then you hop on. You let gravity filter 10 GALLONS of water into your bum and then wait for the fun to start!!! LOL Its not like an enema. This gets right up there into the center of the earth. I am really looking forward to it.
I will check in again soon people, and let you know how the colon cleansing goes. Apparently, it also helps your headaches, back aches etc etc. Clears skin and oh... did I mention lose weight? Hee Hee Hee Hee Hee
I lost another half a pound this week. I am pleased with that actually, even though I would have loved to have lost more.
I am feeling a little bit down this week though. I really think I am going to put on this week, and because I am already thinking that, it means that I am eating to comfort myself. WHY DO WE DO THIS!!!! This is like self sabotage. Someone somewhere must analyse the psychology of this crazy mind set. What is it that makes us fat people who are battling the bulge think this way. They (my collegues at slimmingworld) all understand what I mean, but my thin friends totally dont get it. And i actually dont want to feel like this but I simply cannot help myself!!!! TRAGIC.
Anyway, I will try and get myself together so that I can lose this week too. I only have 6 weeks before we go to France and I would love to have lost 3 stone by then (but i SERIOUSLY doubt thats going to happen![you see.... there we go again, always underestimating myself. its like if i say it is really unlikely, when it doesnt happen i dont get hurt any more. I should really learn to aim a bit higher, and not worry about the fall!])
So I now weigh 16st 8 and a half lbs. I have now lost 2 stone and 4lbs.
3 more pounds and I will have lost 2 and a half stone. So only 10 more pounds until I reach my goal for the holiday of 3 stone. That will actually be 3 stone in one year, because when I came back from France at the same time last year I was back up to my original weight for when I started the diet!! Grrrrr. So its nice. I remember saying on holiday to my 35 stone freind and his 9 stone wife (wow man... thats gotta hurt!) that this time next year I would be a lot thinner. Well I am getting there!!!
I am also about to buy a colonic board. A freind of mine bought it about 5 years ago and after being hauled halfway across the world it has sat in her loft unused. She is selling it to me as I have seen these mega gross out photos of what colonic irrigation gets rid of. It is unreal!! I do not want that plaque blocking up my vital organs. Its got to be bad for you. So I am having a colonic at a clinic nearby for £75 initial conflab and cleanse (my words not theirs!!) and then i will do the others at home. I would normally have a go on my own, but I want to get them to do it first so I know what goes on and what it should be like so that I can be more sure of myself when I do it in my bathroom. This colonic board is really good! Its really amazing. You get a chair in the bathroom and lie it on the toilet and chair and then you hop on. You let gravity filter 10 GALLONS of water into your bum and then wait for the fun to start!!! LOL Its not like an enema. This gets right up there into the center of the earth. I am really looking forward to it.
I will check in again soon people, and let you know how the colon cleansing goes. Apparently, it also helps your headaches, back aches etc etc. Clears skin and oh... did I mention lose weight? Hee Hee Hee Hee Hee
Tuesday, 18 April 2006
Result
Lost 2 pounds this week. This is an all time record!! I am now 16 stone and 9 pounds. I was also slimmer of the week and I got this really random Fridge magnet which said "If its going to be, its up to me!" - Inspired!! LOL
Anyway, feel good about the weight loss, even though I have not been a saint! I have had chinese because me and my hubby celebrated our meeting 10 years ago! I also went to France for the day and had salami danois and french bread, wine and a couple of chocolate brioche! So i am very pleased with 2lbs off. I simply cannot understand that I have lost less than this through following the diet completely. I am not goign to complain though. If it works, then great, at least I know that I can have treats when I want them and still lose.
Anyway, thats all folks. I will be having another session of accupuncture on saturday and hopefully that will keep me on track too!
Anyway, feel good about the weight loss, even though I have not been a saint! I have had chinese because me and my hubby celebrated our meeting 10 years ago! I also went to France for the day and had salami danois and french bread, wine and a couple of chocolate brioche! So i am very pleased with 2lbs off. I simply cannot understand that I have lost less than this through following the diet completely. I am not goign to complain though. If it works, then great, at least I know that I can have treats when I want them and still lose.
Anyway, thats all folks. I will be having another session of accupuncture on saturday and hopefully that will keep me on track too!
Tuesday, 11 April 2006
What is going on??????
I really do not know what is going on with my body.
Last week I ate for England, and put on 1 lb. I was not happy with myself as you know, but I was still not too bothered to be honest. I think I thought that this week I would play catch up and put on loads of weight. I thought “right, I will get back on track” but actually didn’t. I went to my acupuncture on Saturday and she did some new needling in different places (elbow and a few more on legs than usual) and she also left some studs in my ears… 3 of them… that I am supposed to massage when I feel the urge to nibble. She said they do the trick, and for £30 a session I will try anything!! I don’t think I really thought that they would work too well, but I went to the weigh in today. It was all messed up as someone had double booked the hall and it was all squeezed into a little box of a room…. Anyway, I weighted in and I had lost half a pound. This REALLY is incredible!!!!!!!!!! I am honestly so amazed with acupuncture. I cannot believe I can eat what I did this week and LOSE weight. I thought it would be a miracle if I stayed the same let alone lose! I have been more careful this week…. I have not been a saint, but I have had about half of the weeks meals as diet meals I think. It made it easier having L & M over a few times and going to theirs a few times too, but I have had Chinese 2 times and fish and chips and also a couple of bottles of wine. I really thought I was going to cop it this week and put on about 5lbs so I had a good pig out last night. I had 3 crumpets with real butter, 2 hot cross buns with butter too, 4 slices of fresh crusty bread and butter and Bovril and half of a double chocolate fudge cake, so to lose half a pound after eating all of that is just debilitatingly unbelievable! I also had 2 magnum chocolate ice creams during the day aswell! To top the icing on the cake, I have the painters at home too!!!!! HA HA! How is this working? How can I lose weight like this? I have decided that I really do want to lose this weight, although my food choices for the last 2 weeks have looked as if I want to put it on, its just that I want to lose it eating the same. I know I cant do that. I will give this slimming world diet a full on new fresh start and consider myself as if I am starting a new diet today. I have been good all today. So far today I have had:
4 slices bread for my 2 B options (toasted)
diet flora spread (1 syn)
2 tomatoes
2 bananas
2 servings rice
1 large serving of Moroccan Vegetable dish (free on a green day) which includes courgette, spinach, tomato, garlic, peppers, quorn pieces, onions and Moroccan spices.
4 cups of coffee (1 A option = milk)
1 litre of water
So I will have a little something tonight, most likely yoghurt and fruit and maybe a glass of wine, but not going over my 10 syns.
What a good girl. If I put on weight next week I shall eat my flippin’ hat!!!!!!
Last week I ate for England, and put on 1 lb. I was not happy with myself as you know, but I was still not too bothered to be honest. I think I thought that this week I would play catch up and put on loads of weight. I thought “right, I will get back on track” but actually didn’t. I went to my acupuncture on Saturday and she did some new needling in different places (elbow and a few more on legs than usual) and she also left some studs in my ears… 3 of them… that I am supposed to massage when I feel the urge to nibble. She said they do the trick, and for £30 a session I will try anything!! I don’t think I really thought that they would work too well, but I went to the weigh in today. It was all messed up as someone had double booked the hall and it was all squeezed into a little box of a room…. Anyway, I weighted in and I had lost half a pound. This REALLY is incredible!!!!!!!!!! I am honestly so amazed with acupuncture. I cannot believe I can eat what I did this week and LOSE weight. I thought it would be a miracle if I stayed the same let alone lose! I have been more careful this week…. I have not been a saint, but I have had about half of the weeks meals as diet meals I think. It made it easier having L & M over a few times and going to theirs a few times too, but I have had Chinese 2 times and fish and chips and also a couple of bottles of wine. I really thought I was going to cop it this week and put on about 5lbs so I had a good pig out last night. I had 3 crumpets with real butter, 2 hot cross buns with butter too, 4 slices of fresh crusty bread and butter and Bovril and half of a double chocolate fudge cake, so to lose half a pound after eating all of that is just debilitatingly unbelievable! I also had 2 magnum chocolate ice creams during the day aswell! To top the icing on the cake, I have the painters at home too!!!!! HA HA! How is this working? How can I lose weight like this? I have decided that I really do want to lose this weight, although my food choices for the last 2 weeks have looked as if I want to put it on, its just that I want to lose it eating the same. I know I cant do that. I will give this slimming world diet a full on new fresh start and consider myself as if I am starting a new diet today. I have been good all today. So far today I have had:
4 slices bread for my 2 B options (toasted)
diet flora spread (1 syn)
2 tomatoes
2 bananas
2 servings rice
1 large serving of Moroccan Vegetable dish (free on a green day) which includes courgette, spinach, tomato, garlic, peppers, quorn pieces, onions and Moroccan spices.
4 cups of coffee (1 A option = milk)
1 litre of water
So I will have a little something tonight, most likely yoghurt and fruit and maybe a glass of wine, but not going over my 10 syns.
What a good girl. If I put on weight next week I shall eat my flippin’ hat!!!!!!
Tuesday, 4 April 2006
REALLY can't understand it.
Right... get this. This week I started out weighing 16st 10.5lbs.
I have eaten in excess of:
Tuesday:
I have eaten in excess of:
Tuesday:
- 2 fried egg sarnies in oil and butter
- 2 large bars of cadburys dairy milk
- 1 chinese takeaway (Crispy aromatic duck, sweet and sour chicken hong kong style, prawn crackers[1bag!], egg fried rice and a pancake roll)
- 1 bottle of Merlot
- 2 kellogs nutrigrain bars
- 1 packet of apple crisps
- 2 slices of bread with branston pickle
TOTAL 125 SYNS
Wednesday:
- beans on toast
- 1 Indian takeaway (prawn puri, prawn dhansak, pilau rice and peshwari naan and mango chutney)
- 1 bottle chilled reisling
TOTAL 90 SYNS
Thursday:
- beans on toast
- 3 pork sausages in onion gravy, mash and peas
- jacket potato and coleslaw
TOTAL 20 SYNS
Friday:
- 4 slices of bread with salad and saladcreme
- lots of fruit
- 1 pizza (sweetcorn, tuna and jalapeno)
- 2 portions of garlic bread with cheese
- Bottle of red wine
TOTAL 120 SYNS
Saturday:
- sandwich with pickle
- fish and chips
- crusty bread (with real butter!!)
- 2 hot cross buns
- half bottle of merlot
- half a packet of pecan nuts
TOTAL 130 SYNS
Sunday:
- 3 hot cross buns with butter
- spaghetti on toast
- rice dish made with White wine and chicken and pork and olive oil... very lovely so very fattening
- ripe camembert and home made onion bread
- bread an olive oil
- 4 glasses of sweet white wine
- 2 glasses of dry sherry
- 1 glass of whisky and coke
- half a packet of pecans
- 1 muller light
- 1 chocolate nutrigrain bar
- 1 apple
- 4 packets of crisps
TOTAL 160 SYNS
Monday:
- 3 packets of crisps
- 1 large chocolate egg
- 2 packets of rolo's
- half a loaf of white bread
- rissoto with half a block of butter and 1 pint of white wine, mushrooms, tomato and garlic
- half a bottle white wine
- handful of cashews
TOTAL 160 SYNS
HOW ON THIS EARTH DID I ONLY PUT ON ONE POUND??????
I can be so good and put on half a pound and have 5 takeaway meals and put only 1 pound on. I expected to put on at least 6 pounds. This has really disheartened me!!!! I should feel glad that I have not put much on, but actually I feel really rubbish because I havent.
TOTAL 805 SYNS THIS WEEK!!!! I AM ALLOWED 70.
LAST WEEK I HAD 70 SYNS AND PUT ON HALF A POUND AND THIS WEEK I HAVE OVER 800 AND ONLY PUT ON 1 POUND.
RUBBISH.
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