Monday, 29 December 2008

Doomsday *updated*

I am forcing myself to go and get weighed today. I know its going to be horrible, but I have to do it or the wondering will make me eat... I know that's crazy, but it always does. I always get on that whole "Oh I am so terrible" bandwagon and then end up eating all the pies because I 'think' I have put on weight so I might as well continue. Its a stupid idiotic way to look at things, but I cant change it. It really is mental.

So I am going to face the damage and just go with it and sort it out this week.

Ok, it was not good, but it could of been much much worse. I also have the painters in again, so that always gives me a couple of extra pounds to lug around.

It was a 3 and a half pound gain this week.

I am right back on it though... and to be honest, I wonder what I would be now had I not been doing the diet for the last 2 weeks... it keeps me on the straight and narrow. I would have been way off course had I not been.

So today's food was
scrambled egg and baked beans for brekkie
beetroot for lunch
sweet potato and lentil curry and rice for dinner.

I am tending to go for *wet* foods. I don't know why, but it seems that because this means I get to actually eat without worrying about puking, I take the safe option. I don't have too much trouble eating normal foods, but I just hate that feeling so much that I choose the soft option.

Changing the subject...
I am rolling with a whole new concept for DS's education. I am finding that scheduled and timed lessons are not doing it for us as a family. DS, as he gets older, is seeming to want to look elsewhere for information about his interests and they don't come from textbooks. They are very much hands on and what is happening is that he spends his day doing Maths, English, spellings and handwriting and science etc and then by the time he has finished that, what he really wanted to do that day is impossible because of time constraints. This, to me, smacks of school all over again. This was the problem I had with school in the first place. Kids don't have enough time to follow their dreams and desires and interests to the full.

Think of the things that you do well, that you like to do, that you're good at. (Things from your vocation, or hobbies, or -- anything).

How many of them did you learn in school?
How many of them were forced on you?

How many did you acquire by your own interest and curiosity?
How many of them did you work hard at because you had interest?

If your initial answers aren't glaringly obvious, ask these same questions of your spouse, your neighbours, your friends, your family.

I know that when I answer these questions I find it pretty darn amazing.

*I play the piano (learnt privately because I wanted to) .
*I teach piano - because I love kids, I taught myself how to do it... I didn't do a course in it. One day I needed a job and thought.. "Hey! I can teach piano!" and put an ad in a corner shop. that was 13 years ago.
*I do my own UV Gel nails - I begrudged the £30 a fortnight and 2 hours in a salon, so I thought "stuff that" and learnt to do it on my todd and now I do other friends too... who pay me to boot!! HA HA
*I make my own clothes, curtains, table cloths etc. I learnt from my Mum on her old 'Singer' making clothes for my dolls and teds (and for some reason endless amount of slippers). None of them fitted right ever. I progressed to bags and long skirts... following patterns etc and now I can do whatever you want me to do. I even made a fully working multi layered Roman blind which would have cost about £500 had I had to buy it!
*I learnt to type. All by myself
*I learnt to drive
*I learnt to cook from the age of about 2. I cooked a full 3 course meal for my mum and dad at 9. I cant believe I never let DS even have a go at that yet!! Who cares if its burnt really.
*I learnt to keep a house
*I learnt to navigate road maps
*I built a swimming pool for Goodness sake!

I even learned how to fill in the self assessment tax form. Tax doesn't have to be taxing... but it IS! What a joke. If I can do that without learning it at school...

There are seriously hundreds of things that I can do that I never learnt in school. They never even teach it in school. Knitting, crochet, darning, sewing, proper cooking (not some yucky half baked crumble or manky lasagna), wallpapering, painting, putting up a fence, training a dog, washing clothes so that they come out right afterwards, running a house and shopping, first aid, balancing a cheque book, using a computer, bringing up an baby, being a wife.

I am going to follow this philosophy with DS for a while. He can read well, add up and take away well, knows loads of stuff... why do I need to cram his brain full of useless muck which he will never use... or if he does, can find out easily for himself with the website google?

For one thing, the timetables and crap are NOT working... all I do is get stressed because he daydreams all day long whilst holding a pen and I am like some horrible warden jailer "BOY!!!! DO YOUR WORK!!!" at which he rapidly scrambles to it until I turn my back. That's not how its supposed to be. That's horrible.

I am my sons worst nightmare.

DS loves animals. He loves cooking. He loves outdoor stuff. We never get to do this because he is doing other stuff which he hates.

So stuff it. We are gonna do stuff he likes and see what happens.

So begins our phase of autonomous child led education.


Saturday, 27 December 2008

The American Contingent

We have had a lush couple of days with my American Cousins. They are going home tomorrow sadly, but we have had such a lot of fun! What is even sadder is that I have eaten for the whole of the English Contingent... OOOooops.

Oh well, a few days off in the course of things will change the scales for a week or so, but my mind set is still there.

Its impossible to be a goody two shoes when there are people having a visit. Marcie and Linda are so lovely. They are such sweeties and so enthralled by everything you show them that its such a joy to have them about.

We went to a lovely market town and went around a museum of Oliver Cromwell's House and then to a tiny little pub by a back water fen that was really great. I have never been to these places either, so it always gives me a good excuse to get of my butt and go and do something.

They are my 7th cousins, and we found each other when doing genealogy regarding our weird surname, and it has been fab just getting to know half of a family again. We have been there, and they have been here and so on and its been lovely. There are still such striking resemblances between us that its amazing.

Anyway, I have had a diet of dinners out... currys and cakes, biscuits and cakes, wine and cakes and oh I don't know, more cakes?

So its not going to be pretty, but then again at least I can get in control again.

I think actually, I need another fill. I am able to eat pretty much what I want again and I don't get that completely stuffed feeling either... Like tonight we went to a buffet - all you can eat Indian restaurant - and I went up 3 times!!! I didn't have to do that, but I could. We all know what that means right?

Anyway, I will think about that later. Right now I cant be bothered and I am gonna go to bed.

nighty night

Wednesday, 24 December 2008

Not thinking about her imminent departure at all...!!!!

She is leaving in the morning apparently. All her stuff is still in the cupboard though. This morning she woke the whole house up at 5am by having a shower. Its obviously she does it on purpose to piss people off. So I wonder if she will start packing at about 3am or something MAD. To be honest I don't give a rats bum what she does. I have given her the invoice and now shes going. That's it.

I made a lovely dish for tonight's tea...

serves 4

4 chicken breasts
1/2 pint of aduki beans (soaked overnight)
1 can of chopped tomato
1 onion
1 clove garlic
2 large carrot-size sweet potatoes cut up small
1tsp All Spice/Mixed Spice
1/2 tsp crushed chilli
2tbsp olive oil
1tbsp sesame oil
1 chicken stock cube
lots of coconut cream powder

Put the chicken breasts on a tray and cover with foil and roast.

You boil the beans for 40 minutes in the stock. Keep adding water as it seems to evaporate.
Then in another pan fry the onions in the oils and add the spices. once softened add the garlic and fry a little further. Then add the chopped tomato and sweet potato and all the beans/stock mixture and mix it all up and bring to the boil. Again add water just enough so that when you press down there is a little free sauce. then keep simmering and adding water until the sweet potato is cooked. (this is not supposed to be watery btw!) then when cooked turn off the heat and stir in as much coconut cream powder as you like and serve it with the roasted chicken. DELICIOUS

Just enjoying a G&T and looking through the flatshare wanted pages... hic!

Tuesday, 23 December 2008


Oh, I feel sick with pleasure!

Oh my goodness, I feel like I am going to explode with happiness

I told the stupid COW that it wasn't working out - understatement I know - and she just rolled over and said that was fine and she would move out no worries.

She goes on Wednesday! How cool is that? I was so stressed about this situation, and now its finally over I am so drunk on the love I have for sweet justice that its just unreal.

This evening, if I had had any doubts in my mind whatsoever, then what follows sorted that...

I served a lovely soup for starter... Potato and Caraway. Everyone except her ate the lot and wiped the bowl clean with their roll. She had 1 teaspoon. Actually thats exaggerating a little... she had half a teaspoon.

Then the main was roasted veg (sweet potato, parsnip, onion, pepper) with a garlic and tomato sauce and green salad:
We have always ALWAYS eaten as a family. It doesn't matter who you are, if you come to our house, and its dinner time, you eat with us and you're at at the table. With the lodgers... I mean we don't really know who any of them are and its a chance to get to know each other and share the day and be sociable... Beeeyatch from hell has tried to schlep on us many times and today she just wasn't going to get away with it. So after pushing the soup about with her spoon and looking like she would vomit at any moment just for being around us she announces as I am dishing up the main course:

AMY: "I will eat my main in my room"
Me: "Actually do you mind not eating in your bedroom as I would rather the furniture not be ruined"
AMY: "I'm not going to eat it on the bed, I will sit at the desk!!! "
Me: "Yeah, but I would still rather you didn't."
AMY: *roll eyes* "fine. I will eat on the sofa later"
Me: "Hmmm, same thing really. Can you eat at the table like (A NORMAL HUMAN) usual?"
AMY: "grunt"

What the **** is wrong with her...? I don't know anyone else from Kenya, but seriously she is just off the wall weird. Trying to be nice, I asked her what her favorite food was and she replied:

"Maize and beans - every tribe has their favorite food".

I mean seriously... maize and beans??? Are you joking me? With all the different foods there are available in the WORLD, her favorite food is maize and beans? I like sweetcorn. I like beans. Give them to me as part of a meal and you are rocking. Wow, no wonder she doesn't like Roast chicken breast with Cream, shallot, garlic and bacon sauce served with haricot vert and colcannon. How awful to have to eat my food. The poor cow... how terrible I am!


SHUU UP. She has lived in the UK for 4 years. Apparently until she came here she had never had cheese... That's right cheese! I am surprised that someone from Kenya or anywhere in Africa can be that flippant with food. When you consider the fact that there are people starving in her own country, here she sits poking my food about like its some kind of slow poison. Well sorry Lady, you can just sod right off. I have bent over backwards for the cow and she is plainly a selfish, arrogant, pig ignorant, rude, contrary, argumentative wench.

Good riddance and God help your next landlord.

Just in case you tastebuds are tickled by the delicious maize and beans prospect.. here's a recipe for how to make it. Be prepared though... its really difficult, time consuming and hard, but the delicate and refined taste is obviously better that anything that western foods can deliver... be prepared for a taste sensation of your lifetime:

Recipe for Githeri:
1 cup Maize
1 cup Beans (kidney or similar)
Cook equal quantities of maize and beans in water for several hours until soft. Serve alone or with unripe cooked bananas.

Wow, that sounds just awesome. *Spews into hankie*

Monday, 22 December 2008

She's had hers

Right... Amy has now bitten her last victim and she is going to be out on her bum in the new year. I cant quite bring myself to give her her notice this week... not because its Xmas, but just because I know she wont be able to find anywhere quickly enough as most people wont want to be getting a new lodger right now... So I am going to make the most of the extra cash for 2 weeks then kick the bint out.

I am not going to go into all the details but lets just say, she is nasty to my animals - Gary, Kieth, Steve, Pauline, Mary, Felix, Dave and Dylan the dog. She sprayed air freshener at Dave yesterday to scare him off the surface he was sleeping on! ARGH I WANT TO SPRAY HER! She was nasty to me about my beliefs, had an argument with DS about 12a certificate films - a 10 year old has more knowledge and reason than her. Honestly she is a dumb head.

DS: "We're going to see Yes Man!"
AMY: "Sorry - it's too old for you."
DS: "No its a 12a. 12a's were originally 15's but they changed them"
AMY: "No a 15 is a 15...12a is a 12a."
DS:"Actually, it is a new classification that started with Spiderman. The bbfc wanted it to be a 15, but the writers said that the people who it was aimed at (8-12yr olds) would not be able to watch it, so they changed it to a 12a."
AMY: "A 15 is a 15. DUH!"
DS: "No Amy... its because..."
AMY: "jumping down throat* " Oh just shut up about it. A 12a is NOT a 15 ok! if it was it would have 15 on it. You don't know everything ok?"


Anyway, got weighed today. I stayed the same weight. I am really pleased with that. TB actually put on the 4 pound she lost last week... that's really sad as I know it really kills her to put on weight. This time of year is really hard for dieters. I don't have that excuse, but still seem to eat loads anyway. So we have really got to do this 100% or at least use damage limitation. after the 2 dinners I had out this week and the wine I have had I am really stoked to still weigh the same, but I tried to eat nothing bad at all on the days where I didn't have to go out. And yes, I do feel pretty darn smug :o))))) So I am still with it, and am surprised that I am too, but have a different mind on this game right now.

Dunno what I am having for dinner tonight... I have had beetroot and salad for lunch.

Thursday, 18 December 2008

sKrAwNy WaNnAbE

Today has been a good day. DS got all his work done which is good. He is at a sleepover this evening, so I think the threat of not being able to got his butt in gear. I got up at midday, which is crazy - Have no idea why I slept so much, but I was obviously whacked for some reason. Had my lunch which was smoked salmon - period. Nothing else, just that. I made DS baked beans on toast (his favorite lunch) and that was it really. I made a tortilla for tea.. Boiled potato slices mixed up with onion, garlic and spinach and a lot of eggs then baked in the oven. I served it with baked beans which were HORRIBLE. Oh man they were disgusting. They kind of taste fishy and tinny... I am so talking them back tomorrow. They are co-op's own brand and they are vile. It completely ruined the dinner as they were like touching the rest of the food and I felt sick. I took a whiff from the tin and it really REEKED.

Strangely enough Amy said "Oh, I didn't notice... it tasted nice". HA! What?!?!?! I mean the horrible cow picks over my delicious lovingly cooked meals like they are freaking poison - but when there is a real threat to her health (seriously they were THAT bad) she thinks they are... NICE???!!!

I just don't get the woman. She is a halfwit I swear to god.

So, nothing has changed over night in this household... I am still on a mission to slimness, DH is gorgeous, DS is beautiful, Sue is posh, Amy is a freaking wierdo & I am about to watch Lovewrecked. Hopefully its good.

Wednesday, 17 December 2008

Two photos I found which I think will inspire me to keep going. The first was December 2006 in Czech Republic at the beginning of my journey. 8 weeks later I had my band. The second photo was taken back in the summer(2008)

Tuesday, 16 December 2008


Oh what bliss it is to get a nice fat bonus.

Unbelievably DH came home from work today with a nice fat wad of cash like Harry Enfield's 'loads-a-money'. It was a beauteous thing. So we have bought the filter we needed for the pool and more than likely will be able to start building work on the new office shortly in the new year.

Don't know if I told you all that we have a socking great hole in the lounge wall... No, don't think I did. Well we have a socking great hole in our lounge wall. It goes straight into our garage and will soon become office/classroom/guest room extraordinaire! YAY! We have costed it at about £400 to do the work. Then it will cost a bit more to get the floor done in tiles like the rest of the house... but I think I can manage that so that halves the bill nicely. Its gonna look great. The only thing we cant physically do is the electrics. DH is hopeless with things like that, and to be honest we haven't had security lighting for the last 4 weeks because he cant work out some problem with them. We had the hole cut in the wall and since then the security lighting has gone a bit wrong. When we switch the thing on, it just stays on - heating up the road in a halogen glow... so we have had to keep it off for now. So we need a nice cheap electrician who feels like doing some extensive charity work! HA HA. So when hell freezes over we shall get that sorted then.

But our downstairs is going to look massive. At the moment there is just a huge piece of polystyrene duct-taped to the wall. Attractive it isn't, but it keeps the ice out. The hole is literally straight into the garage and the wind whistles through mercilessly.

So that's really nice to know that we have that cash ready for the green light and then I can have my lovely office back - but double the size! I have already sourced my desk... its a gargantuan white dining table from Ikea that will do the trick perfectly. Its 2 meters long and 70cms wide. Personally I think this would make a shocking dining table, but its the best desk ever. It has these weird legs underneath that the printer and the towers can sit on and its just amazing. Its also £70 which is the most fab bit about it! I will take pics and show you the work in progress don't worry. This is stage one... The door on the right goes up the stairs to the bedrooms and the one on the right goes to the front porch. You can see why I am eager to get started. Its become a dumping ground and the bookcase is in fact holding the polystyrene sheet against the wall!! HA

So onto diet/band news... nothing to report. No pukes, chokes or HMS's. Today's food has been reasonable but not exactly, lets say, exotic.

I have had some chilli beans, a little jacket potato flesh, 4 ryvitas as snacks, 1 can of lentil and bacon soup and some Bulgar wheat and quinoa in a sweet chilli stock... a bit like soup too really. The packet said put 500mls in a pan and boil until water is absorbed... well it didn't absorb and fluffing with a fork was NOT necessary. I had to eat it with a spoon it was so sloppy. It was very tasty though. Had a couple of yogurts to whilst watching the telly. So today's been pretty good and 100% on plan.

Tomorrow I am making a starter for my Friends little soiree. She has invited me and another Yummy Mummy around for lunch and all the kids can get together and play. The YM who invited me has 2 boys and the other YM has 4. So it should be fun for the kids. The starter is just for us three Mummys and the Other YM is making desert. So I am a bit out on a limb tomorrow with eating so we shall have to see what happens. I also have to go to DH's shop dinner on Saturday night. Its a Moroccan place so I have no idea what I will have to eat. I am hoping I can go for couscous or something like that as that will be pretty low in problems.

So onwards and upwards. Here is a funny photo of DS. We were goofing about the other day and he came up with this winner. He calls it Maths Geek...

Lodger AMY daily crap update:

Felix the cat did a fine turn out under the radiator in the Utility room. Its his favorite sport and one of his favorite spots - the others being the front door mat, the hallway at the bottom of the stairs and behind DS's desk in his bedroom. I cleaned it up and then went off. Came back and it was still stinky, so sprayed a couple of squirts of lavender airfresh.

Amy: "Who was that?!"

Me: "Hmmm...?"

Amy:" Eww who was that... its terrible * fake cough splutter* I am opening the window"

Me - thinking she can smell the cat crap says: "oh felix had a slack bowel again so I freshened the place"

Amy: "It was you????!!! *fake cough* that spray *choke* it's come straight in my room!!"

Classic Comeback from Me: "Oh I'm so sorry... I thought you would prefer the smell of Lavender rather than the smell of poo. I wont bother next time."

HAHAHAHAHA!!!!! Oh yes. She had nothing to say to that and glared at me and went back in her coven.

Interesting how she choked on the sweet smell of lavender squirty. Mind you, maybe I should have known better because while I was at work the other day she sat on the sofa for 3 hours with a pile of cat poo right on the floor in front of her, and carried on watching the telly. I came home and was like "OH for heavens sake" but apparently she "didn't know where the smell was coming from" so just left it there. She is obviously used to lesser dwellings. silly cow

Monday, 15 December 2008

Monday Monday

2 and a half pounds off!! Yes that is so sweet.

TB lost 4 (the cow!) but there does seem to be a lower weightloss when you go 'on a diet' with a band... i guess that's because you are already having a limited amount of food - so I am well pleased with 2 and a half. Oh man, I was so looking forward to today. I have been really excellent all week and am looking forward to my treat today which is a movie and a couple of glasses of red wine! Excellent. I am trying not to use any 'syns' up today so that I can use it all for wine! HA HA HA

Wine is a killer to my eating plan so I plan on having it as a treat as some would a chocolate bar. I like chocolate, don't get me wrong, but I like wine better.

So we went to the group this morning. The usual suspects were there. I cant believe that some of these people have been going for 7 or 8 years! WOW. Anyway, it means they keep their weight off. There are a lot of big losers in this class as opposed to the Slimmingworld PIG's group that we used to go to. We were the longest members of that class after a while and we had only been going 18 months and lost a couple of stone each. This group is really nice. Yeah its a bit happy clappy and everyone is always chatting and butting in, but there is a real feeling of 'community' and people are genuinely happy for you when you lose weight or if you are having a hard time.

Where we live is on the edge of the 'funny country' where people start to get a bit odd and whole villages are related... you know the kind of thing. If you haven't lived there for 10 generations then you are an alien. The class with the PIG as the leader was in a town near to us... our local area, but this class is a little bit further away in the opposite direction and they have 'accents' and are a bit... random. Its so strange that its only about 8 miles from our village, but no one from this group ever ventures out our way... They always stick within their little micro climate of towns.

Well, I am a true outsider anyway, so I don't care to be honest. I think they let us in so that we could help expand the gene pool!!

So this funny little class in the Fens is where we are at Monday morning 10am. Next week they are having a christmas party and bringing all kinds of fat free fodder that they have cooked or mucked around with - so I think we shall give that a miss. The last thing I want to do is eat a load of stuff and waste syns on things I don't like and frankly don't know what or where or how they have been cooked. Eeeww. *shudders* I think I am getting a bit like my Dad in that respect.

So the band is behaving and I have nice restriction. I am sick very rarely now I am behaving myself. I have finally given in to its demands. It seems to like a mouthful of food, then a minute wait, then another mouthful or two and then a few minutes rest and then I can start to eat slow mouthfuls a little easier. I often have to stop after 4 or 5 bites and wait for maybe even 10 minutes so that 'something' can happen and it will allow me to eat. Then I seem to able to eat pretty nicely on a small amount and feel completely satisfied.

Today for instance I came out of Slimmingworld and I handed TB a Ryvita goodness bar(I can have 2 of those for a healthy option). She ate hers in 2 gulps and I had to nibble and rest between swallows and then I had to put it down 2/3rd though and come back to it later as my band said "No!". Then we went shopping for groceries and came home and I have just had 2 ryvitas... dry... and I actually like them like that. I have never considered eating ryvita without something on them and to be honest I find really dry things are easy to eat as they break apart easily and don't turn into a sticky bolus. Then they travel down and swell in your stomach which makes you full. So why I never thought of this before, I don't know.
Dinner tonight is Ham with cauliflower and green beans and a cheese sauce. No syns there either, and then onto the vino!

Its rent day today too... This brings me nicely on to Amy. She is our new lodger. Wow, she is a piece of work. She is argumentative and stroppy and completely the most contrary person I have ever met. She also makes absolutely no sense in her reasoning, and doesn't let you answer when you are responding to the problem... unless she wants to make you feel awkward and then she will leave a nice pregnant eternity whilst she looks down at you and sneers with her head doing a wobble side to side. ARGH

for instance... a conversation last night between Sue and Amy went thus:

Topic - questions asked during interviews (as Sue has an interview for a job on Wednesday)
Amy: "So are you a leader or a follower"
Sue: "I am a leader. Well I like to think that I am a leader anyway"
Amy: "Why are you a leader?"
Sue: "Well I don't like being a follower"
Amy: "So you are not a follower?"
Sue: "Well I guess sometimes I have to be if I am told to do something"
Amy "HA! Then you are not a leader then"


what a nightmare.

I could go on and on and on, but she just has these cyclical conversations and they are so DUMB its unreal. I don't like iT when she is in her sullen moods and just sulks about and stays in her room, but I prefer it to her being stroppy.

Also, she crossed the line. The fat line. Now you and I both know that this line is a serious thing in my house and Sue crossed it and I dished her completely in a previous post. Well I nearly threw both of the cheeky SWINES onto the street last night for their outright cheek telling me - YES TELLING ME - that basically I had no self control and was the scum of the earth for being fat and taking up health care and breathing space. Apparently slimmignworld is a waste of time because obviously what is the point in me going if after 2 years I haven't changed my habits and still eat like a hog and the band is a waste of time all I needed was to get some self respect.


How would you guys have liked to be a fly on the wall of that conversation. Both of them (Sue and Amy) talk over you and at you and I couldn't get a word in edgeways so I feel like poisoning then both, or gobbing in their soup or something. The mean, horrible, NASTY DOUCHE bags.

No one should treat people like that, and they didn't have a shred of empathy whatsoever. When I said that for me, food was my cocaine, they both snorted. Its not worth me wasting my time, but it makes me feel like a subhuman and I wonder what they think when my fat ugly carcass walks around the house. I am obviously repulsive to them. HOW DARE THEY

Right, heres a hAppy little recipe:
I made this because I had left over jacket potatos.

Potato soup
*3 jacket potatos (very well cooked)
*1 onion
*2 garlic cloves
*'green' leftovers - I had brocolli to use up
*veg stock cube
*mixed herbs
*salt and pepper

boil it all up for about 20 minutes and then whiz with a hand blender...
Tasty - the jacket pots must give it that extra flavour.

Saturday, 13 December 2008


Another day down and another good eating day. I feel conscious of my body and how it feels and how I am helping it... I can't quite describe it, but I know that I am doing it good - if that makes sense. I feel in a completely different mood towards my band and my weightloss and I think -dare I say - I am ready to finish this thing and uncover the real me.

I feel positive and happy and confident that this I Will succeed with the help of my band.

So food today:
*2 ryvita goodness bars
*jacket potato with home made veg chilli and salad
*lentil and pancetta soup from tesco (yum!) 1&1/2 syns

veg chilli recipe: (nice and wet for us bandsters)
1 onion finely chopped and 'fryed' in water until soft
3 cloves garlic crushed and 'fryed' with the onion once it has softened
1 red pepper finely chopped and added to onion/garlic mix
1 can of chopped tomato - blended to a passata and added to the mix.
2 cans of red kidney beans added
4 tablespoons ground cumin
1 teaspoon salt
2 tsp ground black pepper (for the heat)
2 teaspoons sugar

cook for a while until well cooked on a very low heat in a large heavy based pan covered.

then eat with a little rice, or jacket potato or on its own.

completely fat free! Yum.

Friday, 12 December 2008

Ok people, I'm back. YEAH

Right, sorry about the month off thingy... couldn't be bothered to blog because it was just me, myself and I getting all annoyed with myself, eating chocolate, drinking wine, eating some more because I felt rubbish for eating chocolate and drinking wine etc etc infinitum.

I have however, had lots of change this month.

I now know that the work thing was my MAIN issue. Its been about a month since I started in on my new schedule and it is FABULOUS! Why of earth didn't I do it sooner?
I now work from 8am until 10pm on Saturday (No lunch break/tea break/fart break unless I have a cancellation!) Its a complete SHOCKER of a day,but the sheer bliss at knowing that when I hit the bed in the evening I have done the bulk of my work for the week. I do something ugly like 24 lessons in that time, but its lush having Monday, Wednesday, Thursday, Friday and Sunday completely free from work. Tuesday is no problem. Its a typical 3:30 'til 9:30pm job as was the usual daily nightmare until I shoved 'em all on a Saturday.

This massive change to my working week has had a number of fascinating results. I have started, ever so slowly, to get my life in some kind of order. Rather than lurching from one end of chaos to another in the daily battle to survive work, home ed, running a house, cooking for 5, being a wife/mother General dogsbody... I now seem to have moment when I have nothing to do...

Nothing to do! Geeeeez! I actually sat down today and planned all DS's worksheets for the meetings for the whole entire complete full month of January. THAT IS UNHEARD OF!

And what is more - I enjoyed it! HA! Unreal.

Things that used to be a chore have started to turn into a kind of peaceful necessity. So I have gotten a schedule for DS to do all his work and complete everything within the year - not too early, and not too late. He has (daily) 2 pages of Maths, 5 Handwriting books (trust me this is NOT excessive with the state of his handwriting - if I can call it that!), a grammar worksheet, 1 page of science, 40 spellings a week (20 old, 20 new), magazines articles to read and his reading book. He also has to tidy his bedroom and make his bed every morning. Twice he has been banned from ALL screens for a week for not completing that task and it has been carried out too.

BTW - I used to get banned from telly as a kid... now it has to be ALL screens because the kids are crafty little blighters and watch stuff on the laptop. If you ban that too, then they are getting just as much fun on the PS2 or the wii or the DS or the Gameboy. Sheeeesh. Then they have the cheek to say they are bored. *Fumes*

So, with my life calming slightly more each day, I took the plunge and decided to go back to Slimmingworld. I know, I know... You have heard it all before, but I need this. I need the weekly weigh in. I need the push to get myself going and I need the financial slap of shelling out, piking out and then regretting it. Oh alright - I need the group hug ok??? No, in all seriousness, I really do miss the whole thing. Slimmingworld worked when I had will power. It stopped when I lost it after 2 years. Now I have a prosthetic willpower, and I have been 'doing the diet' religiously all week. I haven't made all kinds of everything and trying to make cake with chickpeas or cheesecake with quark or some other rubbish like that... I have just been following the diet. Sticking to 2 healthy milk/cheese options, 2 bread/cereal options and the free food for what ever colour day I am doing.

I have been surprised at how little I have needed. I have given myself a complete kick up the A^$£ and told myself that I seriously don't need chocolate or wine to make me feel better. What I need is a bikini in a size 10 (well even a 16 would do!!!! HA HA). That will make me feel the best ever.

So here is my week in food so far:

Monday 8th December
*mushroom soup (mushrooms, onion, water and stock...) Mmmm sounds yum eh? Well actually it was
*mashed banana snack (HMS'd it all back up)
*Lentil curry sans rice (onion, lentils, tomatoes and curry power)
*2 slices wholemeal bread (toasted to within an inch of tinder)

Tuesday 9th December
* 1 slice wholemeal immersed in 1 egg battered around a bit and thrown int' frying pan.
*1 can spaghetti in tomato sauce
*1 can of baked beans in tomato sauce
*28g cheese
*strawberry yogurt
*orange juice

Wednesday 10th December
*28g porridge oats made really runny
*Philadelphia Splendip
*Can of spaghetti in tomato sauce with 28g cheese on 2 slices toast
*minuscule portion of vegetable lasagna and salad

Thursday 11th December
*Diet chef meal - left over from my last crazy health kick- the pasta and tomato one (yuk)
*jacket potato with baked beans and 28g cheese
*4 dark rye ryvita crackers on their own as snacks throughout the day (YUMMMM!!!!! Seriously - these are great)

Friday 12th December
*tuna mixed with yogurt and blended to make a pate (or something resembling very wet cat shit) on ryvita - HMS'd the lot, then revisited it later when I got over the stench.
*prawns and smoked salmon in home made cocktail sauce (light mayo & tomato sauce) with a bit of green salad
*1 large fresh fruit pot - grapes, melon, mango etc.
*mango smoothie - just mango and a little milk.

Hows that... Not bad! That's ace that is. Obviously those who know how the band works will know that the portions are about the same size as you would give a scrawny hamster, but its a nice well rounded pile of food this week.

So next on my hit list... dunno. I am really in quite a pleasant and, dare I say, Smug mood? I feel content and happy. I would feel even more content had I not got to get up and go to work in 7 hours. *sigh* But as I said, its all over this time tomorrow. Yay!

Weight wise, I have been steadying out at the 16 stone 8 mark. I was 16 stone 8.5 at slimmingworld on Monday, so that's a good place to go from. My lowest was 15 stone 6 just before I went to Malta back in June. I have not been good AT ALL since then, as we all know and coupled with the disaster that was the Unfill from hell, I am pretty stoked to only be a stone heavier. Most of the weight gain came on after the unfill and I just haven't bothered to get rid of it again... so here we go peeps. Watch this space because this time I truly am determined.

Today marks the start of my daily blog again too. I really enjoy writing this diary, and from the emails I got whilst I was not 'in the mood' you do too. Thanks everyone.

Right, lets get down to some fat busting...

Oh, and P.S... our new lodger is a HORROR. We all hate her and hope she moves out soon. Lets hope she reads this blog! Will tell you more tomorrow. *shudderz*